"WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP!" I took the cucumbers off to see everybody crowded around me.
I didn't say anything. My throat was killing me and I still looked horrible. I went into the bathroom and took a shower.
I walked out of the bathroom. The only person in the room was Cameron.
"What's that on your arms?" He asked, as I walked by him trying to go keep my towel up.
"Jace, why do you do this to yourself?" He asked, examining my arms.
"I don't anymore it was awhile ago. They're old." I replied.
"Why are you still bleeding then? You can't do this. Why?" He asked, he was worried but had no reason to be.
"Everyone thinks my life is perfect, Cam. It isn't, My Dad is all the way across the country. He doesn't care. I lost my baby brother. I get hate from people all the time tell me to kill myself. That's why I do this." I said, tears where streaming down my cheeks making them red and puffy.
"Does anyone else know?"
"No. Don't tell anyone!" I said
"I have to! Jace, you need help!" He said.
"I don't want help." I said, grabbing my clothes and going back into the bathroom locking the door behind me.
Usually I put makeup over my cuts and scars but not today. I put makeup on my face and that's it. I walked out of the bathroom and into the hallway. I listened for a moment all the noise was coming from Nash and Cameron's room. I walked inside. Everyone's eyes shot straight at me. It got quiet.
"Jace,-" Matthew said.
"Save it. You told them, didn't you?" I asked Cam.
"I had to." He said.
"I can't believe you. I told you not to! I thought I could trust you!" I screamed, then slamming the door.
I got in the rental car, and told the Gps where I wanted to go. Soon, I arrived at starbucks. It was only two blocks away. I needed my White Chocolate Mocha bad. If I didn't get it soon I was about to go off. I walked inside, luckily, there wasn't a line. I went up to the cashier, paid for my drink, then left. Yes, it was hot outside and I got a hot drink. Problem? None.
I pulled up at the hotel. There were already people waiting. I pulled my jacket to me from the back seat. I put it on and then got out of the car. I looked a lot different. Maybe, just maybe no one would notice me. I sipped my starbucks and casually made my way inside the hotel, to the escalators, and up to my room. I unlocked my door and went it. I got on twitter and looked at my mentions.
-@JaceCDallas I saw you at Starbucks earlier! I can't wait to meet you and everyone else. I love you. -Shelby
-@Shelbaaeeee_ Awe thank you! Why didn't you come up and say anything. We could have chatted. =* Meet you soon!
I heard a knock on my door.
"Jay,open up it's Cam." He said.
"Go away, asshole." I replied. I heard him walk away.
"Bae, it's Nash c'mon you have got to talk to us. Well, at least me." He said. I made my way over to the door and opened it.
"C'mon." I replied, motioning him inside.
"Why didn't you want us to know?" He asked.
"I don't care about y'all knowing. I cared about being judged." I said, I grabbed a magcon hoodie out of my bag, and slipped it on.
"Cared? You don't anymore?" He asked.
"If I did care, I wouldn't be showing them. They'd be covered up with makeup." I replied. Nash said no more. He just smiled about walked out of the room. I left my door cracked. I knew Nash went back and told everyone. Maybe now they'll leave me alone about it. I promised myself I wouldn't cut anymore. No matter what.
It was only 10:30. Aaron came in the room, but he closed the door all the way behind him.
"Hey babe." He said, leaning in to kiss me. We kissed multiple times. Each time a little more passionate. We ended up on the bed, he was covering my body with kisses. I'm pretty sure you know where it lead from there.
It was 2 the event started at 3. Well that when we did the VIP meet and greets. I took another shower and got dressed again. This time I changed clothes. Oh and turns out my leg wasn't crushed. I just had a sprung ankle. They had the x-rays mixed up!