I've been at home for about 2 hours now pretty much just thinking about what would happen to my future. I totally forgot Justin had to go back to college after the summer and I'd be enrolling once the acceptance letters came out. I applied to a few places and my grades were good so if definitely be going somewhere this fall. Should Justin and I even stay together? I mean if we're at different colleges I don't see how it'll work. It's just if I lose Justin, the only person I have left is Kyle. I don't really have any girlfriends. I guess I couldn't make further decision until acceptance letters came out because I could either be super far away or under an hour away. I didn't think I'd have a problem staying loyal to Justin because all I ever wanted was him so I'd be stupid to mess it up. I was just thinking as couples see each other less, they grow apart and I was so afraid of this happening. My thought was interrupted by my phone buzzing in my lap.
"Babe, just hear me out. I know we both want different things but I'd do anything to keep this relationship going. I can't promise I'll move here but I'll take time to stay at hotels so I can see you. Well make it work Spence, i know you're not the type to give up. I knew your strength and determination the moment I met you in that bar.."
He was talking faster than I've ever heard him speak before.
"Justin.. Have you totally forgotten you're going back to college?"
My words caused him to pause. It seemed like it'd been over 2 minutes before he said something.
"I haven't, but we don't know where you're going yet."
I suppose he was right. But he shouldn't be making all these future plans before I do.
"Baby.. You applied to Toronto U..didn't you?" -He asked concerned.
"Because you know I go there and if you make it in we won't have to worry."
OH MY GOD. I totally forgot he went there considering it's been summer and he hadn't mentioned it for like 2 months. If I got in it would fix all out problems.
"Justin, can you come over? I'm sorry I made you leave-"
I didn't even finish my sentence before my door opened.
"Right ahead of you babe."
Justin walked over and kissed my forehead. He was carrying a bag of McDonalds and a rose from the community garden outside. It's small things like that that make me so lucky to have him.
"But if I don't get in, or get in somewhere with more opportunity, then what will happen?"
He was shocked that I was over thinking this so much.
"We'll make it work Spencer. We have to."
He handed me a quarter pounder from the bag with a bag of fries. I wasn't that hungry because my fear took my appetite away but I managed to get some down.
"Lay with me." -Justin said softly while leaning back on the couch. I snuggled in beside him and put my head on his chest. The sound of his heartbeat was beautiful and calm. Although, I wouldn't be calm myself until those letters came.
I opened my eyes to notice Justin wasn't beside me anymore.
"Justin!" I yelled so he'd hear it if he was still here. He appeared at the open doorway.
"It's here." -He said dangling the white envelope in his fingertips.