Hey! So, I'm writing chapter today, cause I have alot of tests coming up in the week, so I won't be able to write a lot. But I'll write chapter 20 today, so enjoy!
I finally lost my crutches, after 2 months of baring with them. I couldn't play soccer for another month though, it made me really sad. But at least I could walk normally again. Me and Ryan had had an amazing 2 months, without anyone making any drama. Jake had suddenly dissapeared, too.
The bell rang, and another physics lesson started. I was writing some notes into my notebook, when I suddenly felt a nausea creep over me. I felt the sudden need to throw up, and before even thinking, I sprinted towards the girl's bathroom and slammed the door open. I threw up, and didn't even know why. I heard Ryan's voice speak outside, so I quickly washed my face.
I walked out, and opened the door, facing a very panicked Ryan in front of me.
''Are you okay?''He questioned.
''Yeah, it was just probably something I ate,''I spoke, but something inside me told me otherwise.
''I was worried about you,''He said, as he hugged me and kissed me into my hair.
I arrived home, and I knew something was up with me. I never throw up. I was suspecting the worst, but I had to be sure. I didn't want to tell anyone, so I walked to the pharmacy and bought a pregnancy test. I probably wasn't pregnant, anyway.
Just look at it. It probably is negative. God. Fuck. Why can't I take my courage in and look at it? My hands were shaking, and my eyes were still in my front. I was so scared. Just one glance, and it determined my future.
I finally glanced at the stick. I dropped it, cause my body was trembling too hard. Positive. I was pregnant. How could this happen? We always use protection. But, fuck. That one night, we hadn't. I didn't think I'd be pregnant straight away. Tears fell from my eyes, and I knew I was fucked. I had to call the abortion clinic, but I don't know if I can.
''Fuck school, really,''I huffed to Nathan and stood up, getting a drink.
''So, how are things going with Lisa?''He asked.
''Great,''I smiled, though he couldn't see me.
''You two are literally so in love,''He chuckled, and I laughed.
''How about you and Kel?''I questioned, handing him the soda.
''Well, I don't even know where we are at the moment,''He spoke, lowering his gaze.
''What do you mean?''I asked, taking a sip from my drink.
''We're not exactly in the best place right now,''He talked.
''Tough life,''I said, placing my glass on the counter.
The next morning, Lisa was weirdly quiet. She had barely spoken one word to me, which was highly not like her.
''Are you okay?''I asked her, seeing her being had changed.
''Yeah,''She simply answered, staring out of the window.
''You're so quiet,''I talked, parking the car.
She didn't reply, just got out and started walking, not even waiting for me. Was it me?
I catched up with her, and went in front of her, so she was facing me.
''What's wrong?''I asked, staring into her beautiful eyes. She quickly glanced down.
''Nothing.''She answered, staring at her feet.
''Something's up, what is it?''I didn't stop, wanting her to tell me.
''Nothing, Ryan!''She snapped, and pulled out of my grip. She never snapped at me like that.
I knew I had to tell Ryan, but I couldn't. I was too fucking scared. I got a appoitment at the clinic for thursday, so that means I have one day to tell Ryan. Maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should just get it done with, and not tell anyone. Well that would be a selfish bitch of me, wouldn't it?
It was his baby I was getting rid of. I hadn't told anyone, and it was eating me inside. So, I decided to tell Kelly. She was my best friend , and I could trust her with anything.
I told her, and she told me to tell Ryan. Like everyone else probably would. Tomorrow. I was going to tell him, if I wanted to or not.