It had been 4 weeks. Four weeks of endless crying and cutting and feeling like a nobody. Me and Sarah hadn't talked much, we were both grieving and needed some space. I was back there again, where I'd first been. Where I'd been when mom got diagnosed with cancer and when I had a bunch of stuff going on. Example , when I got raped. My wrists are full of scars and I don't know where to go from here. What should I do?
''Lisa, Ryan's here,''Sarah called from downstairs. He had been here for at least once a week, trying to talk to me. I had just told Sarah I didn't want to. I didn't want him to see me like this. Broken. But today I think it'd been enough. He deserved to at least see me after a month.
I knocked on the door, facing , like always, Sarah. Lisa had been pushing me away for the past month and I wish she didn't. But I knew she was going through a hard time. Honestly, that made me want to be there for her even more.
Sarah called Lisa upstairs and for a miracle, Lisa came. And the sight I saw then, just broke me. Then and there, like a glass that shaddered onto the floor and into a million pieces.
Her face was pale, she had bags under her eyes and her usually glowing eyes had lost their glow. She was a different person from the Lisa a month ago. It's like she had changed into a different body. She was broken, all the way. She was wearing sweatpants , uggs and a cardigan. Her beautiful brown hair was up in a messy bun, which was so sexy. She still looked beautiful, after everything. And the desire of wanting to hold her in my arms didn't go, I was almost going to fill my desires, but I held myself back. I didn't want to scare her off.
''You have no idea how glad I am to see you,''I grinned up at her.
She smiled, relieving her perfect smile.
''I'm sorry I pushed you away,''She said, gazing into my eyes.
''It's okay. Don't be sorry,''I replied.
''Thank you for everything Ryan,''She grinned and made my world light up. God, I love her. Madly and deeply. I would even die for this girl, no doubt.
''You don't have to thank me.''
''I'll be coming to school next week,''She talked, making my heart jump of joy.
''Are you sure?''
''Yeah, I'm sure.''She grinned and I felt my heart beating so fast I thought it was gonna jump out of my chest.
''Can I hug you?''I asked, finally giving up my desire.
I held her, and it felt like a million stars exploding. At once. God, just to have her body that close to me makes me shiver.
''I love you,''I whispered in her ear. I really did. More than anything. More than myself. Than life.
''I love you too,''She suprisidly whispered back and made me the happiest boy on earth , no doubt in that.
We broke the hug and I couldn't help but taste her soft, moisture lips. They were like heaven.
''Your'e mine,''I said, and grinned cause I was facing her perfect face.
''Forever,''She said, placing another kiss on my lips. I was the luckiest guy on earth right now, thank you Lord in heaven.