It's been about a week since Justin told me that he was inlove with me. He didn't exactly say it in those words but he implied it and I haven't frowned since. I was currently waiting for him in a bench at the park because he called me saying that he had to tell me something. I didn't really know what to expect. He didn't seem upset though so I wasn't worried. It was a beautiful day. It was warm but breezy, laughter from the playground filled the whole park and I could hear someone playing their guitar somewhat close. It was quite beautiful. It reminded me of when Justin showed up at my door to tell me he had loved me. He hadn't really sang to me for a couple months now and I had wondered why. He used to love showing me songs he had written. My thoughts were interrupted when 2 hands slid over my eyes.
"Guess who?" -the voice filled my ears.
"Hmm. I wonder." -I replied sarcastically.
He uncovered my eyes and Justin had slid beside me on the bench. He looked so good. He was wearing a baby blue long sleeve but the sleeves were rolled to his elbows. He had on dark grey jeans and navy blue vans. A necklace hung to the middle of his chest. I liked his hair aswell. The usual gel up but it had a messier feel to it.
"So um..can we talk?" -he asked licking his lips. I nodded and smiled back.
"It's nothing bad but I'm just wondering..you haven't been home in forever and like I miss it there. I've been staying in hotels and at your place for weeks. I'm sure you miss your family as well. I was just hoping that you would like to come home..maybe?"
His words definitely surprised me. I didn't know he wanted me to come there. He noticed I was distracted by his words and added more.
"Also, there's no reason why you have to stay here anymore."
I liked it here.. It was beautiful. And even though it was smaller than Toronto and there was less to do. It's much quieter here.
"I know it's a lot to ask you to come home, at least visit. You must miss your mom and Liam."
He looked me right in the eyes and the sun was hitting his perfectly making them shine a whole different way. I nodded letting him know I would definitely visit with him but I was unsure about moving back. I just got settled here. He smiled and brought me in for a hug. He seemed so happy today and I loved it.
"Okay, I gotta pick up some things at my hotel, I'll be back around 4 to get you."
Wow..that was a lot sooner than I thought. He kissed my cheek and headed for his car. I stood up heading towards the apartment when my phone started buzzing.
I picked it up.
"Hey Kyle, what's up? Feeling any better?"
He chuckled before his response.
"I don't let women control my happiness if that is what you're referring to."
I couldn't help but smile.
"Look, I'm heading back to Toronto at 4, wanna hang out before I go?"
He didn't take that long for his response.
"For sure Spencer. I'll come over." -He hung up. That was probably a good idea considering I had to get packed in about 2 hours.
I heard a knock at the door but it opened shortly after. Kyle and I were so close that he kinda just walked in now.
"Hey, how's Justin?" -He asked when he saw me.
"Oh yeah, nice to see you too." -I replied sarcastically.
"He's been good since..you know. But he doesn't really know we are friends."
Kyle's face looked a bit concerned for a second.
"I don't want what happened to relapse." =He was getting really serious.
"Don't worry I'll tell him soon." -I reassured him. He gave me a half smile.
"So can I help you pack?" -I laughed.
Kyle really was the ideal best guy friend. I was sort of glad things didn't work out in a good way because where else do you find a guy that helps you pack your thongs and bras? It certainly doesn't come often.
It was an hour to Justin coming to get me so we could head back to Toronto. I was all packed and Kyle and I were watching tv while talking and eating Rolo Ice cream. It was both of our favorites. "Okay, truth or dare?" -He asked me.
I laughed as i only played this through middle school.
Kyle probably couldn't ask me anything he wouldn't know the answer to because we both knew each other so well.
"Okay. I have a good one. The next time Justin tries to kiss you, I dare you just to lick the side of his face!" -Kyle burst out into laughter.
"OH MY GOSH NO KYLE!" -I punched him in the arm.
Did he actually think I'd do that. He stopped laughing to look me in the eyes. I loved his, emerald green with little bits of brown on the outsides. He paused before speaking.
"I love you," -he said. I was speechless.. Did he not know everything that just happened?
"Kyle.. I don't know what to say, uh." -He started laughing.
"Not like that, I mean I love you like.. You're my best friend."
My stomach flipped at his response.
"In that case I love you too," -I said back hugging him.
My next move was interrupted by someone clearing their throat and I turned to see Justin at my front door. His eyes were widened.
"Oh my god.." -I whispered under my breath. He walked directly in front of us.
"Okay.. So is everything both of you said to me a lie. I'm not stupid."
We both shook our heads.
"No Justin, man everything I told you that night about my ex and everything was the truth. Spencer is my best friend. That's all."
Kyle then turned to me.
"You should have just told him we were friends so this wouldn't happen."
Justin also turned to me, -"Spencer. Please. Dear god tell me this is true," -his eyes started to look a bit watery meaning he was about to cry.
I got up off the couch and brought him into a tight hug. I brought my lips to his ear, -"no one beats you baby. It's only you."
After hearing my words his grip tightened around my waist. I pulled back to kiss his lips softly. As his eyes were already filled with water, a tear dripped and I wiped it away with my thumb.
"I never want to be the reason for your tears Justin. I would never ever hurt you on purpose. I hope you know that."
He nodded his head and then motioned towards my bags near the front door.
"You ready Spence?" -I nodded my head and turned to Kyle, -"I'll see you when I get back Kyle." He got up and brought me in for a friendly hug. He turned to Justin and shook his hand.
"See you later man, sorry this keeps happening." -Justin kinda chuckled.
Justin picked up my backs throwing the strap over his shoulder.
"Let's get going."
We've been driving for a while and I have to say I don't want the ride to end. Currently we had the radio on and Justin's hand was on my thigh as the other was on the steering wheel. The sky was a perfect blue and we had both the windows down. Justin had a pair of black sunglasses on and he was singing along to Crazy For You by Hedley. I loved his voice. It was so perfect and I kind of wondered why he wasn't famous.
"Hmm?" -He sounded back at me.
"Why don't you sing any of your songs to me anymore?"
He paused for a second. And gripped tighter to my leg.
"Uhm. I never knew it meant anything to you," -he said back casually.
How could he think that?
"I love your songs babe."
He smiled at my response.
"In that case I will," -he licked his lips and kept his focus on the road.
It broke my heart to know I almost made him cry today. I never wanted to be the reason for his sadness. Next I saw our exit and I was overwhelmed with butterflies. I was actually really excited to see my mom and little brother. I missed them both so much but I needed the time away from everything. There's only one person I wasn't up for seeing.. And everyone knows who that is.