I went out and started walking
I had to pass Niall's house to get to the park
I put my headphones in but didn't put my music on
I thought it wouldn't be that safe seeing as I had to cross all of these roads
Niall was unloading stuff from his car and I didn't want to talk to him , I had a fear my emotions would get the better of me
I picked up the pace to go past quickly but he noticed me
He started shouting saying hey hey and all but I pretended I was listening to music and pick up the pace now
Little did I know that I had shed a few tears
Instead of running in the park I decided to go to Niall and I's secret tree house which was cute cozy and warm , and nobody knew about it so I could use it as an escape
I reached the tree house , climbed up and broke down
I couldn't do this anymore, the only person I truly loved was marrying another and I had no family, that I cared about anyway
I decided there was no point to keep my life the way it is, but nothing like suicide or self harm , I swore to Harry !
I would just not care any longer !
About ten minutes later the door creaked open , I was very surprised as I thought no one knew about it but I guess some one found out
Usually I would make myself presentable but now I just don't care
It was NIALL?
I quickly wiped the tears and plastered myself with powder and a fake smile to hide my tear stained cheeks
"Niall what are you doing here "? I asked
"I haven't seen you in ages ! I miss you !"
Oh shit, here come my feelings.. NO NO don't dare !
"Sames! Just been so busy lately well I better be off a lot of things to do catch up later yeah bye bye !" I smiled
"Ok, yeah .. S-sure " he spoke !shit ! He is getting suspicious!
"Bye !" I yelled while running off
I feel so alone right now, maybe a night out would help ?