11. Purple Pills: Part 2
I wanted to just yell at Dylan. Why the hell was he the one looking over me? Why was he here? How did he get here? Why couldn't it have been someone else? Why am I even alive? I should be happy and free. Not trapped in a hospital with the devil staring into my eyes. I could barely talk but I got something out.
He just looked at me and licked his lips like he was thinking about what to say.
"I owe you some explaining."
Yes he very much does owe some god damn explaining.
"Okay well, it's a long story. You see, I still really like you."
What the hell.. he liked me? WHAT THE FUCK. He ruined my life. He continued anyways,
"The thing is, I loved you. And you were the first real girlfriend I had. Things were getting really serious and I was scared that you'd break up with me and I'd get too attached so I ended before either of us could get extremely hurt. I told you that I cheated on you so that you wouldn't ask questions. I knew that if you heard that and saw me with someone else, you wouldn't talk to me. If I said it was because of the real reason, you'd try to comfort me and I'd just fall more in love."
A tear started forming in the corner of his eye.
"So anyways. That night. I was really drunk which is why I was into you. Drunk makes you tell the truth. Except it makes me really dumb. Trust me Spencer, I would never ever hurt you like that on purpose and I do respect girls. I don't even remember that night but I want you to know I had nothing to do with the teasing and I promise I told no one. I completely ruined things. I lost the best part of me which was always you. I also made the girl I love suffer and hurt and want to kill herself. I was really missing you tonight so I took a walk past our tree and I saw you lying there. I was confused because I hadn't seen you for weeks so I walked over and saw the bottle. I kept pushing on your stomach until you were sick and threw up the pills. I already felt so horrible and if you killed yourself I'm sure I'd be following shortly after. You didn't know but I got most of the school to stop with the teasing. I told them the truth that it was me who attacked you and a lot of people started to miss you. I just wanted to let you know everything."
He was completely crying now but he stroked my forehead and walked out. I was completely speechless. I didn't know what to say. I was in so much shock. What was I supposed to think? This was completely crazy. Dylan, the one I hated most in the world just saved my life and told everyone at school he attacked me so they'd stop teasing me. Dylan..the guy I thought ruined my life just told me he loved me.
I thought about going back to school but I can't. Not after everyone knows I tried to kill myself. It'd be horrible. I also could never tell Justin. So I won't. I'm getting away from this town. Dead or Alive.