23. Chapter 21: The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly
I woke up and Cathryn was lightly snoring so I knew she was still sleeping. I quietly got up and looked through her feed on Twitter from her laptop. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I saw things like "Niall doesn't really love you it's management that's making him date you." And other things like "You're an ugly whore who cares about no one but herself and is using Niall." and "Go die in a hole you ugly bitch." I didn't know I was crying until Cathryn asked why I was. "Are you ok Niall?" She asked her voice full of concern as I quickly shut the laptop. "I'm sorry darlin' you just don't deserve any of the hate you're getting. I say we just forget about em' and worry about our weddin'" I said. "Ok. I'll try to but it'll be hard." She said breaking into tears. "Shh, shh." I said pulling her into a hug. I put my hands on her waist and made her look into my eyes when we finished hugging. She refused to look at me and I didn't know why.
Niall put his hands on my waist after pulling apart from our hug. I wouldn't look at him, I was to sad to. He lifted my chin up with his index finger and said. "Darlin' why won't you look at me?" "Because." I said. "Because why?" He replied softly. "Because, I don't want you to feel bad for me." I said sadly and began to cry lightly but not sobbing. "Ever since Tenny, Tommy, and Aries were beaten and taken to Scott's friend Kelsey, I haven't seen the bright light in your eyes. I need to know you're ok before I stop worrying about you as much as I am." He said. "I'm sorry Niall." I said and began to full on sob. "It's ok baby, I'm here now." He said. "No Niall, it's not. If it were I wouldn't want to kill myself!" I snapped instantly regretting what I'd said. Niall looked taken aback and his eyes started to tear up. I started to run to the bathroom but he grabbed my arm. I quickly released myself from his grip before running off to the bathroom. I locked the door even though Niall was bound to get in somehow. "Cathryn, please open up. Don't do anything stupid, please." He pleaded. He kept pounding on the door so I had to act fast before he got in. I grabbed the silver blade that I kept hidden in my cosmetics bag and made three slits on each wrist. One went a little to deep and at that moment Niall knocked down the door. He quickly took his shirt off realizing that my face was going pale from the quick blood loss and he wrapped it around my arm. He called the doctor who came and stitched up my cuts as Niall got me some more orange juice so I wouldn't pass out. "Thank you." I mumble to the doctor who told Niall "You need to keep a close on her sir." He just nodded. "I'm sorry." I said and began to sob again. "It's ok." Niall said wrapping me up in his arms. He carried me to the bed and laid down next me.
When I woke up the next morning I remembered what had happened the night before. My arm was sore from the stitches. I winced in pain as I lightly touched the marks I'd left on my body. Niall flinched and opened his eyes. He sat up stretching then looked over at me. Why are you crying Princess?" Niall questioned before gently caressing my cheek. I was confused. "I'm not." I said. "Then why tears streaming down your tear stained face." He replied and gently wiped away my tears with his thumb. "I must've sleep cried." I said. "Come on, let's go get breakfast, I'm hungry." Niall said picking me up bridle style and carrying me down the stairs. "When I aren't you?" I replied and he chuckled. "Here, eat up I wanna go shopping before it gets to packed." Niall says passing me a bowl of cereal. I remembered the hurtful comments left on my Twitter and Instagram saying how fat I was and that I'm a big hippo. I decided not to eat. "No thanks. I'm not really that hungry." I said pushing the cereal across the table to Niall. "But you always eat breakfast." Niall said a bit concerned. "I'm just not hungry, okay?" I lied. I could feel my cheeks turning red like they do whenever I lie. "You're lying, I can tell. This doesn't have anything to do with the hate, right?" Niall said stepping up from his chair and walking over to me. I instantly broke down and collapsed into his arms. He picked me up and set me down on the counter. He wiped away the tears that had began to fall from my eyes and stream down my face. "Baby, please don't do this to yourself. You need to eat. Don't listen to the haters, they're just jealous of how skinny you are. I hate seeing you hurt." He said. I stopped crying. "Niall," I said hesitantly. "Yeah." He said caressing my cheek. "I love you. Thank you for being here for me. I've lost 5 of my best friends and my only 3 horses are being fixed because they were abused by my ex-best friend from pre-k." I said, tears threatened to fall from my eyes. "I love you too. You're my Princess and I will always be here for you and will never leave your side even if you wanted me to." Niall said. His breath hot on my neck, he leaned in and passionately kissed me. I kissed back. As the kiss deepened I wrapped my legs around his torso. He lifted me up from the counter and gently pushed me up against the wall. This lasted for about five minutes when we finally came up for air. "I love you so fucking much Cathryn." Niall said. "I love you too." I said pecking his lips. He kissed my nose and said. "Now please eat, for me." I sighed but nodded. I finished the bowl of cereal and excused myself to the bathroom. I was planning on puking up my food but Niall stopped me. "Please don't become anorexic. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you did. Please stay strong, for me." Niall said. "Okay." I said and sighed after removing the two fingers I almost gagged myself with from my mouth. "Thank you." Niall said. "I'm going to go get ready for the mall." I said before hugging him tight and kissing his lips. "I love you Niall, I'll be yours forever." I said. "I love you too." He said smiling and kissing my nose.
I went upstairs and into the bathroom connected to Niall and I's room. Unfortunately the door is broken from when Niall broke it down last night. I layed my clothes for the mall out on the bed and quickly undressed my self before hopping in the shower. The warm water on my back felt delightful. I closed my eyes and let it sink into my pores. After a couple seconds the water was blocked. I turned around to see why the water had stopped and saw Niall. I gasped and being the self conscious person I am, I went to grab my towel to cover myself. Niall grabbed my wrist as I shifted uncomfortably. "Please don't leave Cathryn." He pleaded wrapping me in a hug. "I love you." He said kissing the crown of my head. I love you too." I said inhaling his scent. He reached for the shampoo and put some in his hand. He began to softly wash my hair. When he was done, I did the same to him. I conditioned his hair and then he conditioned mine. He grabbed the soap and put some in his hand. He bit his lip before rubbing his hands together and washing my body for me. I did the same to him. We rinsed off and stood in the shower for a good five minutes before he turned off the water and picked me up bridal style. "That was fun. I might just have to have you join me in the shower again." I said. "But maybe a bath next time." He said and winked before handing me my towel so I could dry off. He dried off his body and went to go change. I grabbed my clothes and brought them into the bathroom. I changed into a pair of mint green jeans and a navy blue crop top. I put my hair in a French braid that wrapped around my head. I made it loose so it looked messy. I looked for my makeup bag but couldn't find it. "Ugh. NIALL!!!" I screamed. "Yeah." He said and chuckled as he walked into the bathroom. He was wearing a pair of blue jeans and his 'Crazy Mofos' shirt. "Where's my makeup?" I questioned. "Somewhere you'll never find it." He said and smirked. "Ugh not this again." I said. I quickly hopped down the stairs and into the kitchen with Niall right on my tail. I opened the pantry. Nothin'. The oven. Nothin'. The fridge. Nothi-BINGO. "YES." I screamed in excitement. Niall gave me a devious look. "Uh-oh" I said and giggled. Niall chased me around the house for a couple minutes before I've got my makeup bag. I chased him until I got it. "I only want three things." I said and pouted. "Nope." He said. I sighed. "Please." I said giving him the puppy dogs eyes. "Ugh fine." He said giving in. That always gets him. "But I'm watching you so you don't overdo it." He said. "Alright." I said and he followed me to the bathroom. I applied concealer, powder and eyeliner. I was about to apply mascara when he said. "Uh uh uh you said three things that'd be four." "I meant four. Please it won't look right." I said giving him the puppy dog eyes again. He sighed and nodded giving in again. I smiled and took the mascara from his hand and applied it quickly but neatly. "Ready?" I said putting on my beige moccasins. "Yup." Niall said putting on his white high top converse. We got in the car and Niall drove to the mall.