I bit my lip as I watched him go. Did he really care for me? Or was he just like Mate? How was I supposed to believe in the entire being of mate if mine didn't treat me properly? How was I supposed to believe that I have 2 mates? Everything just seemed to be out of control at the moment.
I shook my head and turned away. I felt like screaming at the top of my lungs or hitting someone. The humiliation, the anger just everything just wanted to come out. The way I have been treated for most of my life seemed unreal for many people. I mean who would want to believe that I was getting abused by my so called family?
Tears rolled down my face and I took a deep breath trying to calm my nerves down. I was fed up of being weak, fed up of feeling out of control and mostly fed up of crying. It is my freaking life so I can do whatever I want to. I shouldn't be taking shit for anyone; I should have a family that loves me.
I ran towards the girls bathroom and scrubbed my face roughly with cold water. Looking at my dull eyes I felt life less. If they thought that they can continue to do shit to me and I was supposed to take it then they are wrong. But, what in the world am I supposed to do?
I was glad about the fact that Mate didn't know my plan of seeing the high council otherwise he would ban me from stepping out of the pack territory and I would always be stuck with him.
I turned around and slowly walked out of the bathroom my thoughts all over the place. It wasn't possible that I would just turn into a bad ass and start kicking people's ass', because let's be real it seems that it only happens in movies and books and the real life world is a different story.
I looked around the corridors and noticed that they were pretty empty. It wasn't like I was commanded by Mate to stay in school so maybe I can leave. I just wish that Dylan doesn't freak out.
I stepped out of the school building and was glad to see no teachers around. I made my way out of the school premises. I smiled as the fresh air hit my face and I took a deep breath, loving the sense of freedom of being away from everyone. Nathan and Caroline's faces flashed in my mind as my smile vanished. I didn't need them. If they were my true friends they would have defended me rather than treat me like shit. They knew my pack treated me so couldn't they know that there must be a reason why I didn't tell them about my mate? Some friends, I was so disgusted.
I walked around the streets and noticed the small public park that my parents used to take me to when I was a kid. I remembered the scar on my thigh and I felt myself shudder. The scar would never go. The worse thing was that my mother had marked me with a silver knife. Silver couldn't kill us but it would leave marks that could never heal.
I stepped towards the swings and sat on one of them. I looked around and saw the see-saw and slides empty. The sand pit had few castles made which I guess kids had made yesterday and the jogger's path around it was completely empty. I slowly started to swing and smiled each time the wind passed and pushed my hair across my face. I could feel my cheeks go red due to the chilled wind, but being a werewolf I couldn't really feel the cold.
I took a deep breath and smelled the fresh smell of the trees, wet sand and the water in the atmosphere. It smelt heavenly. I loved the high hearing and smelling powers that we could get by being a werewolf. Every werewolf was fortunate to have them. the powerful ones or the ones born due to the unity of two different supernatural species had a few special features that made them different from others.
I looked towards the forest that was across from the park I saw a hazy figure move along the tress. I stopped swinging and took a deep breath and stiffened as I smelt rogues. Quickly standing up, I slowly made my way towards the forest. I wasn't limping but there was no way that I wasn't taking a chance. I was sure that the bruises on my face must have vanished by now and that my skin would be as flawless as ever.
I gulped softly as I neared the forest and took in a small breath. Two rogues. I hesitated before going further because I wasn't a werewolf and I wouldn't be able to fight them off, but if I could be stealthy enough I may be able to stay hidden.
I tip-toed towards the forest and was glad that I didn't have a strong scent as I hadn't shifted till now. I arched my neck a little so that I could see the faces. Both guys were 6 feet tall but I could the force of power coming from just one guy. He must be the Alpha. The rogues were really not a park of a pack but some of the rogues had decided to settle down as packs. The high council hadn't decided to eliminate all the rogues as most of them were dangerous. But, for some reason if a werewolf ran away from their pack then they were sentenced to death. The whole thing didn't make sense to me so I had to wait before I could speak to the high council.
I tried to lean closer so I could hear them well enough. The Alpha had black hair and the other had dark brown hair.
"What have we decided" The dark brown spoke up
"I want her as soon as we can get her. No waiting. The pack has already screwed her over, it wont be long before she cant handle it anymore and then we pull her. I wont let the Alpha live." The Alpha answered in a cold deep voice.
"I will get the defence permitter up and then we can decide the attack plan "
"Yes, lets go know before someone finds out" The Alpha said.
I waited until they were out of sight and ran out of the forest, ignoring my leg. I couldn't take a chance of them seeing me if they were there.
But, who were they talking about? What girl? Which pack? And which Alpha was he referring to? There were a total of 3 Alpha's, Mate, Jaxon and Brent. Mate was supposed tobe the strongest but now that Jaxon was here I couldn't say.
But this meant one thing for me, should I tell Mate what I just heard? He was my Alpha so in a way I had the sense of responsibility towards him but I didn't want to tell him anything, not after the way the entire pack treated me.
I stopped running once I reached the park and took a deep breath, calming myself down. I froze as I noticed both the rogues standing in front of me, with a bitter smile on their face. I could feel my brain stop to function and felt my limbs give away. I had no link with the pack as they had never truly accepted me as one of them, but Mate was my mate, he should be able to hear me.
"MATE.... I NEED HELP...AT THE PUBLIC PARK NEAR THE SCHOOL"
I wasn't sure if he could hear me or that he would come for me...but. it was worth a try.
"Look what we go here... a good piece of meat, aren't you?" The dark brown hair gut spoke up as he neared me. I shivered as I saw that his eyes were coal black, as if he had given his wolf his entire control. There was a scar running down the side of his face from his forehead to jaw. It was a silver knife; otherwise the scar would have healed.
"What are you doing here?" I asked in a low voice hoping that it wouldn't waver. I didn't want both of them thinking that I am weak.
"Come on baby, I could give you a good time" The dark brown guy said as he stepped closer to me. I stiffened as he traced his figure along my cheek. Flinching away from his touch, I stepped back and noticed his eyes darken, if that was possible.
Before he could touch me the Alpha growled softly and the dark brown haired guy turned around and stopped moving. I stepped back further and realised the Alpha watching me with cold calculating eyes/
"Let us leave" he growled and the the dark brown gut turned around and started to step back. I watched them walk away shocked. Why didn't they just kill me?
Wasn't I like danger to them or something? Wouldn't they want their talk to be a secret? Then why leave me alive?
I turned around slowly made my way back to the pack house. There was no way that I could take a chance with these guys’ shivered as I remembered the Alpha's cold eyes and took in a shuddering breath. I had to find out what was going on.
I continued walking down and up all the streets when I felt someone behind me. Turning sharply I noticed Mate standing there and he looked at me angrily.
Was there a fucking reason you called me for? Because I don't think you need help" Mate growled as he neared me and I gulped softly and stepped back a little. I prayed that he wouldn't hit me as we were in public, but it had never stopped Mate before.
"You came a little to late" I said in a soft voice and looked at the column of hus neck, not having the strength to stare in his eyes. I bit my lip as he moved closer. Closing my eyes I waited for him to hit me, but it never came.
I slowly opened my eyes and saw him staring at me with a weird expression on his face. His face was near my hair and it seemed he was sniffing me. Shit! I forgot that the rogue touched me. Mate must have been able to smell his scent.
"Why do I smell a rogue of you?" He asked in a cold deep voice, but I could sense the hint of panic in his voice. Why would he be worried? Unless he obviously cared for me, but for some reason I felt it was deeper that that.
"I ran into one of them, but they left before harming me. Nothing happened, I thought they would hurt me, that's why I tried to call you" I muttered as I looked up into his face and saw his eyes narrow. He was trying to make out if I was lying but I had told him the truth, even if it was a half truth.
"Where do you think your going anyway? If I come to know your skipping school once again it won't be good for you. You have already created loads of problems for me. I have to face with Jaxon now" Mate growled and literally spat on Jaxon's name.
What was the thing between him and Jaxon and why in the world did he hate him so much?
"I'll make sure Alpha" I said and turned around, walking towards the pack territory. I could feel Mates eyes on me but I ignored it. There was nothing more to say to him.
I reached the pack house and made my way towards my room. Picking up all the notebooks I worked on the other night, I made my way to each pack member's room and placed them on their tables.
At least some sort of work was over for me. Sighing, I made my way to the bathroom and took a shower and washed my body, scrubbing myself nicely.
I let my thoughts drift to whatever the rogue had been talking about. Which girl were they talking about? And why in the world would they be so interested in her?
The next few days passed away without much of a problem. I was officially not talking to Nathan and Caroline. They had made it clear that I was a worthless friend and they were better off without me. Even if they tried to talk to me, I made sure I was out of their way because there was no way I wanted to talk to them.
If they were my true friends they would have stuck around me, but they just ignored me when I needed them the most.
"Nat" Nathan's deep voice called and I looked up from my food. I was currently sitting in the cafe in a corner away from the rest of the crowed. I could feel Jaxon's gaze on my face and I started to feel uncomfortable.
He had been trying to talk to me and in a way I had started to speak to him. No, we weren’t friends or anything but Jaxon seemed like a nice guy.
I heard someone clear their throat and I shook my head, remembering that Nathan had been standing in front of me.
"What do you want?" I asked in a cold dead voice and I noticed him finch. I was glad that my words hurt him because I was fed up ofeveryone treating me like shit. I didn't expect my friends to be that way but Nathan and everyone had proved rgat they were no better than others.
"Listen Nat, we all are really sorry for whatever happened but we were just hurt that you would hide something this important from us?" Nathan said with a little confidence in his voice, asid hwe was sure that the entire thing wasn;t his fault alone.
I stood up from my chair and glared at him hatefully.
"You think I wouldn't like to share such an amazig fact with you guys? Did you ever stop and think that there could be a reason as to why I didn't tell you? Did you ever think that maybe I was ordered not to? And even if I wasn't, what was I supposed to tell you, that my mate rejected me? I shouted in a low whisper.
I knew that the humans would be unable to hear us, but I was sure Mate and Jaxon and both packs would have heard word for word.
I felt tears streaming down my face and I whiped them away angrily and looked up to see Nathan's heartbrocken face.
I knew he would regret fighting with me, but right now wasnt the right time for me to forgive him. I just couldn't and I needed time.
"Nat, I am...." Nathan started to speak but I held my hand up and stopped him talking.Without another glancee at him I made my way out og the cafe and the school ground. I sat there and munched on my food, wiping my tears as they dripped down my face frequently.
"I don't think beautiful girls should cry" A deep voice spoke from behind me and I could feel a smile tugging on my face. I turned around and saw Jaxon standing there with his hands in his jean pockets.
His hair was messed up and his lip piercing looked so edible, just like the rest of his body. I shook my head furiously at the thoughts I was having and I motioned him to sit.
"So, your mate rejected you" he asked casually, but I could sense the relief in his words. I felt a little pain and Mate was mentioned but I pushed it aside.
"Yes, he did. I wasn't good enough for him" I whispered softly and smiled at Jaxon but he was able to see past my fake smile.
"He doesn't deserve you Nat, anyone would be lucky to have you" Jaxon said softly and I felt tears prickling at the corner of my eyes at his words, but I held them in. I didn't want to cry again.
"Thankyou" I said softly and Jaxon leaned forward and pressed a kiss to my head. I felt a smile spread across my face, and I pulled away from him, the heat of his kiss still lingering on my forehead.
"Do you feel that?"
I looked up at him sharply and gave him a look. We had spoken about us being mates and I had told him repeatedly that we cannot be mates.
"Jaxon" I warned but he caught hold of my hands and pulled me closer to him. Before I could protest, he pulled my shirt down my shoulders, he touched the mate mark that was on my chest.
Pushing his hand aside I stood up and turned away from him.
"I have the same mark Natalie, we are mates whether you like it or not" Jaxon muttered and hugged me from behind. I pushed against his arms and turned to face him.
"I don't know what to do....how can I have two mates?" I whispered and Jaxon kissed me on the cheek.
"Maybe the moon goddess wanted you to have a second chance, with someone better" Jaxon said winking at the last part and I busted into laughter.
I stopped laughing as I saw his face soften and his figures trailed up my arm. Could I trust him?
But the worst question was would Mate let me be with Jaxon?
"Show me your mark?" I asked and Jaxon nodded and he pulled his shirt up. I bent down and traced the mate mark on the right side of his rib. The mark had with chains around it and a bit of red shone through the middle like mine.
Taking a shaky breath I pulled away and Jaxon wrapped his arms around me and pulled me towards him. He kissed my cheek and his tongue liked me softly.
The cold metal of his lip ring touched my cheek and I moaned softly and pulled away.
"Mate won't let me be with you" I stated and pulled away regrettably.
He was my mate I was sure of it. The mate marks could never be wrong. I didn't want to question this but. I didn't care if I had 2 mates or that one of them was an asshole I wanted to be with Jaxon and at least try it.
How bad can it be? My life was already stuffed up. I shook my head. No, I wasn't strong enough and I wasn't sure if I could trust Jaxon for sure. I had to wait and be able to believe him.
"I want us to be friends Jaxon. I want to be with you but I want to wait for my shift. I don't really want to be with anyone right now. I just don't think I can continue to handle it" I said truthfully and he smiled and nodded.
"It's alright. I don't expect you to jump into my arms because we are mates. Take all the time you want, I am happy being friends for now" He said and I ignored the last part.
I nodded and smiled at him.
"Let's eat now" I said and we both sat down and started to eat our food.
I was happy I was friends with him and glad that he was able to understand why I didn't want to go feather.
"See you tomorrow" I smiled at Jaxon nodded and he made way back to his set of classes.
One school day had finally came to a end; I stepped into the pack house and saw Mate standing there glaring at me.
"Oh! look here, Jaxon's new mate" Nichole said in her screechy voice and resisted the urge to wince at her.
"Why do you smell like him?" Mate asked as I looked at him, directly into his eyes.
"We are just friends" I stated and saw features tighten, but he didn't say anything. Being his mate, he didn't feel threatened of me as I wouldn't fight for his position. But the Alpha, in him didn't like being disrespected.
"You can go" Nichole shouted and sat on Mate's lap and started to kiss him. Rolling my eyes I turned around and made my way upstairs, I was glad that her being with Mate didn't hurt as much. But I still felt a little pain in my chest.
Before I could reach my room, I heard Nichole shout out to me.
"Oh! By the way it is sad that your mate rejected you. Anyone I know?" She called out and I heard the hint of smile in her voice.
I ignored her and stepped into my room, closing the door behind me. Making my way towards the bed, I plopped myself down and closed my eyes.