I fell my stomach drop as I realize that Derin is gone. I tell myself that I don't care, but I'm a terrible liar. No matter how much I despise him I do not want him to die.
"Where is he," the words come out sounding like someone is strangling me.
The nurse sees the strain in my eyes and responds quietly, " he's fine. He has been having more testing done. This test needed to be done alone. You will go tomorrow."
"What is your name," in my head I keep referring to her as "the nurse", but I can see now that she is more than a nurse.
"My name is Diana, but you can call me Dian," she smiles.
"That's a pretty name. So Dian why are you helping me?"
"Because it feels wrong doing these things to you and leaving you in the dark. To be honest I hate this job. You see all these young kids coming in and you do all sorts of things to them and then..."
"And then we die," I finish her sentence.
"Shhhhh," she holds a finger to her lips, her blue eyes wide. "Your not supposed to know that."
"Yeah, yeah its not that big a secret where I come from," I smile and sigh at the same time.
"I wish it weren't true," her face looks sad. Her mouth slides down forming a frown and her eyebrows droop lower than I have ever seen them.
"I didn't think you cared about that much."
"I'm sorry you were chosen and yes of course I care."
"I guess I'm glad that it was me and not someone else. I don't want anyone else to die."
"I have to go okay, don't get yourself into a trouble. I see where trying to fight them got you," she laughs and points to my bandaged head. I laugh too.
"Where do you have to go," I ask her.
"To look into Derin's test, he'll be here in a minute," she says and walks out of the room.
I sit there for a moment in silence watching the door. No ones comes. I wait a few minutes , but no one comes back and I start to get worried. I feel my stomach turn and ache as I think of the possibilities. They could have heard me and the nurse talking and killed her. She may have been lying to get information and Dian could be reporting me. Or the worst thing... Derin could be dead. I get tired of waiting after another minute and slide off my bed. I look at the clock. It reads 4:26. I tiptoe to the door.
I pull the door back slowly and quietly. No one is my hallway. I creep along the wall to the end of the hall and turn to the left. When I turn down the next hallway I find it empty too. I sprint down it as I become more and more anxious. Why are the hallways all empty? I turn to the right and turn down the next hall. I stare at the ground so if there is anyone they won't no who I am. I start running again. I'm halfway down the hall when I run into someone. I stumble backwards and start to fall. Strong arms grip my upper arms keeping me up. I cringe and wait for a guard to throw me down or hit me. No one hits me so I look up. It's Derin. I sigh with relief.
"What are you doing here," he demands.
"I-I was looking for you. Dian said you were coming, but you didn't and..."
"Were you worried about me," he raises an eyebrow.
"Oh get over yourself. Look I may be mad at you, but-but-but I don't want you die. I don't want anyone to die," I rush the words out of my mouth.
"Come on you shouldn't be out here," he pulls me down the hall and we walk back to our room.