This was so hard, I didn't know if I should be happy or sad. I got into the university I've dreamed of going to for as long as I could remember but I'm losing the best boyfriend I've ever had.
"Justin, I know this isn't the time to be asking this, but I'm going to have to get to California as soon as possible and I need to know your thoughts about continuing this relationship."
He didn't answer, just stared at the floor.
"I get it Spencer." -He said rather rough.
I didn't know what to say. But by the way Justin is, I wasn't 100% sure that we'd be able to keep a relationship going.
I reached over the table and placed my hand over his.
"No matter what I love you."
Justin's POV (yes I know, it's been a while)
She says she loves me. Do I believe it? This whole thing was fun at first. But then I got too attached. I don't want to have a relapse about what happened with Selena. I was so upset after she left me. I turned into someone I wasn't. And now it's happening again and Spencer hasn't even left me yet. She fixed me. And I don't want to lose her. She doesn't know about my mild depression. It's not too big of a deal but it explains a lot. I guess no matter what happens, I'll end up upset.
"There's nothing like us, will you remember that?"
She seemed startled by my question.
"Of course Justin.. Where are you going with this?"
I sighed, I'd probably regret this in a couple days.. Or hours.. Maybe minutes.
"I can't stop you from living your dreams. I can't just stop you from doing homework or studying to call you. I don't want to be wondering what you're doing or who you're with. It would drive me insane. And as much as I hate the thought of losing you, I'd hate for us to go through a long distance relationship that bombs and then you forget what the best side of our relationship looked like. I want you to remember how hard I tried for you, how hard I tried to keep you. And everything I went through just to be with you. I love you so much. And don't stop what you're doing because of me."
I could see tears in her eyes forming, those perfect hazel eyes that pulled me right in when I met her at that bar. It's so hard to find love like this and I can't believe I'm throwing it away.
She leaned over the table to kiss me and stood up. I followed.
"Achieve great things Justin, do something with that voice. You won't regret it. You'll get places and I can't hold you back either. Believe. You'll be able to do anything."
And with that, I smiled and hugged her one last time. This was the last time I'd be able to feel her warmth and feel her heartbeat against my chest. I hope to god her next boyfriend treats her right, treats her better than me. I want her to grow old with someone and not worry about what happened to me. I want her to find someone that makes her forget about the rest of the world.
I gave her one last look and turned around and left her small apartment for the last time.
God, I hope I made the right decision.