A new chapter in my boring life began and this chapter contained more than shades of gray. Everything was color filled and I was the luckiest girl on earth. It didn't matter that Harry was in the house, it didn't matter that Louis didn't love me. I didn't care about them. Niall was the only one I wanted to be with and he was the only one that mattered.
"It'll businessmen here tomorrow." murmured Louis one morning. "You should be here and you shouldn't be with Niall when they coming. They stay one night."
I sighed and saw at him that he was unsure about me.
"I know what you want." I mumbled. "But I wont have sex with you, so don't think that I set up."
Louis gulped and nodded.
I must admit that I saw Louis from different eyes. As we sat in the dining room and ate, I saw how he fussed. He gave me those eyes, but I realized how fake they were. He had formerly been able to fool me, but now I knew what true love was. I knew what eyes could say and I knew that Louis could never fool me again.
"You have a beautiful wife." said one of the men. Louis did as always. He took my hand, looked into my eyes and smiled.
"I know, that's why I chose her."
So false! Keep in mind that I once had been deceived by his eyes and his words. I had once hoped that he would love me. Now I didn't want his kindness or his love. I didn't want anything from him.
"Yes, we are so lucky!" I got out of me and I heard directly how false it sounded. The only one who heard how I sounded, was Louis. He was startled and looked at me a second time. I smiled my fake smile and couldn't bother. He wanted me to play theater, then I did it my way.
"What are you doing?" Louis got out and looked cool to me. We stood at the door and all the guests sat in the salon.
"I'm doing what I was told."
"But you sound so, so ... fake?"
I couldn't help but laugh and I ran my hand through his hair.
"Welcome to my world, Lou!" I said it cold. "I have heard your false words so long that I know how I should sound. I learned from a pro, you!"
For the first time in my life I had power. I saw at Louis that he was uncertain and it was as if he didn't recognize me. I laughed again, turned around and went back to the guests.
"Anybody want more wine?"
Louis stood in the doorway and he just stared at me. I realized that I had actually changed. I was more sure about myself and I knew what I wanted. I also knew I would never go back to my old self.
I put myself first in the bed and took up a book. I heard Louis in the bathroom and as always he came out naked in the room. I realized how ugly body he really had. He hadn't at all Nialls body and Louis actually looked frail. When it came to his male gender, I wasn't at least interested in it. Louis was still uncertain, and he lay down under the covers. Louis took up some papers, but I saw in the corner of my eye that I was more interesting.
"So this with you getting pregnant?"
I was startled and looked at him.
"Don't tell me you still want to have children? Your boyfriend killed my child and the child's mother. Isn't that enough?"
Louis looked sheepishly down at the papers.
"Yeah, I guess so."
At night I got to sleep in peace. Louis neither were close to me or tried to do something with me. Instead I got to be at my side of the bed and when I woke up in the morning, I was alone in the room. I realized that I had finally got that life I wanted and neither Louis nor any other person could change that part.
As soon as the guests had gone away, I went to the stables. Niall was there and he took out the horses in the pasture. He lit up when he saw me and he came right up to me. I hugged him, but nothing more. We didn't want the other employees would know about our relationship. Yet gave Niall me a quick kiss on the cheek and then smiled at me.
"How was the night?"
I giggled lightly.
"I got to sleep."
He was pleased and took my hands. He steered me into the stable and so fast no one saw us, he pulled me into his arms. I felt his lips meet mine and I groaned. I had missed him so much and I didn't want to be without him. Niall let his hands embrace me and I felt him pressed up against me. I groaned and was finally forced to end the kiss.
"We mustn't be open."
Niall gulped and nodded. He looked toward the other and released me.
"I know, but I can't ..." he looked at me and smiled. "I can't stop thinking about you and I want to touch you all the time."
"The same about you!"