"hello miss midland, is carmen home." I asked. Nervously, I hadn't seen carmen in a long time, for me maybe even too long. I first thought she was avoiding me, but then I called her home, and she tolled me she was sick. So I wanted to visit her before I was gone.
"yes she is dear, you wane come in." carmen's mom asked. I nodded my head, and she opened the door so I could walk in. I ran up the familair stairs, and walked to Carmen's room. Carmen had a light pink room, and had white furniture. I looked cute, specially when it was hers.
"nock,nock." I said. I usually never nock, I just called out when I wanted to come in. I quietly opened the door, and saw carmen laying on her bed.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT." carmen screamed. I chuckled. Was she on her period? maybe I should have chosen to take chocolate with me.
"you." I winked cheekily. She rolled her eyes, and trew her pillow at me. But I dogged away, and it fell somewhere behind me.
"what do you want horan." she grumbled, and hid her face in one of her other pillows. She had a few pillows in her room, but all have met my face at least once. She likes to trow pillows. Her favorite target? Me
"just wane ask I want to hang out today. But I'm not sure now, besides I heard you were sick. So who wants some niall?" I walked towards her, and sat down. "are you feeling okay?" I whispered.
"I don't know." she Lifted her head and looked into my eyes. Her blue eyes met mine, but hers started to water. A strand of her strawberry blond hair fell for her eyes, and I tucked it behind her ear.
"shhh," I whispered, and embraced her into a hug. I stroke her hair. Her head laid on my chest, as it rose and fell. She quietly sobbed, and I didn't like to see her like this. Not in this stage. "don't cry." I whispered into her hair. She sobbed into my white shirt, leaving a black trail from the little bit mascara she always wore.
She nodded, and wipped her tears. "sorry." she whispered. I gave her head a pat, and she smiled, still the tears on her cheeks. I whipped her tears away.
"don't be. You don't have to be sorry." I said, raising her chin so she would look at me. Her eyes were dull, not the sparkly they always were.
"thank you niall." she smilled weakly. "could you stay for the night." she said with her still weak voice. I nodded my head and took out my phone, dialing my moms number.
"of course, I'll call my mom." I hugged her. I clicked on call, and waited for my mom to pick up. When she finally agreed, knowing I would leave, and it could be maybe my last time with carmen. I squeezed carmen in my arms, hugging her tight.
"niall you're squeezing me, I'm going to choke and blood will be on your hands." she laughed and I laughed too. Her laugh soon became giggling and I couldn't stop myself from smiling because she was so cute.
"sorry." I gazed down into my lap. When she was done. She shove me, and I fell on the ground quickly followed by a pillow hitting me in face.
"don't be, you don't have to be sorry." She mimicked me. I took her hand and pulled it, made her fall onto the ground. We started to laugh madly
"it's getting dark." I whispered. "we should go to sleep." she nodded her head, and walked to her bed. I placed myself on the ground. I know right, he sleeps on the ground. But she had a really soft crapet, and sometimes I sleep better on the ground here then home in my own bed.
"it was nice having you over Niall." She whispered, as I had turned off the lights.
"it was nice being here, for the last time." I whispered the last part. Hopping she wouldn't hear me. But I knew it had to get out some day. Some day soon.
"WHAT." she shouted, and shot up out of her bed. I saw her silhouette hovering over me.
"I'm leaving for the xfactor. But probably they won't even like me, so I will get back soon." I took her hand in mine, and flicked with the other the lights on, so I could look in her blue eyes, now filled with joy. Something I hadn't expected
"that's amazing niall, of course they will like you, you are an amazing singer. I'm going to suport you as much as I can." she liked it that I would leave? That kind of hurt. I smiled tightly, knowing she didn't mean it that way
"thanks." I mumbled. She hugged me tightily. And smiled.
I wraped my arms around her fragile waist. She pulled back, and looked into my crystal blue eyes. Then her eyes moved to my lips, and back to my eyes. Was she going to kiss me? We're just friends, nothing more. She leaned in, was she really going to kiss me? Would I like it? she leaned closer, I could feel her minty breath on my face. She leaned towards my cheek, and kissed it softly. She pulled back, and her eyes quickly looked at the ground. My cheek heat up, and my eyes too followed hers to the ground.
This made leaving only harder. Why did she kiss me, but mostly why didn't she kiss me on the lips, I somehow preferred it that way. But this was the last time, so that kiss would never come.
This all happened in a few seconds, but it felt like so much more. Why did carmen have such an inpack on me. She just my friend nothing more. Right? Even if she was more, it would be to late to figure out.