The words rang in my earlobes. No one knew about it, I mean it hadn't been long anyway. About 6months. But I felt it so strongly. I remember how it happened.
6 MONTHS AGO
The snow fell lightly against the window panes. Mia walked out of the shower with a towel on her head and around her body. She sat down and started rubbing cream on her legs. I sat strumming at the guitar humming a gentle tune. She looked up at me and smiled.
"What?" I asked, resting the guitar on my legs.
"You sit there humming your tunes and stuff but you never sing." She revealed a frown on her face.
"And?" I laughed.
"I've heard you sing, your amazing Jay." She smiled. "Please?"
"You never do you flexy shit for me." I slocked.
"Yeah thats dance and cheerleading." She stopped and looked up at me. "I'll dance you sing." She suddenly disappeared and she came back in with her hair in two french plaites and with a dressing gown on. "Ready!" She beamed. I strummed against the guitar.
"I dunno what to do?" She frowned. "Alright!" I started to sing and strum as Mia danced. She was amazing, flinging one way and another and suddenly it was the end. We stood there staring at each other and panting. "You're amazing Mi."
"You're voice is like heaven." I burst out laughing, she ran over and hit my arm. Then she fell on top of me and we were rolling around laughing. While catching our breathe she sat up and looked at me. "Justin?"
"Yeah." I said. She planted her arms on to my stomach and stared at me like my abs were her personal stoll. She was beautiful even with no make up on, I only rarely saw her without make up on. Even though we know eachother for all our life she still doesn't like me seeing her with no make up on.
"Sometimes I think, when people say to us 'are you two together' and were like 'no no no, were just best friends.'."
"Yeah." I laughed. She always stopped at random points just to make sure I was still listening.
"Look the other day Angie was like to me, have you two ever like got off and that so I was like no." I gulped down a little. "Then I thought...like this might be weird but, should we? I mean, then it stops all like temptation." She was going redder and redder.
"Okay." I sat up.
"Really?" She gasped.
"Yeah, but aint it gonna be awkward is it?"
"No, well I mean if you don't want to then you know we-"
"Mia." I raised my hand onto her cheek. She looked down at my hand. "Just calm down." I leant in.
"Wait Jay." She looked down. "This won't change anything will it?"
"No." Then it happened. Her plumb lips hit mine, first slowly, then with the tounges. Our tounges were battling and she was amazing, slowing down and fastening it up. I grabbed her leg, she was pulling me closer.
"Justin." I was kissing her neck. "Justin." She panted. "Justin, Justin, JUSTIN STOP." She flung me back.
"What?" I gasped leaning back. She wiped her face.
"I knew this was gonna go to far." Tears were falling from her eyes. Her cheejs were flushed red and she was rubbing her lips.
"Mia?" I crawled over and held her in my arms. She was crying on my shoulder. "What's the matter?"
"We both were getting turned on and I couldn't do it. I can't have you as like I dunno, oh my Justin I-"
"Stop over reacting." She looked up at me.
"You're right I'm being a drama queen." She breathed in, she stood up and wiped her eyes. "Well thats the end of that feeling eh."
"Yeah." I mumbled. She leant over and kissed my cheek. I smiled, a feeling was in me and I didn't understand me.
"Don't be sad Justin." She giggled.
"I'm not." I smiled.
"Movie? We can cuddle?" She laughed as she grabbed some pyjamas from her drawas.
"We always cuddle."
"Alright stroppy pants." She turned back at me. "We won't cuddle then." I picked her up and swung her around. She stared into my eyes. "I love you Justin, your my best friend."
"Yeah best friend...I love you to."
6 MONTHS FORWARD
"I never knew I would love her Mum. It's not my fault." I groaned.
"I know Justin, why you getting so irratated?" Mum asked.
"Because its stupid Mum!" I shouted. "I love her so fucking much but it will never happen!"
"Tell her then?"
"It's more difficult than that mum. Just go innit."
"Justin come on?"
"Mum, get. Out."