She looked so beautiful, as she laid there in my arms. Her chocolate brown hair, which fell in waves over her skinny shoulders made her looking like a princess. I bit my lower lip. Elaine has got so skinny in the time, she lived with her dad. Didn´t he noticed, how thin she had become? I ran my fingers gently over her warm skin and smiled at her, although she slept and it hit me like ice.
I loved her.
But she loved Niall. Niall Horan. My best friend.
“You´re safe, Princess…” he whispers and hugs me gently. I feel safe in his strong arms, but something is wrong. Is it my heart, which is pounding like a little bird? I have to smile, because he pecks my nose and pulls me gently down on his lap. There isn´t any lust or pleasure like it was everytime when we were together. This time it is love, pure love.
“Why do you love me?” he whispers against my neck, while he gently runs his fingers in circles over my belly.
“You are my world, my hero… You´re my everything.” I whisper back, afraid of his reaction. But he just turns me around and pushes me softly in the warm sand, smiling at me. Our bodies are just a few inches away from each other but it makes me shiver to feel him that near.
“I love you princess… Promise you´ll be my princess forever…” he begs and rests his forehead against mine.
“I love you… I´ll love you till the end…” I smile weakly. But the end is… soon.
He lays himself down beside me and pulls me at his chest, while he gently plays with my hair.
“You know, what´s my biggest wish princess?” he whispers with a broken voice. I turn around, to see his face, but he avoids my gaze. There are small tears running down his cheeks making him shiver.
“Tell me…” I whisper back and hide myself at his warm chest. He strokes over my back, holding me close. I can feel the warmth of the sun against my skin. It feels good to have him here, to have someone who gives you a feeling. The feeling to be beautiful no matter how you look.
“Getting old with you princess…”
Her sobs made me awake.
I shot up and looked around, but it was too dark to see anything. There was just the moon, painting on the carpet. She lay right next to me, crying and shivering. I didn´t said anything. I just pulled her softly at my chest and kissed her forehead.
“It´s okay Babe…”
I had her back again and it broke my heart to see her hurt like this. I fell in love with her, but instead of loving me back… she hurted me. She just hurted me so much by loving Niall.
Elaine Cowell, the girl I once wanted to have. The girl, which drove me crazy. The girl I fell in love with… She was the only one, the only girl, which made me feel happy. She gave me the feeling to be useful. She needed me, but I needed her more. She was my everything. The girl I wanted to get old with. I wanted her to sit next to me, running her fingers over her round belly and whisper my name. To be the mother of my children. I knew it, right from the moment I pulled her out of that subway station. I wanted to wake me up one morning and kiss me. I wanted her to love me.
But she loved him.
“H-Harry… I´m done with it.” she cried and held me tight. It made my heart breaking.
Suddenly the door swung open.
“Elaine?” he asked.