I just couldn't leave things this way, I couldn't leave her thinking that I left her there because she told me her sad story. I need to tell her why I had to stay away even though now I'm failing to do so, I stand waiting for the nurse to bring Sophie out to see me. It feels like it is taking hours but in reality it is only 10 minutes, soon enough Sophie comes out. When she sees me she stops in her tracks, her eyes start to fill with tears and one spills out rolling straight down her cheek, and at that moment my heart started to hurt instantly seeing her so upset because of ME!
I slowly walk up to her as I see her shaking uncontrolable, I slowly walk towards her. She whispered," Don't."
I keep walking slowly towards her, I pull her into a hug. She tries pushing me away, I just keep holding her tight but she won't stop fighting against me as well as crying.
I whisper in her ear,"I'm sorry beautiful."
She starts crying even more, she pushes me hard aways from her, the force nearly knocks me to the ground.
"I need to explain to you why. I just can't do it here Sophie,'' I say with pleading in my voice as well as I know it is clear in my eyes, she looks straight into my eyes and just nodds.
I ask the nurse if it is possible to just take Sophie out for a walk so we could find somewhere private to talk. She lets my take Sophie out, we are only allow to stay on hospital grounds which I can understand. I walk with Sophie by my side, she had stopped crying but was still shaking quite a bit, I hate seeing her this way it just makes me feel pretty shit. I take her out into the garden area within the complex of the hospital. We both sit down on the park bench, I turn to look her straight in the eyes. I make sure there is no one listening in to our conversation, there is actually no one out here to hear what I'm about to tell Sophie or see us together. Sophie turns to face me, her eyes stare into my own crystal blue eyes that seem to melt away her anger to be replaced with so much hurt, I can clearly see in her eyes.
I cup her face with my hands, I lean in and crash my own lips upon her own," I have feelings for you."
She looks at me with shock clearly readable on her face, I take my hands away from her face letting her taking in what I just did as what I just said. She looks into my own blue eyes with her light green eyes, they show what I think to be lust within them.
She leans in kissing me passionately, she pulls away and turns her face away from my own.
I sit here, I'm so shocked that she kissed me but I'm more shocked that I kissed her back. I mean its not like I didn't enjoy the kiss or anything like that, it is just that this is why she has been staying away from me so she must not be what she want.
I turn my face away, I can't bare to stare into those blue eyes of hers. I realise at that moment that Avril and I will only ever be just friends, I mean she is christian and they are against same sex couples aren't they?
"Soph...," Avril says to me bring me out from my thoughts, her voice is unsure but when I turn to look at her she looks like she is scared as well as upset.
"Yeah...?" I ask in a quiet voice, I didn't know what else to say.
"I'm really sorry,'' she says to me with sorrow so clear upon her face as well as in her eyes.
I get to my feet, I walk over to the nice little fountain, I sit on the brick side of it so I can smell the water. Avril moves over to join me, she sits so she is facing me, she stares at me not moving her eyes from my own.
"Av...," I say weakily, I just didn't know how to tell her.
"Yeah?" she asks quick enough to nearly make me jump, I could see the curiousity in her eyes as to what I was going to ask or say.
"I'm going to try to get emancipated...,'' I say in a soft voice, I look away not wanting to see her reaction to my news.
"What?" Avril yells out loud, making me look around to see if anyone is looking at us since I hadn't realised no one was in this garden area.
"I'm going to try. I will have to get a job and have somewhere to stay. I have a lot of work to do before I can try to get emancipated," I say pretty much telling her my whole plan to get rid of being tied to my father.
TWO WEEKS PASS...
"Sophie, Ms Lane is here to see you," Kylie the nurse that I had become friends with, she was quite beautiful with blench blonde hair, brown eyes and stands at about 5 foot 5, I think she must still be in her twenties since she looks it.
She walks me to the room in which you normally see the doctor to talk about whatever you need to find out when you will be released. I walk in shutting the door behind me, there is this pyschologist that I have had to see since being in the hospital, her name is Charlie Lane. She has helped me quiet a lot, she is the last person who has to give me the all clear so I can go home.
I sit down in the chair across the table from Charlie, she smiles at me like always.
"This table makes it seem so formal," she says like she always does, I don't mind because I see her point of view pretty easily.
"So can I get out of here yet?" I ask with curiousity but more hope then anything else.
"We will be releasing you in about two days time if everything stays on track,'' she says to me a smile, but as soon as I heard that I couldn't help but have the biggest smile on my face.
I just want to get out of here since Lainey went home not last week but the week before and then Jordy went home at the start of last week. I feel so lonely in here because everyone I became friends with when I first came in have all left. I'm now sharing a room with this bitchy girl who I really do hate, she is so mean to everyone on this ward.
I talked with her for the hour like always, she told me that the doctor would come see me tomorrow to give me the all clear to get out of the hospital. Avril had been in to see me everyday since that day we kissed, nothing has changed we are just friends but she sees me everyday. I'm missing her because I only saw her this morning for awhile so I have to wait until sometime tomorrow to see her again.
I asked for my iPhone, Kylie the nurse gave it to me without any hesitation like all the other nurses. I dial Avril's number like always, it is answered within seconds of it ringing.
"Hey Soph,'' she says greeting me, I knew instantly by her voice tone that she was smiling on the other side of the phone.
"Hey Av, I just wanted to tell you the good news," I say not being able to keep the excitement from entering my voice.
"And what would that good news be?"
"In two days I get out of this hospital! They are letting me out!" I scream in the phone excitively which must have hurt her ears, but i could tell she was excited too.
I walk into the ward, I ask Kylie the nurse who is always nice to me as well as Sophie if I could see Sophie. She told me that Sophie was in with the doctors, this would decide weather she would be going home or not today. I wait patiently, I just feel so anxious about what the outcome will be.
Sophie walks out, as soon as her eyes catch mine she starts to run at me. This times she stops in front of me and seems to calm down before she pulls me into a hug, I knew instantly this was the time to ask her.
"Soph, I wanted to ask if you would move in with me into my house so you have somewhere to stay other then the streets of Sydney,'' I say nevousily as I look into her gorgeous light green eyes that look back into my own with a smile starting to appear on her lips.
"Yes I will Av,'' she says with so much appreciation within her voice, she smiles at me before walking off into the room she has been living in for the last 5 weeks.
She comes out with her bag in which she came in here with, she puts the backpack on and walks over to the desk to sign her discharge papers. I take her to my car in which causes her to stop in her tracks , she looks straight at me with surprise in her eyes.
"Wow...," Sophie managed to say shocked, that was actually the only thing she managed to say at all.
I open her door up wide for her to get in, she gets in putting her bag in between her legs on the floor, she does her seat belt up so I shut her door making my way around the back of my car. I open my door, getting in, I shove the keys in the ignition before turning it to bring my car to life. I shut my door and put my set belt on, I reverse out the car park and speed off.
We get back to my house, Sophie seems a little shocked at the nice things I have. I get out of the car, I go around to open Sophie's door to let her out of the car, she unbuckle her seat belt and get out the car with her backpack in hand. I take her by the wrist pulling her along behind me as I enter my house from the garage. I stop to turn around and face her face to face.
"Well Soph, this is my house. I'm going to show you around," I say with a huge smile on my face, but Sophie seemed pretty scared but I really don't blame her at all.
I showed her the bedrooms and asked her to pick which one she wanted, she picked the one right next to mine, it was kind of weird but that was the room she wanted so I let her have it. I left her in her room to set it up the way she wants, I just told her that we would need to sit down to discuss rules as well as maybe somethings she might need.
I cook something that a normal parent would cook for there child, I made it so I'm not giving her a huge meal so she will actually eat it. I talked to Kylie about what to do with Sophie, she told me just basically what to feed her and how much. I sit the food on the dinning table whilst I go upstairs to get Sophie, I knock on her door opening once I knocked twice. I walk in seeing her laying on her bed, she was fast asleep and she looked so peaceful that I didn't want to wake her but I know I have to. I gently shake her until her eyes start to flitter open, she looks up at me with something I have always seen as lust in a guys eyes...
I move away from her as quick as I could, I go to the door but only stop to turn around to tell her dinner was ready. I head down stairs nearly tripping as I'm thinking too much about the look in her eyes just then. I sit down at the table just staring at my own food, I just couldn't help but feel this feeling inside of me, that want of the stupid crush I have on Sophie.
Sophie walks in without me noticing until she coughs making me jump back into reality.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scary you Av," she said with sorrow in her eyes, she seems to be nervous standing in the doorway of the dinning room so I stand up.
"It's ok. I was just thinking and spaced out. I hope you enjoy your dinner which you have to eat Soph,'' I blurt out in one big sentence, I just didn't really think about my blurring things together.
I sit here eating my dinner in silence, I just can't handle this silence. I hate that I have to eat but I know if I don't Avril would shove it down my throat which I really don't want her to do. I managed to unpack the little amount of clothes as well as other things out of my bag, I just wish I had some money to buy some new clothes as well as shoes since all mine are pretty worn out.
I remember seeing Avril wake me up, I looked at her with all my want, I think it must have been clear in my eyes since she basically ran out my room once she looked in my eyes. I just can't get the kisses we have shared out of my head, it is as if it is burned into my memory or brain.
I sit here at the dinning table staring across the table at Avril, she is totally spaced out once again, she isn't really eating her food she is just playing with it. I just eat some of my food until this silence wrecks my meal, I just can't eat anymore I just need her to at least look at me.
I stand up walking up to her, I look at her to see if she has even noticed me yet. She still stares at her food, I decide to take action instantly. I push her chair back, I sit on her lap which seems to bring Avril back to reality, her eyes look like their going to bug out her head.
"Pay attention," I say moving my face closer to hers, I look into her beautiful blue eyes with my own light green ones.
"What-," she tried to say.
I didn't let her continue, I moved my lips to hers which causes her to stop talking instantly. I look into her eyes one more time before I look at her lips, I close my eyes and crash my lips upon hers...