I walked up my porch and took out my key, I dragged my bag behind me, and got it up the little stairs. I got to my door and opened it with my key. a little note fell on my door mat, I picked it up and looked at it.
I'm sorry I leave now, I didn't expect it, but didn't we all.
I'm truly sorry to say this, or I mean write this, but I left.
I'm going to miss you so much, never doubt that.
Maybe in an other life we see each other again
I never stopped loving you, and I think you have the right the know. I knew you would never love me, because you're a famous popstar, who would like someone like me, specially not a perfect boy from mullinger.
truly yours Carmen x
I read the note and my bottom lip trembled. my hands started to shake. she was gone, my Carmen is gone. tears started to drop from my cheeks onto the ground. she was gone, was the only thing repeating itself in my head. I fell onto the ground. I couldn't.
but I didn't see she loved me, the way I loved her. she was dead, and I didn't even know, I left her alone. If I was there for her, she wouldn't have died. it was al my fault.
I stayed there for hours, I saw the sun go down and the moon shone on my face. I heard my phone ring, but I couldn't put myself to answer. so I let it go to voicemail.
"hey this is Niall, I'm not here for a while." my recored self was cut of by Harry.
"he is busy with a girl." I heard the other boys in the background chuckle.
"well yeah that, give a message after the peep." the peep came but there was no messege. even though hearing this would make me smile, it didn't I missed my girl.
I lost her, and I would feel guilty forever.
"come one Niall, why do I have to drag you everywhere" she screamed in annoyance. We would meet with Annie at the end of the school day, which it was.
"I don't wane, it's to far away, can't she come here." I tried getting out of her grip, which was tight on my wrist. Carmen was always a strong person.
"Ow." she said surprised, a smirk forming on her face. "But don't you want to go to your beloved Juliet. Ow Romeo, Juliet." she said dramatically. I rolled my eyes, she always had this crazy idea from me. Liking Annie. How strange would that be.
Before I could finish my mental conversation, someone bumped into me. I quickly made sure I wouldn't fall and the person didn't either. I got her by her arms, she could be a guys but she would have really skinny arms.
"I'm so so sorry." her head snapped up and I looked into two beautiful eyes, my heart started to flutter. But I knew who she was.
"Wait I'm not, why would I feel sorry for bumping into you lil ni. It was obviously your fault." I laughed dryly. But I felt something in me, something in the pit of my stomach.
"Haha, very funny." I said rolling my eyes, and slapping her shoulder playfully. "It was obviously your fault." I point out to the beautiful girl that is Annie.
Okay maybe I had a little crush.
"It wasn't. It was yours." she shot back.
"STOP" I heard Carmen scream, I turned around she started laughing.
"I think it's cute you know. How two 'secret' lovers, totally like each other but don't do a thing. you know: KISS ALREADY." She smirked and threw her hands up. I looked at her.
"I don't like her." I said as I took a look at Annie again, I felt the blood already rush to my cheeks, but I saw a slight pink color on her cheeks too.
"Aw look at that, they're both blushing. LOOK PEOPLE I TOLD YA' SO." Carmen screamed loudly and I chuckled and shook my head. It had to be Carmen, always Carmen.
"Carmen. We don't like each other." Annie giggled. But her pink cheeks became more pinker. it was cute to be honest, but I like her so that would be obvious. Ow why do I like her, it makes things only awkward because she doesn't like me, and then we have Carmen...
"Yeah, yeah. Like I'm ever going to believe that. psss." she waved her hand and laughed out loud. Really how did it get to her, she only 'assumes' things.
"We should go, you know." Annie shifted with her feet, she looked up and met both our gazes.
"Yeah let's go, Carmen wants to see some action." I winked as Annie giggled and her cheeks turned pink again.