The next afternoon when my mom went to work Rian called Cassadee over so she could give us a ride to the clinic. Both of us knew how to drive but neither Rian or I had cars to actually drive with. We didn't exactly tell her yet why we were going, I didn't really want to either. She probably thought I had some kind of STI or something. Damn, I really hope I don't have that either. I threw up about four or five times this morning. I'm not gonna have any weight left on me after this, I was already naturally just skin and bones.
We arrived at the clinic after about 45 minutes of driving. At least I was less likely to see someone that I knew over here. Cassadee stayed in the car so we wouldn't get a ticket for where we parked. Rian came in with me, since my nerves were so bad I might actually pass out or throw up again. Rian and I walked up to the girl at the counter and she smiled at us. “Hi, how may I help you young men?” I tried speaking but, my voice was quiet and wouldn't really let me.
“We need a pregnancy test… for him.” He said quietly to the girl and she nodded. She pulled out a clipboard and a few sheets of paper and handed them to us.
“Okay, well just need you to fill this out as accurate as possible, they’re just basic medical files so we know you’re not allergic to anything that we use. And the doctor will call you back as soon as she can.” We nodded to her and sat down in two of the seats against the wall.
There weren’t too many people her. There was only one other girl and what looked like her boyfriend with her. They looked about twenty, i hope they weren’t in here for the same reason that I was. She smiled at me when we made eye contact but I quickly adverted my eyes somewhere else. I was done fill out the paper and just waiting to be called back. Nerves were really starting to get to me. Rian tapped my shoulder a whispered that I was going to be fine. But what if I wasn't? what if this was the worst thing to happen me?
“Jack Barakat?” A young lady said snapping me out of my thoughts. I stood up and walked to her playing with my hands. “Would he like to come with you?” she asked nodding to Rian sitting behind me.
“Oh, he’s not my.. my boyfriend.” She smiled.
“That's okay. He can still come back. This is a scary thing, Id rather have you comfortable than scared.” I nodded and Rian stood up coming over to us. I handed her the clipboard and she took us in to a room and asked me to sit on the bed. Rian sat in the seat next to it. My heart was beating so hard and fast in my ear I almost couldn't hear the doctor as she talked to me.
“So you're here for a pregnancy test, correct?” I nodded. “Okay. I need you to change into this gown,” she said handing me one of those blue and white paper gowns that no actually liked. “You can keep your underwear on, though. Change and I will be right back.” I did what she was told and changed. Rian faced away because I felt really, really self conscious at the moment.
“Calm down Jack. You’ll be fine I promise.” I swallowed hard and the doctor came back into the room.
“Good.” She said smiling and sat something down on the counter.
“What kind of symptoms are you having that might make you believe you’re pregnant?”
“I've been really nauseous and my muscles are sore. I actually had a really strange craving for salt the other day.” I said laughing a little at the last part. Rian and the doctor also let out a little bit of a chuckle.
“Now I'm going to have you lay down and just breath normal okay?” I did what she asked getting back on the little bed table and laid on my back.
She rested her hands on my lower stomach and pressed down in a few spots around my abdomen and sides. She had my sit back up and she press my sides a little more and around my lower back. I winced a couple times while she was checking me but other than that it was fine. “How far along would you say you are if you’re pregnant?”
“About two months.” I answered back.
“How often do you engage in sexual intercourse with other men?” I was starting to feel really uncomfortable and I guess she noticed. “Its okay. We ask these to every guy who comes in, pregnant or not.” she reassured me.
“It was only that one time.” she nodded.
“Okay, So you wouldn't be far. I'm going to need to draw a little bit of blood and for you too pee in this cup.” this always made me uneasy. She let me use the bathroom and she drew blood after. I had to hold Rian’s hand because I was actually really afraid of needles. She let me change back into my clothes and had me sign a couple things.
“Um… How do you test if a guy is pregnant. It can't be the same thing as a girl, can it?” I was really curious.
“We are still very unsure about how male pregnancy works. Ever since we found the mutated genes that started to allow males to get pregnant, we have been quite unsure. But what we do know is that, much like female pregnancies, you're body starts releasing different kinds of hormones, which is what we look for in your blood and urine, and you mid sections can be more sensitive to touch.” I nodded. I guess that all actually made some sense.
“We’ll send the test in once we got all the paperwork together. Because we test it slightly different for males, its going to take about 24 hours before we get the official results in. So stay by your phone and we’ll give you a call as soon as we get the results in okay?” I nodded.
We left and got back in the car. I still didn't say anything to Cassadee except thanking her for driving us and I paid her for Cass it took for us to get over there. Rian kissed her and got out of the car with me and back into my house grabbing some soda on the way to my room.
“So, are you and Cassadee together?” I asked Rian when we got in the room.
“Yeah, kinda I guess.” I nodded and sat down. “Are you doing okay?” I sighed and shrugged.
“What if I am pregnant, Rian? What am I going to do?” he sat down too.
“Jack, things will be okay. I’ll do whatever I can't to help you. And a male getting pregnant doesn't happen all the time. You might not be.” I shook my head.
“Hey, I'm really tired. I think I'm going to take a nap. You can watch TV or whatever.” he nodded and left my room. I didn't want him to actually leave yet. His parents wouldn't care, and I kind of needed him right now. I laid down pulling my pillow under my head and holding it tightly. I instantly felt drowsy.
Rian and I were in my room the next day playing videos games. He went home yesterday but came back over earlier this morning. I wanted him over when the clinic called about my test. “Come one, Jack! It’s like you aren't even trying to beat me” I sighed just as Rian finally killed my player, yet again. He paused the game and looked over at me. “Its this because the test and stuff?” I nodded. “Do you know when they are going to call?” I shook my head. I few minutes later my phone went off. I picked it up, answering it.
“Hi, This is Dr. Abigail from the Teen Health Clinic. Is this Jack Barakat?” She questioned.
“Yeah, this is him.” I answered back.
“We got your test back from the lab and thought we’d give you a call.” she paused for a second. I moved over to my bed and sat down. Rian stood in front of me, the game still on pause. “So the test came back positive. You are pregnant, Mr. Barakat.” My jaw dropped and the phone almost slid out of my hands.
“A-are you sure?” I asked her hoping that I had just heard her wrong.
“Yes, we test everything twice to be sure. We’re 100% positive that you are with child.”I stayed quiet. “I know this is shocking. We get pregnant teenagers in and out of here all the time. There are options you have though since you are not that far.”
“like what?” I asked her and Rian sat down next to me now. My body and voice was shaky.
“You can keep the baby and raise it, there is adoption and abortion. Its a really hard thing to consider. Our clinic is partnered with Plan Parenthood and there are private sessions you can attend before you make your final decision. Males are more than welcome to show up. They meet here at the clinic every Monday and Friday”
“Okay. Thank you.” I said to her and hung up the phone.
“Well?” Rian questioned. I bit my lip holding back the fact that I just wanted to burst into tears.
“I'm pregnant.” I put my hands over my mouthing trying to stop myself from crying. Rian wrapped his arms around my shoulders and pulled me close to him rubbing my back. “I can't do this Rian.”
“Are you going to tell your parents?” I backed up.
“No. I can't. I told you. They can't even know that I like guys. They would call in a hit man and fucking kill me. and if I tell them I'm pregnant, they would kill me themselves. Rian I can't do this.”
“There are options, Jack.”
“Like abortion? I can't do that. There is no way I could go through with that.”
“Jack calm down.” He said shaking my shoulders a little. “There are plenty of things you can do. I'm gonna help you as long as you want me to okay?” I nodded. “Do you want to tell your parents?”
“No, I can't. At least not now.”
It was quiet for a little bit. I was taking everything in. One night. The first time I ever slept with someone I get pregnant. None of this is going to go over great. “You said Alex was the father right?” Rian asked me. I shook my head yes and looked at him. “Have you thought about how you’re going to tell him?” I shook my head.
“I'm not going to tell him. He doesn't need to know.” Now I was looking everywhere except for at Rian because I knew what he was going to say. And I was right.
“Its his baby, Jack. He has the right to know. He maybe be an asshole most of the time but, maybe he’ll change.” Rian tried talking some sense into. but I wasn't having that right now.
“I don't even know if I'm going to keep the baby. If I tell the doctors that there is no father, besides me, I don't need his consent.” he let out a frustrated sigh and laid back on the bed.
“You’re in for one hell of a ride, Jack.”
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