We've been traveling so much! Although it's been so fun and exciting, it's also been very tiring. Having to rest and go almost everyday. It's been a month since their first show and we have already traveled to many different cities. Throughout the past 2 weeks I've been getting a bit of hate on twitter. I understand why, the fans don't like a girl to be hanging around their favorite band so they get a bit protective but it doesn't mean they can just make up rumors. I just hope it will die down soon. We made it to our hotel and got to our rooms. My mom allowed me to be able to share a room with one of the boys for the next week because she wanted her own space. She looked really upset but she wouldn't tell me why. I got her to go to bed and quietly left the room.
"So do you know who you're going to share a room with?" Michael winked
"Uh no, not yet. I was hoping you guys would have picked."
"Agh I guess I will. You're welcome." Luke said rolling his eyes sarcastically
"Hey! I'm not that bad." I laughed and punched his arm
We moved our stuff to the room we got and stated who's side of the bed is who's. He got the left while I got the right side. I fell back on the bed and took a deep breath. "Hotel beds are always so comfy." I smiled"Yeah?" He asked. He fell back from his side so his head was next to mine but his body was on the other side. "I agree." He sighed I turned my head to look over at him, his eyes were closed and he had a little grin on his face.
"What are you thinking about?" I asked
"About the band. I am traveling the world and performing with my 3 best mates. It still doesn't seem real." He smiled "what about you?" He said looking at me.
"Nothing." I said looking up at the ceiling
"C'mon. You have to be thinking about something." He said softly
"We have to get to sound check!" Michael said through the door.
We got up off the bed and left our room. He guys were playing all of the instruments on stage and filming things for their fans to keep them updated what's going on with the band. I was getting hungry so I asked the guys what they wanted so I could get their orders and come back. Luckily there was a McDonalds very close by, I say down in a table and waited for my order to be ready. I was called up to get the order and pay. I grabbed all of the bags full of food in the arms and turned to the door. "Oh shit. Sorry." I said almost bumping into a girl.
"Hey it's the little whore." She said to her group of friends "or not so little." She smiled and looked at all of the bags I was holding.
"Excuse me? That was out of line." I said confused "and I wouldn't be the one who's talking." I said looking at what she was wearing. She wore a very low V neck see through t shirt with her boobs hanging out and leggings while I wore skinny jeans and a knit sweater.
"Everyone knows you're sleeping with Michael and probably the rest of the guys." She barked back
"What the hell are you talking about?" I asked
"You're such a slut." She said walking away
I started to walk back but my vision was getting a bit blurry, even with my glasses on. I tried blinking really fast to stop the tears from falling. Stop crying. Stop crying. Stop crying. C'mon you can do this. I walked into the building and walked to the dressing room where the guys were. I kicked the door a few times cause my hands were full. Calum opened the door and helped me carry the bags in. They each got their own bag and I got mine. They talked to each other like they always did while I stayed quiet. I opened up twitter on my phone and started scrolling through my notifications. I looked at every hate comment on my screen. Why am I doing this to myself? I need to stop looking for all of this. But I couldn't. I wanted I find out why everyone hated me. I got up from my seat and walked to the bathroom. I sat on the floor and let the tears run freely down my cheeks. I tried to stay as quiet as i could. There was a knock on the door, I quickly got up off the floor and washed my face with water and opened the door.
"Are you alright? You were in there for a while." Luke asked concerned
"Yeah. I'm fine." I said turning off the bathroom light
"Your eyes are red." He said holding my face still to look at me
"It's nothing." I whispered turning away
"If there's anything wrong you can tell me."
The show started, i got to my seat and waited for them to come out on stage. The played a few songs and took a quick break. I decided to stay backstage for the rest of the show. They ran back on and started talking for a bit. They were being their goofy selves by talking about weird things and dancing oddly.
"Come out of stage and dance with us Elle!" Michael said into the mic.
I shook my head and mouthed "no"
"C'mon! Please?" Ashton laughed
I awkwardly walked on stage and stood there and watch the guys do their dancing.
"EVERYBODY TWERK!" Calum yelled
They all started trying to twerk while I did a really awkward dance.
"What are you doing?" Luke laughed
"I'm twerking." I smiled
"What?" He asked
"It's Miranda style twerking. The 'No Porn' version." I giggled
"Wait. Show us how to do it." Calum said walking over next to me
I showed them how and the crowd started doing it aswell. It was funny watching people do it. I probably look even worst properly dancing. Dancing is NOT where my skills range in. I ran backstage again while they performed more songs. The show ended and girls waited to get a picture with the guys. I offered to take the pictures for them.
It was an amazing night. The show went well and we got to meet some fans. We headed back to the hotel and make it to our rooms. Elle changed into a pair of shorts and kept her sweater on. She crawled into bed and fell right to sleep. I got into bed and turned off the lamp next to me on the night stand and got close to Elle and fell asleep.
I woke up with her still right by my side. She was still sleeping but I noticed she had been crying. I wiped her tears away with my thumb and kissed her forehead. Her eyes slowly opened and she took a deep breath.
"You were crying in your sleep"
"What? I was?" She said wiping her cheek
"Yeah. Is there something you want to tell me?" I asked
She stayed silent for a bit. "No." She sighed
"Just tell me. I've noticed you've been upset lately." I said holding her hand
"I'm just under stress. Nothing to worry about" she said
"Stress from what?"
"My mom is very sick and we can't afford for her to stay in the hospital. She won't go back home to get better there. The traveling is not good for her health either and she's been like this for a while and never got any better... What if I lose her? Who would I have left? My dad is gone and I don't want to lose my mom too. And-"
"You've got me no matter what. Me and the boys will help you." I said holding her tight
"No, I don't want them to find out." She cried and shook her head
"Okay. They won't. Just me." I sighed
"I'm going to take a shower." She said and got out of bed
She grabbed her things and headed over the the bathroom. I heard music playing while she showered. I lied on the bed and checked through my social media sites. I started to pack up my things cause we need to board a plane later. I really needed to use the toilet but Elle was still in the shower.
"Are you going to be done anytime soon?" I asked through the door
"No, why?" She said
"I really need the toilet!"
"Oh um. I don't know what to do. Umm just come in. There's a shower curtain so I should be fine." She said
I opened the door and walked inside the bathroom. Steam from the shower was everywhere. I looked over at the shower and I could see Elle's body through the transparent shower curtain. It was foggy but you could still see the basic shape of it. I quickly looked away and went to the toilet. It was probably one of the most awkward things I've done this year. After I finished I quickly ran back out. Few minutes later she had finally finished and stepped out of the bathroom and placed her stuff in her suitcase. She had changed into a pair of black skinny jeans and a grey t shirt with daisies all over it. She wore her glasses like she does almost everyday and her hair was damp. After we finished packing we decided to go get something to eat. Elle and I found a little café at the end of the street and walked inside. We got a muffin and a sandwich each and got different drinks. We both paid for our order and sat at a little table to eat. She took a picture of her breakfast with her phone for Instagram. She tilted her phone up and took some pictures of me. "Smile!" She giggled. We headed back to the hotel to get our things and drove to the airport. All of us boarded the plane, Calum sat next to me and next to Calum was Michael, and behind us were Elle, Ashton and a random old man. The flight is only going to be 2 hours long so Michael just went right to sleep. Ashton and Elle were watching a movie together. Calum and I are listening to music. The plane landed and everyone hurried out of the plane and rushed to the baggage pickup. It took about 20 minutes for everyone to find their bags and we quickly went to another hotel. What a surprise.
Exams are coming up really soon. Wish me good luck?