8. Lost and Insecure
I woke up and there are three naked girls in bed with me. I cant remember much, all i really feel is pain. its been only three days since Rina died. Rosy keeps texting me and calling me, she even showed up at my door step with only a damn bra on. What am I fucking laying in my bed for? I barely even knew Rina, it's not like she would of ever been my girlfriend, she wouldn't of been able to keep up with me. She would've dumped me one way or another. Who the F cares anyway, i still have to live my life... screw it i'm staying in bed...
It's only been three days since my fake death and I think i'm going to explode if I have to live my life pretending to not be me. I wonder why everything in life has to be so difficult? Why cant it just be easy love, fall in love, get married, have kids, but then again I really don't think me and Niall will ever be a real thing, just a dream waiting to to turn into destruction... all though it already has. Niall probably doesn't even miss me.
Niall still hasn't come out of his damn house, I need to get him at a vulnerable time and then we can take it all the way. Nothing is working, i text and call and i'v even showed up at his door step but he is ignoring me. It's time to bring out the big guns. I run up to his door and bang on it like it like im dieing. He opens it quickly and I say, "I THINK I JUST SAW RINA!" His eyes get wide and i point down the street and one of my best friends it standing there, and the back of her head looks just like Rina's. Niall grabs the girls shoulder in excitment, but he falls to the ground crying when he sees its not her. i run up to his side and hold him in my arms and let him cry it all out. It's time...
feeling hearts: 7