Do you still believe?
In everything. Pain, sacrifice, loyalty, even love.
Put it to the test. Prove it to me that you arent gone.
Dont leave me.
Nialls p.o.v. (Havent done his p.o.v. in a while DX )
I feel tired. Every muscle aches. Breathing hurts. It gets worse as the day goes on. Or days, I dont know how I long ive been here. The sad thing is, its like a coma. Im concious in my mind but not on the outside. Only this isnt a coma. Its much worse. This is a-a parasite eating away and my life. And hers. The only times ive waken up I could barely open my eyes, and when I did, Kristen was there almost every single time. I know she hasnt left this place. These dull walls that are keeping me in balence for now. I wonder if she notices how I look. I probably look awful. She should leave so she cant see me.
What am I thinking, Im worried about how I look. Thats a joke. Im a joke.
Im falling apart, every second. I get closer and closer to deaths door. As does she, but Im almost sure she will out live me. Lets face it, I could have months, weeks, days, minutes, or seconds. At least I know my last seconds will be used perfectly. Thinking about Kristen. And how she chose me when I was awful, at my worst, well.... My alcoholic worst. Honestly, I felt like I was fading. But if you believe something enough, it happens. Maybe I want to grow weak and let her move on to someone better. She doesnt need to deal with sorrow and pain.
I finally get strength to open my eyes, and when I do, there is a nurse at the foot of my bed staring at me and Kristen crying in the seat next to the bed. The nurse shocked,
"Kristen. He's awake." She said. Kristen pulled herself together in seconds. and smiled.
"Hi honey. How are you?"
I couldnt talk. Like I had gone mute. I knew what to say but my mouth was practically glued shut. I just shook my head. She wiped away a tear and walked out. Somethings wrong with her. I couldnt fall back asleep that time. I just rested. a few minutes later I hear Harrys voice and her voice in whispers.
"He's getting worse Harry." She said sounding like she was crying.
"I know he isnt doing well kristen, but you cant cry about it. Look at him, hes peaceful. If hes in pain, he doesnt know it."
"How can you not be upset about this! Are you heartless?" She raised her voice a bit.
"Shhhhhhh. Dont wake him. Look Kristen, We are all upset okay, we know that he is getting worse, I mean look at him, he might as well already be dead because he is getting to the point where he is a vegetable. Honestly, do you think I want him here? Do you think any of us want him here? I get your freaking upset but you arent well. You need to go home and get some rest Kristen. otherwise youll end up next door to him. You havent gotten real sleep in how long? A week? Week and a half?!"
So I've been in here a week or more. And she hasnt left.
"I sleep fine when i hear his heart monitor going slow and steady. Im not going to risk leaving him and watching that line die. I know he is getting bad, and it hurts."
"Do you even know how we feel? We all love youto death Kristen, your an amazing girl for him. But you have to understand that your not the most upset. We have known him for 3 years now. How do you think that feels? How long have you known him, 5, 6 months?"
"I understand Harry. Yall have grown with him. But He's my boyfriend. And I love him. I feel just as much pain as you do. If it stops us from arguing, Ill go home for a few hours."
"Go." and i heard footsteps leaving.