My entire body ached like hell when I woke up the next morning. My head pounded as I tried to sit up. The light from the window was burning my eyes making my head hurt that much more. Looking around, I noticed that this wasn't my room, or really any room that I recognized. It was a lot more messy than mine or Rian's rooms. There was a groan from the side of me, and I turned, noticing Alex Gaskarth. Okay, now I was starting to freak a little. He turned facing me and slowly opened his eyes, blinking a lot, trying to wake himself up. I wasn't sure how to react, leaving me frozen in front of him. He sat up and rubbed his eyes. “Jack?” he asked and I practically jumped out of the bed. “What are you doing here?” I really didn't know what to say.
“I-I don't know…” I said, standing by the window. He gave me a strange look before mumbling something else and fixing the blanket that was draped over his body.
“Put your damn pants on.” He said. I looked down. I felt the blood rush to my face and my skin getting hot. I quickly bent down sliding my boxers and my pants on. I pulled my shirt over my head too so I was completely dressed. “Fuck…” Alex groaned, grabbing the sides of his head tightly. “Did we sleep together last night?” The question caught me off guard at first. I thought back to last night and the feeling of my lower half. I nodded slightly, but enough for him to see my answer. He groaned and fell back against the pillow. The blanket fell of his chest revealing the faint outlines of his abes. I gulped a little. “Do you like staring at people you just slept with?” Alex chucked, snapping me out of my daze making me look at his face.
“No, I just-” I stopped, not exactly knowing what to say. He just laughed a little.
“I'm guessing last night was your first time.” He said sitting up again.
“No, why would you think that?” I said maybe a little bit too quickly, not exactly covering the fact that yeah, that was my first time last night.
“Because you’re turned on again.” Alex pointed at the growing erection in my pants. Feeling a lot more embarrassed than I already was, I picked up a jacket that was on the ground to cover it up. "It's okay. Happens to everyone.” I started to walk around the bed when Alex stopped me again. “Was I good?” He laughed. I just rolled my eyes. Here comes annoying Alex.
“Don't you have a girlfriend?” I questioned him, remembering that girl, Lisa.
“Yeah. About that. Don't tell her… please.” He said. I rolled my eyes a scoffed a little, leaving the room after picking up my shoes.
Walking down stairs, Rian was on the couch with Cassadee, talking. Looks like he got what he wanted. “Oh, look who decided to finally come out of the room.” Rian laughed. How was he not feeling like me?
“Shut up. Let's just go." I heard him say goodbye to Cassadee and he ran up behind me as we walked outside.
“Dude, wait up. What happened that put you in such a pissy mood?” I just ignored him and got in the passenger seat of the car. “Are you going to say anything?” I just shook my head leaning my head against the glass of the window as he started the car. “Mine, or yours?”
“Yours. I'll call my mom from there and tell her I'll be back Monday night.”
“Okay. How are you going to explain why you are staying?”
“I’ll just say that were working on project together.” Rian nodded keeping his eyes on the road.
After a few minutes we arrived at his house and we both got out going straight upstairs. His parents weren't home still. Good. I didn't want to deal with adults right now. I walked in his room throwing Alex’s jacket on computer chair. I flopped on his bed groaning and holding my head. This was my first actual hangover. Kind of a butt hangover as well from the activities of Alex and I last night. Rian came in the room with a bottle of water and threw it at me. “Drink or you’ll get really, really sick.” I took the cap of and drank a sip. I already felt sick. “So what did you and Mr. Hottie do last night?”
“Really, Rian? What are we, girls?” I glared at him.
“I was just wondering. Don't get all defensive.” He said, holding his hands up.
“Sorry.” I mumbled to him and he took a drink of water.
“But I'm serious. What did you guys do? I wanted to introduce Cassadee to you and then you were just gone from the stairs.” He questioned and I sighed.
“I hung out with Alex a little bit. He got me something to drink and we went upstairs and just talked.” Rian gave me a disbelieving look. “What?”
“No one just goes upstairs with Alex Gaskarth and just talks. Even you should know that.”
“Well I did. Plus nothing would happen anyway. He’s straight has a girlfriend. and I'm… I don't really know.”
“Jack, you've been gay for as long as I've known you. You're not questioning your sexuality now, are you?”
“No, no, no.” I said shaking my head quickly. “I just feel weird.”
“You like him don't you?” He teased. “Jack and Alex sitting in a tree F-U-C-K-I-N-G” Rian's singing only pissed me off.
“Rian don't!” I screamed and pushed him a little. Not hard, but enough to make him almost fall off the bed. “That's not funny. And that’s not even how that song goes”
“Whatever. You like him.” I was about to say something, till I felt my stomach gurgle and I felt really sick. I closed my mouth, clasping my hand over it, and ran to the bathroom throwing my head over the toilet. I'm definitely not getting drunk again. I heard Rian chuckle from the doorway.
“This isn’t funny.” He laughed even more and handed me a slightly damp wash cloth.
“Uh, yeah it is.” I rolled my eyes taking the cloth from him and wiped my face. I stood up walking back in the room, wincing some at the pain shooting up my lower back.
“Okay, I'm serious. What did you do last night? Did you get in a fight?” He said the last part like he really wanted that to be what happened.
“Ri, I can't tell you.” He looked at me strangely.
“Why not? You know I won't tell anyone and you're my best friend. I'll tell you what me and Cassadee did...” He suggested. I knew I really shouldn't but I did anyway.
“Fine. But you have to go first.”
“Okay, We danced a little then she took me in some room near the back of the house…” he paused for a second, wiggling his eyebrows. “Let's just say she gives really good head.” My draw dropped. I always thought Cass was a little bit more of a… well, lady, I guess. But this is high school. “Your turn.” I sighed thinking about exactly what I was going to say to him.
“okay, um.. Once Alex got me my drink and I was a little bit tipsy. We went upstairs. I we didn't do anything though.”
“Yeah right. Tell me. Did you sleep with him?” Rian questioned, making me feel a little uneasy.
“No.” I said, trying to think of something else. “We kind of… made out.”
“Not what I was hoping. But nice! You made out with one of the hottest guys in school. And he’s straight. That double points for you.” he cheered, patting me on the shoulder. I didn't wanna tell him that my first time having sex was while I was drunk. That just seemed stupid.
For most of the day, we just kind of lounged around the house playing video games and eating everything we could get our hands on. We fell asleep around 9:30pm. We were both extremely exhausted. The next morning, waking up wasn't as bad as before. Now I just felt sleepy other than sick. Rian drove us to school. I guess that's why he was kind of popular. He was one of the few people in our grade that could legally drive without an adult with him every time. We parted ways and went to our classes.
I stood at my locker getting my stuff for my second period class. Later I heard someone walk up behind me. At first I thought that it was just Rian, since we sometimes walk to our classes together. “Well hi there, Sugar Lips.”
I rolled my eyes knowing exactly who was behind me.
“Hello, Alex.” I turned and gave him a sarcastic smile. He was leaning against the locker with one arm: the way you see a guy hitting on a chick in some old cheesy 80’s movie.
“Is that anyway to treat someone who took your virginity only a few days ago?” Sometimes, I just really wanted to punch him in the face. I ignored him, closing my locker and I started to walk away, but he grabbed my wrist. “You didn't tell anyone did you?” He whispered to me.
“No, Alex. I told you, I wouldn't. Don't worry. Your drunk gay alter-ego is safe with me.” I rolled my eyes again, shrugging him off of me and continued going to my class. I really hated math. This shit was useless and I was never going to use it in my life.
Almost half way through the class the teacher told us to get in partners to finish the last problems on our sheet together. I liked working in partners, as long as I wasn't doing all the work. I was a people person, really. I like hanging out and being near people. But today wasn't one of those moods. I just wanted to be alone. Me and another girl were the only two people that didn't have a partner so we decided to work together. She was cute, sucks I was only interested in guys. Her name was Jenna. She was really nice and funny. She had only lived in America for about a year and hadn’t had many friends so she said she liked meeting a guy that wasn't hitting on her.
“So I heard you hooked up with Alex Gaskarth at his party on Saturday. Is it true?” She was sweet, but she was female. They liked their gossip. I chuckled and turned to her.
“No. We did hang out for a while. But we didn't hook up. Plus he has a girlfriend.” I finished writing my name on our paper and handed it to the teacher as she walked by.
“Ohh.” she said, moving her desk back in the usual place. “I thought he was gay the first time I meant him. He’s very flamboyant if you ask me.” She smiled.
“What are you trying say? That all gay people are flamboyant?” I said half heartedly trying to freak her out a little. Her eyes went wide and she froze a little. “I'm kidding. Nice to know someone approves. We somehow an accepting and an un-accepting school.” She smiled again and the bell rang tell us class was over.
I went through lunch and my last two hours of the day, I was happy I only had four classes a day. I got home and had to give my mom a long explanation about why I didn't call her or wasn't home. Since she knew Rian, and we have been friends since we were little. She said it was fine and to just call her next time. If I told my mom what I did the other day, she would hang me on a cross and drowned me in holy water. Okay, maybe that an exaggeration. She’s not insanely against gays, as long as I'm not one. And she does want me to wait before marriage. She would freak if I told her I lost my virginity to a guy while drinking underage. I wouldn't live to see tomorrow.
I still felt a little sick from yesterday, so I went upstairs abandoning my homework on the desk and laid down. Yeah, no more drunk parties for me. But I kept thinking about Alex. I definitely hated him. But since we slept together, Its been a weird battle in my head. I just put it on my teenage hormones acting up.