After school I walked to a lake, and I didn't get there 'till dark. I took out my phone.
Thank you for being in my life. I love you so much, and I'm sorry I mess everything up. I'm sorry I didn't tell you further on that I was feeling this way. What I'm about to do is selfish, and I know, but let me burn in hell instead of ruin your lives. I'm going to kill myself, I'm going to drown myself in this lake, and you won't have to worry about me anymore Niall. And Louis, you won't have to get hurt anymore. I'm going to leave and you'll never have to deal with me. It's okay. I love you and by the time you've come to this point I'll be at the bottom of this lake. Goodbye.
I wrote this on my phone and sent the messages to Louis and Niall. Tears streamed down my ugly face as I started to walk into the lake. I stuck my toes in the sand and stared at the reflection of the moon. "I'm sorry Louis. I'm sorry Niall, I had to drag myself into this," I whispered to myself. I inhaled the night air and the cold stung my nostrils and the cold water my feet were under was so brisk, and sent shivers up up my fat spine. I took a step, and another. Then another. Then another. I looked up to the moon, "So this is it, huh luna?" I told it. When I was little I would always talk to the moon. "We haven't chatted in a while. I'll be able to fly soon Luna, and I could come visit you. This life has been great, but they never last forever. Can you tell mother I'll be there to meet her? And tell dad too. Now it's time to leave, and turn to dust. Like I was never here. See you soon, Luna." I stepped again and the water rose to my mid shin. I walked slightly faster. Soon enough I was sobbing and the water rose to my shoulders. I fell backwards into the water, and flapped my arms so I could swim downward so my back was on the sand floor. I opened my eyes and saw Luna through the surface. It was like she encouraged me to come up. I blew a bubble and tried to catch it with my hands. I smiled to myself, because my oxygen level was getting lower. I blew more bubbles and laughed as I faded away... things blurred and my lungs were begging for air, yet it was not going to be fed to them. Soon I realised... It was dark. I couldn't see anything but I could still feel. I must've out myself into a coma... But I was still freezing. I felt air touch my face because I must have floated to the surface. I heard sobbing... I heard splashing, and I felt myself being picked up. No! I can't be alive! I don't... I don't deserve it. I was tired... So tired, and I knew I was fading away completely. Until I opened my eyes and saw the stars. I smiled. Was I dead? I took a breath, I was alive...? Louis picked me up and held me to his chest sobbing. It's like sobbing that I've never heard before. He was gasping for air and practically screaming. I hugged him back and saw Niall was doing the same sob right behind Louis. I suddenly realised... That they might be the only ones that care... But they care so much. If I had died, they probably would have too. I heard more crying and realised it was me. I snapped out of it. Why had I thought I was a problem? I was keeping Niall alive, and I was holding Louis's happiness in my hands. I was loved, unconditionally, by these two boys.
Oh god, I'm crying right now! Are you? This actually scared me as a writer. I know this currently didn't have many views, but I feel like this is like... A huge storyline, like kept a long time. But I hoped you like it and the next chapter, I promise, will be a lot more cherry. Have you noticed I've been saying my in these last chapters? I read them over to try to make it like that because I have a habit of doing me's instead if my's, and that's because I'm Scottish, but whatever! I tried to make it sound more American since most users are, and thanks for reading! Bye precious's! (Ice decided to call you guys that now) Bye!