13. Different opinions
Early in the morning I awoke to that Louis lay on top of me again. I knew what he wanted and I did the same thing. We made love for several hours and the only thing I thought about was if he really wanted me? Everything was just about sex, I assumed that it was the only thing that we had in common. Louis didn't seem to understand my doubts and I was still unsure about him. I promised myself that this was the last time we did it. Next time I would say no and I wouldn't go along with it.
When Troy and mom came home, we had removed all evidence. The condoms were far down in the bin and I had changed the sheets on the bed.
"How did it go? Was it fun?" I asked and was unsure if I sounded too happy. Mom hugged me and laughed a little bit.
"Fine, and you?"
Louis swallowed and I saw that he was thinking about sex.
"We took it easy." he said and smiled at them. I felt like the worst daughter in the world. It was as if we constantly had to lie, but I couldn't tell them the truth. In a way, it was exciting. Still, I didn't like the Secret.
In the evening was Louis restless and he didn't seem to like to sit on the couch and watch TV with the whole family.
"But you can do something." Troy said, and looked at us. "Don't let us keep you at home."
Louis stood up quickly and smiled at me.
"Are you coming with me?"
I wanted to stay on but I saw that everyone was staring at me and I couldn't think of a single good excuse. Louis raised his eyebrow and he gave me a knowing look.
"Come on, sis!"
He said it with a twinkle in his eye. I sighed and stood up. I smiled at mom and Troy, then I followed Louis into the hall.
As soon as we sat in the car, Louis laughed lightly.
"They expect nothing."
I sighed and gave him a cold stare.
"Is this a game to you? Will you never life seriously and understand that we doing wrong?"
He gave me a quick glance.
"Come and live life. We don't lie to them, because they haven't asked us."
"So you think mom or Troy ask such a question?"
We left the community and I was surprised when Louis turned the car toward the forest. I had no idea where we were going and I didn't even know where we were. He parked the car behind some trees, and then looked at me.
"I've never done it in the car."
I became angry.
"No, I wont have sex with you ever again."
He laughed and turned off the car. I felt his hand on my thigh and he let it pull up the dress.
"Come on. It's fun!"
I hit his hand away and opened the car door. I went out and I stood angrily outside the car. Louis also jumped out and went around to me.
"But Hope? Is there anything wrong?"
I nodded cold.
"Yes, everything is wrong Louis! You just want to have sex and the only thing you think about is to fuck me."
He quickly shook his head.
"No, I think of other things too."
I looked at him coldly.
"Like what, you drove here just to have sex?"
He came up to me and took his arms around my body.
"But, darling, I didn't mean that."
"Yeah!" I exclaimed. "The first thing you ask for is if I like to do it in the car?"
Louis hugged me and I felt that he meant it as an excuse.
"I didn't just want to have sex."
"What more do you want?"
He cleared his throat lightly.
"You, Just the whole you and you as my girlfriend."
"Then I want you to start talking to me." I whispered. "I don't want to just be your bedfellow who you fuck."
He silenced me.
"Okay, we're talking!"