I came into my room one night, and noticed that all my clothes were gone. Everything I owned was gone and there were just things that didn't belong to me. I was surprised and left the room immediately. I was looked up Louis and looked at him questioningly.
"Should I walk around naked in the house?"
He laughed and shook his head. He took my hand and pulled me to the bedroom we shared when we had guests.
"You will sleep here now."
I just stared at the room and then at Louis.
"But this room's only for ..."
Louis put his hand over my mouth and he looked into my eyes.
"For the child's sake, we will sleep like a married couple. I have put my life as a gay behind me and you're going to put all the past behind you. I'm the father and you are the mother. We belong together."
If Louis had done the same thing when we got married, he had got my heart. Now I knew that nothing was true and I knew that he was only playing with false cards. I couldn't understand why he wanted to fight so much. He could share the room with me and he could kiss me, he could do anything for me, but I knew it was a lie.
I chose not to mess with Louis. I chose to nicely going into the bathroom, brush my teeth and I took on a nightgown. I lay under the covers and I felt I was losing control. Louis did as he had always done. He showered, came naked into the room and he crawled under the covers.
"How are you?"
I looked at him and I didn't know if he was serious.
"Do you care about me or is it just a necessary question?"
He laughed a little bit and pulled me into his arms.
"What do you think?"
I didn't answer. I put my head against his chest, and the only one I had in my mind was Niall.
"Emma, I may change my mind and I can be the man you want."
I looked up at him.
"I doubt it."
Louis was amused, but he was serious.
"I'm your husband and you are my wife." he whispered. "Why can't we live as a married couple?"
"I don't have your baby in my belly and I know the truth."
"Emma, lies will always be around us."
I nodded in agreement.
"I know! Your mother is careful to tell me that all the time and my whole life is a lie."
Louis was startled and looked at me again.
"No? Or what do you mean?"
I smiled and I put my head back against his chest. He had no idea who I was and he didn't know the fact that I was the result from a love affair.
"Let's just say you don't know everything."
He seemed surprised.
"Seriously Emma. What's there that I don't know about?"
I smiled and closed my eyes.
My life was empty and I missed Niall. I went out all days and was helping the employees on the farm and I loved the horses above everything else. Still, I could ride a round and I was able to take me to those places that Niall had shown me. One can safely say that I became a shadow of myself. I felt nothing, I had no opinions and I went back to being the perfect wife.
It took a few days and then began Louis to loosen up. One evening he came into the bedroom and he went straight to bed. He stripped naked and laid down on top of me. I felt how he pushed me against the mattress and he was breathing heavily.
"So you want to have sex?" I asked cold. Louis was startled and looked into my eyes.
"Everybody has sex?"
I looked at him coldly.
"Gays don't have sex with girls?"
Directly he was cold all over and he just stared at me.
"So I can't touch you?"
I was quick and pulled off my nightgown.
"You can touch me if you want, but I don't love you anymore and I don't belong to you."
Louis groaned and sat up in bed.
"I do everything for us to have a good relationship. Why are you fighting against me?"
"I want you to bring back Niall."
Louis shook his head quickly.
"No, Emma. You know ..."
I smiled cold and interrupted him.
"That's why you can expect a relationship without me. I'm not going to live your life, just because you want it."
Louis knew nothing.
"One time, did you want me and you wanted to be my wife."
"I know, but time changed me and I'm not the same person anymore."
"I wont give Niall to you."
"Tell me then where I can find him?"
Louis became angry again and I saw how his eyes turned black.
"Why the hell do you love him? He has nothing and he owns nothing."
I smiled weakly and saw that Louis really didn't understand.
"You want to know how he won me?"
Louis shook his head. I sat up and smiled at him.
"He won me because he loves me with his whole heart. He doesn't need the money and any property. He just needs me."
"But I need you?"
I shook my head.
"No Lou! You don't know me and you will never have me. You depend on your power and your money. I'm just a property."
He became even more angry.
I swallowed and laid me down again. I reached for my nightdress and was going to get it on. Louis shrugged directly after my nightgown and threw it away across the floor. He grabbed my panties and pulled them off. Then he lay down on top of me and penetrated. It hurt and I screamed. Louis laughed and he pushed the dick hard inside me.
"You wont fucking believe you can be loved by another man."
I watched as he began to move. He brought the hip rapidly up and down and he forced me to spread my legs even more. I just wanted to cry, but I gritted.
"YOU are mine!" shouted Louis straight out and he moaned every time he pressed down in me. "YOU are mine and you wont fucking belong to Niall."
That night Louis raped me. I lay like a mattress and I couldn't resist. I felt how he took me and I had nothing to say. I felt how he bounced hard against my body and when he came he roared straight out. I felt how he filled me and then he sank together over me.
"Emma, you're mine!"
Louis looked coldly into my eyes.
"The next child you give birth to will be mine. It will be my altogether."
I nodded weakly.
"If you say so?"
Louis smiled and rolled off me.
"We're not fucking going to mix in others and we'll settle this on our own."
We? I knew he was talking about his own views, and about himself.