"Jack. Do you know how irresponsible this is? A baby? Young girls get so much criticism for this, imagine, what's gonna happen to you when people find out that you, a young male is pregnant?" My mom keeps lecturing me in the living room. I kept looking at my dad for some kind of comfort but he was always passive. He just let my mom talk and talk. She eventually ran out of things to say and sighed sitting next to me. This is exactly why I didn't come home last night, I just stayed at Alex’s and talked a little bit about the baby and got to know his mom a little.
"I'm so sorry, mom." I said feeling shaky. Hell, when was I not shaky anymore.
"I know, baby." She said holding my hand. "Why did you try hiding this from me and your father? You couldn't have had the baby on your own." I shrugged.
"I knew that you were going to act like this. You hate the fact that gay people exist. Telling you that your son is pregnant... I don't know..." My face dropped and I chewed on the inside of my lip.
"Well," she started. "First, we need to make sure you're healthy. You look pretty far along at this point. Once the baby is born we can find it a stable home and-"
"What!?" I yelled cutting her off.
"Well, Hun, you possibly be thinking about keeping it. Two men are not fit to raise a child."
"You don't know that!" I yelled getting up. "Maybe I'll be a great parent. Plus, me and the babies dad haven't even talked about that yet." I tried explaining to my mom.
"Jacky, you're too young." I knew that. I wasn't stupid. But I didn't want her thinking she could control me. This was still my decision.
"Whatever." I mumbled. "I'm going upstairs." I gritted through my teeth. She didn't even stop me. Or maybe she did, but I wasn't paying any attention.
I went upstairs slamming my door shut and sitting on my bed. I was pissed. My mom wouldn't even let me have say. She was always a great mom, but, I fuck up once and all that changes. I went into my bathroom and splashed my face with some cold water. I wanted to stay as least stressed out as I could. I always heard that stress can have a negative effect on the baby. I didn't want to risk anything. I decided to just take a shower and let myself cool down. Letting the water run over my body while I was just thinking, was one of the most calming things in the world to me. I got out once I noticed that my fingers and my toes were started to turn into little raisins. I dried off and parted my hair the right way and laid on my bed.
I sat with a pillow under my lower back, trailing my fingers over my stomach. I rested my hand in certain spots feeling the baby move a little. There wasn't a tone of movement, but it was there. It made me smile at myself. No matter how tough this whole thing was, it really was a special thing to have a baby. I, and Alex, created our own little life. It is pretty amazing when you think about. I was about half asleep, dozing off when my phone rang through the room waking me back up. Checking the caller ID it was Rian.
“Hey.” I answered with a little bit of a raspy voice
“Hey, bud. My mom told me that you came over yesterday. I just got back. What’s up?” He said pretty quickly, or maybe it just sounded fast because I was pretty sleep.
“I had a really big fight with my mom and needed somewhere to go. She found about the baby and she freaked, just like I knew she would.” I said rubbing my stomach a little. It was a strange obsession to touch it, like as if it was just going to fall off me.
“Well knowing you, you didn't go home last night. Where did you stay?”
“I went to Alex’s.” I mumbled.
“Really?” I answered with an ‘mhm’. “Did you tell him that it was his?”
“Yeah. And her told his mom.”
“How did his mom take it? I'm hoping she took it a little better than you mom did.”
“Yeah. She took it pretty well. I mean, she was pretty disappointed in Alex, which is understandable. I would be pretty disappointed too. But she was okay, she said that she would help us whenever we needed it. She’d rather have a healthy grandbaby than a hurt or sick one.”
“We? So, does that mean Alex is going to help too?” I mumbled an other ‘mhm’. “Do you guys know if you are going to keep it or not?” I thought for a second.
“Not yet. We haven't talked that much. I have an appointment for an ultrasound today about 5 which is in like 20 minutes. Alex said he would drive me. Plus he wanted to come.”
“Well its good that he’s willing to step up. Doesn't he have a girlfriend? What does she think about the whole thing?” Rian asked too many questions.
“He hasn't told her yet. I don't know if he ever will. And I don't care. Just as long as Lisa doesn't come near my baby. She seemed nice, but from what I heard, shes not. And Alex doesn't even like her too much.” I heard Rian making noises on the other end. “Anyway, I should go. Alex should be here soon.”
“Okay, don't kill each other. Call me if you need anything.” I mumbled back and chuckled a little. I hung up the phone when I heard the doorbell go off.
I knew that, that would be Alex. I got my jacket and went downstairs where my mom was talking to him. He saw me and gave me a small smile. It disappeared as fast as it came. “Who’s your friend here, Jack?” my mom questioned when I go in her line of sight.
“Alex.” I mumbled and pulled his arm. My mom stopped us before we got out the door.
“Where are you going?” My mom questioned us.
“I have a ultrasound. Alex is taking me.” I explained to her trying to get out of there as fast as I could.
“So Alex is the father?” I nodded and looked at him. He looked scare, like my mom was gonna blow up and pound his face in before throwing him in front of a train. I wouldn't be surprised if that happened. I loved my mom, I really did. But ever since yesterday, we didn't exactly have a good relationship. He face softened and she looked almost sad, like she was sad because I didn't tell her. “Be safe. I don't approve of this, but you're not killing my grandbaby.” Alex nodded and smiled at here.
We walked out and Alex helped me in the care. We were going to a different doctor than the one that I have been going to. “Do you wanna know what it is?” He asked me about half way there. I shrugged.
“I don't know. I do. But I'm not sure. What about you?” He did the same as me and shrugged.
“I kind of do. But we haven't even decided on what we are going to do. Keep it or… adoption.” I nodded. He really sounded like he wanted to keep it.
“I think we should know. So if we keep it, we can plan. or, if we go for adoption, the other people can know, so we give him, or her, the right home.” He smiled.
“That sounds good to me.” He said and pulled up to the doctors office.
We walked in and it was weird. White walls, gray floors. Not very colorful for a place that had kids and babies go through where all the time. I checked myself in and the doctor took us straight back since we were just in time. We sat in the room for a little. Alex looked like he was in a weird daze. “Are you okay?” I questioned and he looked up at me and nodded. “Are you sure? You seem pretty out of it.” he nodded again.
“It’s all just becoming real. I never thought that this would happen. Let a lone with a guy.” My face dropped at that little fact. Yeah, I was a guy. “I didn't mean it like that.” I swallowed and shook my head.
“I know. I'm sorry.” I mumbled the last part. He didn't hear me though, which was good. I didn't wanna get in some argument that didn't even make sense.
“The doctor will be right in. She’s taking care of another patient.” Both Alex and I nodded at the nurse. A few minutes later the doctor came in and had me lay back and pull my shit over my belly.
“About how far along are you?” He asked and squirted a little bit of that cold blue gel stuff on my stomach. I shivered from how cold it was.
“About four and a half months I think.” I told her. She started to spread the gel around with the little camera, x-ray type thing. Hell, I had no clue what it was called. I just know that you can see the baby with it.
“Has everything been okay? No complications, or anything?” She asked staring at the screen looking for the baby. It was like putting together a puzzle up there. I mumbled a no and looked at the screen too trying make something, anything out of the jumbled mess or white and black blobs. She moved that little thing around my stomach some more before finally smiling. “Here we go.” He got a better picture on the screen. “Would you like to see your baby?” she asked and I looked at Alex. He got up and walked over to me. He pressed his hands on the bed looking at the screen with me.
Something in me jumped. Not literally but it was a weird feeling. The doctor was pointing out all the little details. From the head, to it’s arms, legs, even hands. I was in complete ‘awe’ and so was Alex when I looked at him. He was fixated on the screen. His eyes lit up with admiration for the little baby. I grabbed his hand and squeezed it. He smiled at me and looked back at the screen. He wasn't so bad. He was a jerk in school, I'm guessing just for his reputation. But outside of school, he was a nice guy.
“Would you like to know the sex of the baby?” The doctor asked. Alex and I looked at each other and had a silent conversation before I nodded and told her yes. “You are having,” The doctor stopped and hand a closer look. “A girl.” She smiled. “Congratulations guys.” My right hand clasped over my mouth. I honestly felt like I was going to cry. She wiped the gel off my stomach and let me pull my shirt back over my belly. “If you want I can send you over some print outs of the baby.” She said and I nodded. I was really awkward around people like this. She took down our addresses and number. She even gave me a pamphlet for a birthing class and just told me to ignore the breast feeding and actual birth parts. She said even though I'm a guy, it wouldn't hurt to go to one of them. I thought about it. I probably won't, but It’s nice to know that I can if I, or Alex, wants to.
“Thank you for coming with me and driving me and everything.” I told Alex when we were back at my house. We walked in and past my parents, I still wasn't in the mood to talk to them or see them. At least not till I get their support.
“No problem. It’s my baby too.” I smiled and sat on my bed, He was looking around my room till I saw his eyes landed on the guitar. “You play?” He asked picking it up. I nodded.
“Yeah. But Not a whole lot. At least not recently. The pregnancy has me all scatter brained.” He chuckled and plucked a few cords. I knew he could play. Hes been in a few bands around the school. He wasn't bad at it either. A lot better than me, that’s for sure. He sat it down back on the stand and sat next to me on the bed.
“I'm breaking up with Lisa.” He said out of the blue and sighed. I couldn't tell if it was a happy sigh or a sad sigh. They’ve been dating for two and a half years. I looked at him confused. “We just aren't working anymore and now I have this baby coming, I'm still in school, I'm looking for a job. Its a lot.”
“I'm sorry.” I mumbled feeling bad for him.
“Its fine.” he mumbled. “Have you thought about what you want to do with her? The baby, I mean.” I took a deep breath.
“I was really unsure for a while. But after seeing that picture of her for the first time… I… I think I wanna keep her. I know its going to be hard, and I'm pretty much alone in this but… I don't wanna give her up. She’s my baby.”
“Jack,” Alex said and hand me look at him. He rested one of his hands on my belly. “You’re not alone, okay? I'm so sorry I’ve been an asshole these past few years. But If you wanna keep this baby we will. We can raise her together. I'm looking for a job, I'm going to help as much as I can. I promise. and I’ll stop being all weird around you all the time” He told me. Looking in his eyes I could tell he was telling the truth.
“What about when you get a girlfriend? Won't you be worried about her know that you had a kid with another guy? and while in high school?” he shook his head.
“No.” he said simply. “Because this is my baby. I don't wanna be that asshole that just gets up and abandons it.” He stopped and hugged me. He pulled back with his hands still on me jaw and neck. “I'm not leaving. okay?” I nodded. I was really putting a lot of trust in him, but I needed someone to trust. He was the father, so I needed to trust him.
I’ve gotten a few questions on how long this is going to be. Answer, I don't know. Not very long. I only intend for this story to be pretty short. It might not even make it to chapter 16. But I'm not 100% yet. Anyway, Please let me know what you think, I love feed back, just don't be mean. Mean people make me sad.