(If it had been my sister, I’d be in a better place…)
‘Ellie… why are you doing this?’ A voice breathed on my neck.
‘G-go away!’ I screamed.
‘Never… you can’t just cut yourself, how is this going to help?’
‘It’ll help me… I don’t see any bright sides anymore…’ I sobbed.
‘Bright sides don’t just shine out of nowhere… they can happen, if you allow them to…’
‘So what… I’m only here because I have to be…’ I cried.
‘Y-you don’t have to be here. I could help you, speak to your sister. Make it right…’
I turned round, looking at the delicate hand of a female figure. There she was… Abby? Why would she come back? – We aren’t friends… as my mind realised who I was trusting, I let go of her hand. Abby looked at me, as I refused to give her eye contact.
‘Ellie… look at me! Don’t just ignore me…’ Abby whispered.
‘J-just call my sister… tell her, just tell her to come get me…’
‘She is on her way… I texted her. She needed to know, I don’t even know you anymore…’ Abby sobbed.
‘Look, it is just a few cuts and bruises… It’s no problem! My skin will just heal again…’ I assured her.
‘You can’t be too sure… my older sister, she suffered from bullies too. She went to more drastic terms… cutting herself from day one, and then she just kicked the bucket…’ Abby bit her bottom lip.
‘Yeah… w-well I’m not going to be like that. I’m going to be fine, I just need my family… or- what’s left of my family…’ my tone raised.
‘Bitter? Is that really how you want to turn out?’ Abby asked.
‘No… the worst that can happen… is just scars, they’ll just remind me of these days I fought back!’
As Abby came closer to me, I had no choice but to push her away from me. I pushed her back, she almost fell over. Lucky for her, she regained balance. Class starts in five minutes… not long now! If my sister doesn’t come to get me, I’m running… getting away from this place and her!
Abby stomped her foot into the marble floor. She pulled up a chair, and joined me near the back of the room. I just needed some time away from her! – I don’t need self-pity…
‘Ellie… I haven’t been too kind you lately…’ Abby took a deep breath. ‘B-but I can make up for it. Trusting me is all I ask from you. And then… our friendship can continue from where it left off…’
‘You’d like that. I’ve lost Kyle! I’ve lost him to three bitches!’ I shouted.
‘Maybe I should join you. Bite a lemon, become even bitter than who you’re now…’ Abby whispered.
‘Do what you want. Kyle is part of me, he always was!’ I cried.
‘Keep telling yourself that, and you’ll be earning more than cuts and bruises…’ Abby walked away.
Her words stuck in my mind, I couldn’t get them out. She really knows how to turn the tables. As I watched Abby walk away from me, I dropped the blade. As I heard the sound of the blade colliding with the ground, I stood up and walked over to the classroom door. Class in three minutes… I waited for Abby to leave the corridors, and walked on towards the girls toilets on the second floor.
“Bitter? Is that what you want to be like?” A voice rang in my head.
“Keep telling yourself that, and you’ll be earning more than cuts and bruises…”
‘Leave me alone!’ I screamed.
Students passed me, their faces patronised me. Most of their quick glances of me, it all freaked me out. As I walked towards the toilets entry, I felt like time had slowed down. Most of the sound echoed in my ears, and the voices in my head continued repeating… I took several deep breaths and walked further down the corridor. Finally, reaching the girls toilets, I pushed open the door.
‘Kacey… I heard she was bullying someone, what was her name again?’ A voice whispered.
‘Who cares? – Probably just someone who’s nobody…’ another voice laughed.
As the door shut behind me, the voices stopped. I walked towards the mirrors and a reflection of the girls behind me caught my attention. I looked them in the mirror, and could see them laughing to each other.
‘Is that her?’ A voice asked.
‘Probably… wouldn’t surprise me, she’d be my prey too, ha!’
I turned around and looked them in the eyes. Green eyes, blue eyes and dark green eyes. I caught all their eye colours and stared them down from a distance. They stopped giggling and stared back at me. Some failed to stare at me, some walked off. Leaving the leader of the pack behind.
‘Y-you don’t scare me, don’t try to make me feel like a freak. Freak!’ She blabbed.
‘…s-sure thing, keep your friends close but your enemy’s closer…’ I sniggered.
‘Nice… where did you r-read that from? A book!’ She giggled.
‘No… I heard it from a friend. I’ve h-heard many things…’ I smiled.
‘So… you aren’t going to hurt me?’ She flinched.
‘Honestly… why do people always see badly in others? – When really… it is yourself, you should be afraid of…’ I whispered.
The leader of the pack revealed her name to me, and told me about Kyle and Kacey.
‘Anna, by the way. I don’t mean to… I don’t mean to hurt you. I’m just a blabber mouth. Like everyone else, I just want to fit in…’ she shed a tear.
‘Anna. Believe me, I’m only here for that reason too. Fitting in and getting an education.’
Anna came closer… I looked her in the face, giving her eye contact and m full attention. She jumped back in shock, I didn’t know what was wrong.
‘Cuts! – Who did this to you?’ Anna flinched in fear.
‘M-myself…’ I sighed.
‘Oh… so you cut yourself? Using a knife right? Making sure the pain would go away?’ She sobbed.
‘Yes! Just like the pain I’m feeling now. Truth is… I was going to end it, in the art room…’
‘Oh… Look, I’m not a bully. I’m really not! – I just hang around with the popular girls. I guess, I care too much about myself.’
‘Not a problem… I understand. Anyway, what do you know about Kacey and Kyle?’ I bit my bottom lip.
Anna took a deep breath and stepped closer to me. I listened to her, I needed to. It felt right, it feels right to listen to what she has to say. I care too much about Kyle, I’d love to hear news of Kacey’s departure. Whenever that is… I dread the day when Kyle will leave me forever…
‘Kyle, his a nice lad. He has quite an outburst when it comes to anger though…’ she whispered.
‘Don’t, I know it. And Kacey?’
‘She is nothing more than a two timing back stabber…’ Anna grinned.
‘Good to see we think a-like. She bullied me… I promised myself, I wouldn’t fall to her level… b-but I did!’ I sighed deeply.
‘Actions can’t always be controlled. It’s not your fault…’ Anna walked outside the toilets.
She left me, just like Kyle did. I guess… friends just come and go. Kacey has quite a bad reputation around here. It would make sense, she always has someone to bully. I don’t get her! – One moment she’s all kind and generous. And the next… she strikes fear into the hearts of many…
(Sorry for cutting this short. I’ll be uploading the next part soon!)
[Had to go somewhere…]