Hey again! As I said before, I'll be posting this chapter today aswell, and then take a break. This one will probably be shorter than my last:) Hope you enjoy and thanks for commenting!
''Lisa, wait!''I hear someone call me from behind. I turn around and faced Cody.
I waited for him to catch up with me.
''Hey.''He grins at me.
''Hey.''I reply, feeling the summery air blow my hair.
''So, can I maybe take you home?''He asks nervously.
''Sure,''I smile and we walk towards his car. Just before I get in, I see Ryan. He quickly opens his car door and closes it with a slam. Seems like he's angry.
Fuck everything. I'm going to kill Cody, that stupid creature who thinks it's okay to take her home. I hit the steering wheel so hard that my fist starts bleeding. But I don't care. It had been 2 weeks. Two fucking painful weeks. It made me realize what life without her was. It wasn't any life at all. I try talking to her, but she just pushes me away. She's builded walls again, that she broke when she met me. Fell in love with me. I screwed everything up.
I haven't barely talked to anyone, I just can't move on with my life. It seems like she already has. Fuck it, she's mine. Well, really she wasn't. But god forbid, I needed her to be. I don't even think when I start to drive my car to her house. I have to stop my misery. I can't live like this anymore. I stop my car in front of her house and I see that he's still there. I literally want him to die this second. I don't care how bad that sounds.
I knock on the door loudly, anger and rage kicking out of me.
The door opens and Lisa stands there, probably not knowing what to say.
''What are you doing here?''She finally breaks the silence.
''I need to talk to you,I can't live like this anymore.''I admit to her, and I see Cody is standing behind her.
''Well, I don't want to talk to you.''She backfires.
''I think I should go,''Cody steps in.
''No. I don't want you to,''Lisa talks, making my fists clench.
''You two need to sort things out. Trust me, the whole school thinks you should.''He admits and walks out, finally leaving us alone.
''Great. You got what you wanted,''She says, anger mostly heard in her angelic voice.
''Lisa. These past weeks have been hell for me, and you haven't even let me told you what actually happened.''I say, looking at her perfect face.
''How do you not get it Ryan? It's over.''She says, but I don't budge.
''I didn't even kiss her. She pushed me against the lockers and when she started kissing me, I pushed her off. I swear to God I didn't kiss her.''I finally say the words I've been meaning to in 2 damn weeks.
She doesn't say anything.
''Fuck it, Lisa. I love you more than anyone else, it fucking hurts. I don't think you'll ever realize how much I love you,''I say, and she bites her lip.
''You happy now? Finally got to talk to me. Now leave me alone, please!''She says, trying to close the door, but I stop her.
''Baby, don't do this. Please.''I beg her, looking directly into her eyes.
''I don't know what to do! Just, leave me alone. If you love me, then you will.''She speaks, and I remove my hand from the door. She closes it, leaving me there. Is it really time to let her go?
I break into tears again, I was already hoping I had gotten over me. But heck no, I will never get over him. I seriously don't know what to do. Even after he told me, that I don't even know is the truth, I still don't trust him. I love him, I still fucking do even if I don't want to. But I just don't think I can ever trust him like I used to.
I wash my face, the cold water like a blessing to my red skin. I really needed to get my mind off him, but I couldn't. Maybe I wanted him back. Maybe I didn't. Oh, who are you kidding? You need him back. The past weeks have shown me a life without Ryan Wood. It has been so lonely, I've still had Kelly and some other friends, but nobody replaces the empty place in my heart.
I sigh. Suddenly my phone starts ringing, making me jump.
''Hi, is this Lisa?''a male voice spoke.
''I'm Josh, Ryan's best friend from Georgia,''He speaks.
''How did you get my number?''
''Ryan gave me it.''
''Cause I need to talk to you. About him.''
''I don't think that's needed.''
''I do, can you give me your adress?''
''Rose alley, 18, Philadelphia.''
''Thank you, I'll be over in about 15 minutes.''
Why did he want to talk to me? Confusion was stuck in my head, until a knock was heard on the door.
I opened it and a very good looking boy stood there. He had brown hair and was wearing a v-neck and jeans. I saw that he had a rangerover parked in my driveaway.
''I'm Josh,''He gave me his hand and I shook it.
''You already know who I am.''I laughed, and let him in.
''Can I offer you anything to drink?''I asked him politely.
''No, thanks.''He smiled, and took his place on the couch. I sat opposite him.
''So, what did you want to talk to me about?''I questioned.
''Ryan,''He answered, and I gulped.
I said silent so he could continue.
''Ever since he started dating you, he changed into a Ryan I don't even know. He asked me for romantic gestures and places, where to eat. He couldn't stop talking about you on the phone, or when he came to visit. He just wouldn't shut up!''He laughs, and I laugh too. I don't know how much of this I can take, before bursting into tears again.
''Anyways. Ryan is a really good man. Back a year ago, he used to fuck a different girl every night. But now, he's turned into someone I didn't even knew existed. He loves you more than he's ever loved anyone else. I can see it. He was truly happy when he had you, and now he's been really really down and hasn't even been talking to his own parents. Or me. Please, just consider taking him back, cause God, he could even die for you,''He talks, the lump in my throat growing every second. I had been a bastard, hadn't I? I was the asshole, he hadn't even done anything wrong. It takes me a second to realize all of that.
''Thank you for coming,''I reply, a tear falling down my cheek.
''It's okay.''He smiles and opens the front door.
''He really loves you,''He admitted and stepped out of the room, closing the door behind him.
And I really love him.
Hope you enjoyed the chapter, this will be the last one for a while! :)