As the sunlight broke my eyes, They fluttered open. I reached over on my charging dock and grabbed my phone to see my notifications. Unlocking the screen, I tapped on the Instagram app, and scrolled down my timeline until I stopped at a particular one that caught my eye. I studied it closely, as it was a picture Niall had posted of the party last night. The picture was of Harry, Ellie, him, another guy whose name I do not know,.
I looked at all the comments until I saw one from Harry
"A little party never killed nobody."
I laughed to myself and found myself scrolling through his profile once again. "Why am I doing this?"
when I ran out of pictures i went back and stalked his friends to find any pictures they had posted of him "This is so creepy i need to stop."
At this point I knew something was wrong with me, but I couldn't tell what changed me. For some reason, I'm taking really deep breaths and squealing, and am always happy to be in choir but why? Was it because I got the solo? Was it because Ellie and I are friends again?
That's when it hit me that i might be falling for Harry Styles a little
or a lot
I jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom where I keep all my makeup when i stopped myself in motion. There's no school today. Its Saturday. As weird as it sounds, I was actually upset that I wasn't going to school, because that mean't I wouldn't get to see him. Disappointed, I slumped back down to my bed and began to text Ellie
"soooo I might just like Harry a little"
She replied almost immediately
"I knew it"
We began to have a conversation
"So ask him out!"
"Ellie, are you kidding? he would never!"
"Ummmm you are 18 honey there is no time to waste at this point."
"What do you mean, Ellie?"
"You have just reached the beginning of the danger zone."
"The danger zone. Jaci, when you turn 18 and you haven't found someone you might as well start raising kittens."
"But Ellie, I still have the rest of my life."
"Jaci, when you reach the age of 26 people start considering you an adult. and when you are that old nobody likes old people. you have 5 years to find someone or you'll live the rest of your life alone unless you trust those creepy dating websites."
"Ellie you are full of it."
"You know I just made this up right?"
"Yes I did, Ellie, because it sounded stupid."
"Honey i'm smarter than you."
"But seriously ask him out because you never know what will happen. You could die! or he could die!"
"Ellie nobody is dying."
"Good because I hate funeral potatoes."
I sadly slumped in my bed and thought some more about Harry. ask him out, ask him out.
I thought and thought. I wanted to but I didn't know of a conversation starter. I glanced over my phone and saw the swimsuit in the corner of the room then began to text in the speed of light.
"Hey, I still have Gemma's swimsuit, do you want me to bring it over sometime today."
He replied a few minutes later
"No its fine, I'll just get it at school."
His words felt like salt on a wound. I would definitely not be asking him out after that. If he wanted to see me it wouldn't be at the school. he would have said to meet him somewhere.
sadly I rang out the swimsuit and hung it up then tied my hair up in a ponytail along with some sweats.
After that Ellie called and asked if i wanted to go to the Mall with her. Looking my worst, I still went but was asked for my number a few times. Even though most all of the boys were ugly it was still a compliment.
Finally we went to the last store where they sold lots of fancy dresses out of my budget. I looked over at Ellie who had a million dresses in her hand and decided to wait for her outside the dressing room.
"Get me this in a size smaller!" She screamed and threw the purple dress on top of me over the door.
Annoyed, I went scouring for another dress in this size before I bumped into none other than Harry Styles.
"What are you doing here?" I asked meaner sounding tone than what expected.
"Gemma..." He said scratching the back of his neck.
"If I had known I was going to run into you, I would have brought her swimsuit."
"Yeah... are you getting this?" he took the dress away.
"No, its Ellie's." I pointed to it as he held it.
"You should." He smiled "Well it was nice seeing you, I'm gonna go find her."
"Bye" I blushed as he walked away leaving me with the dress and my feelings for him.
I need to get over him. One minute i'm convinced he doesn't like me but then he talks to me once and I fall all over again. I need to get a hold of myself, because at this rate I will end up with a kitten farm and multiple accounts on Localsingles.com which I did not want.
The stupidest part is that I've never kissed anyone before, and yet I would let him be the first. My mother used to tell me that she would give me a car if i didn't kiss anyone until i was 16, but on my 16th birthday when I didn't get a car I guess I was too depressed to kiss every boy in sight like i had planned. Ever since I haven't had a reason to kiss anyone.
I've never fell this hard before.