I stood there breathlessly staring at my letter. How on earth could this have happened? I had good grades, was on many sports teams, was on the high school student council, I don't know how much more they could've wanted. I was overwhelmed with sadness but also a little satisfaction that I wouldn't have to make a decision about where my future stands with Justin. This would be a team effort to decide if our relationship was sustainable enough to fight for. It would be hard though. University is already busy without having a relationship, especially with someone over an hour away. But knowing Justin, he'd try. Try so hard until it's impossible to go on. I stood in a frozen position, rereading the lines of rejection over and over again.
"Baby.. What's it say?" -Justin asked walking into the living room in boxers running his fingers through his messy hair. Sexy I thought. But this was no time for unholy thoughts about him.
"I didn't get in Justin."
His eyes looked of sadness but not surprised. All he did was walk over and pull my hips into him for a hug. I wrapped my arms tight around his neck, nothing on earth felt this much like home. He pulled back to softly kiss my lips and my stomach erupted into butterflies. It was so good to be with someone who made it feel like your destiny to be with them. Justin pulled me back in and brought his lips to my ear, he started a hushed singing while swaying back and forth,
"Everything's gonna be alright, be alright. You know that I care for you, I'll always be there for you, promise I'll just stay right here. I know that you want me to, baby we can make it through anything because everything's gonna be alright."
He was so perfect. My eyes started watering with tears as I realized one day I'll have to live without this wonderful boy, this boy that saved me. I started to cry into his arms and he pulled away.
"What, why are you crying? I was trying to make everything better not to make you sad."- His lips sort of quivered as he spoke.
"No Justin, I'm crying because I'm in love with you and it will be so horrible to lose you."
He wrapped his arms tightly around me again but this time tighter than ever.
"Baby, you won't lose me because we will last, we can fight this and we'll get through it."
It had been a productive day of doing nothing with Justin and currently we were lying on the couch watching some stupid comedy movie that frankly wasn't that funny but being with Justin was what I was here for. He was wearing sweats with no top, I was wearing spandex shorts and a lose t shirt. To me, this beat any date out of the house. Plus the summer was almost over which meant we had limited time together. Considering how well out relationship was turning out lately, I didn't have doubt we could make it. My thoughts were interrupted by my phone ringing. It caught me off guard because besides Kyle and Justin, I didn't use my phone. I didn't have the contact in my phone so I stepped away from Justin to answer it in the hall.
"Hello?" -I answered sort of confused.
"Hey, Spencer. It's Emma, from your English class."
I remembered her and we were sort of friends but I only got there a couple months before the break so we didn't get a chance to get that close.
"Uh hey, what's up?"
"I know we didn't get too close but I was wondering if you wanted to hangout and go to the mall or something?"
I really liked the idea because I didn't have any girlfriends and it'd be nice to have a girl to chat with instead of Justin or Kyle all of the time. I agreed and told her just to text me a time that was good for her. I returned back to the room with Justin sitting up looking at me.
"Babe, who was that? Is everything alright?"
It was cute how he was concerned but i don't know why he had to think something was wrong all the time.
"It was just my friend Emma, we made plans."
"You never told me about her." -He replied bluntly.
"Okay Justin, it's no big deal.." He clenched his jaw and avoided my glance. What was wrong with him?
"Baby, it's just a girlfriend, we aren't even that close it's just some time with a friend, you know I don't have any besides Kyle and he's a guy."
Suddenly Justin turned to me like a whole different person smiling.
"I know babe, I'm not sad."
It was like something came over him for a couple minutes and to be honest it did scare me, because it wasn't the Justin I knew.