9. To be... or not to be human....
Gabriel appeared when I least expected it. Niall was out shopping and I sat on the couch and just enjoyed.
"You broke the law?" he mumbled. I blushed and stood up.
"I followed my heart and since when is it forbidden to love?"
He wasn't happy, but he understood me. He saw at me that I wanted to be there and he saw that I would refuse to leave Niall.
"You have a choice." he said and walked over to me. He looked into my eyes and I realized that I would listen to him. "You can be fatal, but it will mean a lot. You will feel pain, you can't move fast forward and you can't protect him."
I was flabbergasted.
"Can I be human?"
Gabriel nodded and smiled weakly.
"I thought that Martin had told you?"
"No, he illustrated just how I would do to be seen."
Gabriel gulped and looked down at the floor. I saw that he was excited to tell the truth and he was against breaking the law.
"You can be like those we protect, but I know that it means more than you know now. You wont be able to hear what others think and you can't reassure those who need an angel. You wont be able to save Niall or any another. Are you willing to sacrifice that part?"
I nodded immediately.
"Tell me how I'm going to do to be like a human."
Gabriel looked at me for a long time and then smiled.
"You have to drown."
Direct I frowned on his forehead and I didn't understand what he meant.
"Shall I die?"
"To be born as a human being you must be borne by water. A baby's born from the woman through the water and you have to be born the same way. It will hurt and you will be changed."
I wasn't sure.
"Wont I die if I drown?"
He looked at me for a long time.
"No. You will stop to breathe, but after a few minutes, wake up your body back to life and you are reborn., You will be able to take yourself from the water and onto land."
I swallowed and was still unsure. I knew it was a big step to take, even for me.
"And that means?"
"That we two wont talk to each other until the day you die and your body gives up."
Niall came home and he was in great spirits. I saw Gabriel go away and I didn't feel sure anymore. I had seen people drown and I had seen how their bodies were filled with water. It looked nasty and I realized that it certainly felt in the body.
"How are you?"
Niall saw that I was worried. I shook my head and got up smiling.
"No, I saw a movie and turned off the television. It was nasty!"
Niall laughed and came up to me. I felt his arms around me and he hugged me tight.
"I love you!"
I swallowed and smiled back.
"I love you so much it hurts."
I knew my way out. Either I had to leave Niall to return to my old job, or I would drown. I pondered over my choices, and actually, I was unsure if I dared to die for Nialls sake. I did, after all, wanted to protect him and I wanted to be there for him. Maybe one day I had to make the choice? But so far, I didn't choose.
"We will go to sea a few weeks!" said Niall day. "Harry's mother has a cottage there and we will stay there a few days. Would you?"
The sea? Was this a sign? Would I now be reborn?
"You mean I'm going with you?"
Niall laughed and nodded.
"You're with me and you're going with me to that place, otherwise I stay at home. The boys in One Direction try to go there once a year to talk, hang out, and not just doing music."
I realized that I couldn't say no.
"Okay I'll go with you."
I had never had me a bikini or swimsuit on my body. Niall bought it to me and I felt like a goofy idiot when I took them on me. He just smiled and looked down at my body.
"You have nothing to be ashamed of honey."
I looked down at my legs and swallowed. It felt so naked and I didn't understand that others would see me in that.
"But I'm naked?"
He shook his head and came up to me.
"Have you no such clothes in Jerusalem?" he got tantalizingly out of himself. "That should girls from there have."
"Well maybe, but I belong to those who don't like to show off my body."
Niall took his arms around my waist and pulled me towards him. I smiled and took my arms around his shoulders. He kissed me and I just loved his kisses. His tongue was so soft and his lips so smooth. I loved him so much and that I could learn to accept my own body one day.
I felt Niall unbuttoned the top of the bikini and it slid down to the floor. I moaned lightly and let him seduce me. He backed me into the bedroom, but when we reached the bed rang his mobile phone. Niall ended the kiss and looked down on it.
"I have to ...." he mumbled and took the handset to his ear. "Yes, hello?"