*Warning: there is sexual content in this chapter*
I did feel bad about leaving Justin outside but I was just so upset with how he was acting. I know he didn't want me to leave but I think he should at least try to look happy for me. I loved him and it would hurt to leave him but this is my future. I didn't want to have to choose. I felt so bad that I was making him stay here between my apartment and the hotel. The last thing I want him to do is question my feelings for him. I just decided to use this time to write and listen to music because I haven't done it for a while and I missed my independent time.
Just as I was finishing up my chapter in my journal I heard footsteps behind the door.
"You're all that matters to me, yeah yeah, what's a king bed without a queen, there ain't no I in team, you make me complete, you're all that matters to me."
The door opened and there was Justin blushing with a smirk on his face.
"I know this doesn't make up for how selfish I was being, but you are all that matters and I just want you to know that I support you no matter what the decision. If you want to leave and start over in California, so be it." -He made eye contact signaling me to reply.
"Justin, I love you, you know that. But this is my future and I really don't want you to be sad if I decide to go." -He looked sad but nodded in approval.
He pulled me in for a hug and it couldn't help but smile. His hugs were so comforting and his warmth just made me feel loved. I did not want to lose this perfect boy.
"We have plans to see Shawn and Emma tomorrow for lunch."
He pulled back from the hug and his eyes widened.
"Really?" -He said excited.
It was so cute how he had a little boy crush on Shawn.
"Spence, I hope you know I'm not 'fangirling' I just respect him and I think he's super talented and he could go places."
"You could go places to Justin, you turned it down."
"Why would I want to be attacked and destroyed by paparazzi. Why would I wanted to receive hate by millions? Society can kill a teenager and I didn't wanna go through with that, especially at 15 years old. I'm happy where I am."
His words really hit me. Why do we live in a world where we don't live our dreams I fear of what people think. Everyone says it's 'society' that's wrong. But we are society and we all create it.
"So may I stay?" -Justin asked kissing my forehead.
I nodded kissing his lips in return.
Justin and I spent the rest of the day cuddling on the couch in sweats watching movies. He was wearing black sweatpants with a black beanie that his hair was pulled in to and I had to say I was so turned on. I rolled on top of him to look down into his eyes. They were such a beautiful hazel.
"My mother warned me about the drugs in baggies sold on the street, but never the ones with brown eyes and a heartbeat."
Justin's eyes lingered on mine.
"Did you write that?"
"No, it's a quote I read but it made me think of you." -He smiled.
"I love when you read short poems to me." -He said brushing his thumb against my jawline.
I leaned in to kiss his lips. Everytime was just so special. I expected it to be a short peck but it started to speed up. He began to use his tongue and we ended up having a full makeout session. He pulled my t shirt over my head and started to kiss right above my bra. I leaned my head back biting my lip. He then reached his hands behind my back unclasping my bra. Then he started to kiss my nipples.
"Ugh Justin, your lips feel so good."
He sucked harder at my words.
Damn he was so good at making me feel good. I could tell he had a hard on through his pants.
"Could I pleasure you?" -I've never really done this but I was willing to try for him.
"You don't have to if you're not ready Spencer."
I nodded signaling I was willing to. He lied back down undoing his sweat pant strings.
"This is embarrassing, but I don't really know what to do." -I admitted.
"It's not hard, I'll tell you as we go."
I slid to the end of the couch and started pulling down his pants. I've obviously seen his dick before but never have I only pleasured him. I removed his black Calvin Klein boxers exposing him.
"Okay, so first, take it slow and just suck on the tip."
I did as I was told only placing the head into my mouth and wrapping my tongue around it and sucking.
"Yeah.. Right like that." -He said inhaling deeply.
"Okay, now lick along the bottom of the shaft."
Following his instructions again, I placed my tongue at the bottom and ran it up slowly to meet the tip.
"Your tongue feels so good baby."
I loved being able to pleasure him, it made me feel in control.
As I got the hang of it, I took control. Placing the whole thing into my mouth and proceeding to move my head up and down also moving it like a corkscrew.
I looked up to see Justin's eyes closed with his bottom lip tucked under his teeth. I was actually so turned on by turning him on.
He tensed up and I can tell he was ready to release but he stopped me.
"I don't wanna cum yet, ride me." -he ordered.
I never did this either but I was curious. I slid off my sweatpants and blue thong and crawled on top of him.
"Ready?" -he asked.
He placed it at the tip of my entrance an started to slide in. It had been a while since we did anything sexual really. This position made it go much deeper and it felt so much better than ever before. I began to slide up and down making him moan. I began to pick up my speed and realized I was close to my release.
"Justin, I'm gonna..."
"Hold it." -he ordered.
I tensed up my legs trying to keep myself going. He thrusted 2 times with lots of force and I felt myself release around him.
I pulled over a blanket from the reclining chair and placed it over us. Sleeping naked was one of the best feelings in the world and i know he though so too.
"I love you." -he said still catching his breath.
"I love you too." -I whispered back.
This is exactly what we both needed.
Note from the author: I hope you guys enjoy smut because I know I enjoy reading it when I read fanfics. I don't know if I'm all that great at writing it but I decided to give it a try as Spencer and Justin have done stuff together but I didn't explain it much with details. Anyways I hope you enjoyed the chapter. Make sure to comment if you want an update sooner because as you know, if I get one comment to update, I do as soon as possible. Ilysm