2 days later
I take a quick glance over at Castiella her hands are wrapped around her knees. Her head in her chest with her knees up to her chest too.
You could clearly tell she was crying. Why did I have to make things worse? It obvious that I made everything worse. She didn't need this. It's my fault now. I have got to sort this all out.
I walk over to Liam's nurse Cassie and say "Uhm do you think I could go see him?"
She sighs and says "Sir I know you want to see him but I don't think you'd want to see him like he is now. All hooked up to every possible wire we have. Just to keep him alive."
I shake my head and say "Please you don't understand I have to tell him something really important before it's too late."
She nodded and said "come on then." I follow her to Liam's room. She opened it slowly and I walked in. Then I muttered a thank you.
She closed the door behind her. I walked over to the chair next to his bed. She was right he was hooked up to every machine possible. You could barely recognize him. His skin was as white as s ghost, hair all shaved off due to all the scans he needed on his brain. But it was covered with bandages. I could only tell from the little bare patches that weren't covered. A few tears threatened to escape my eyes. I fought them off. I patted his shoulder lightly and said "Dude... Before I say this to you please don't hate me... I can't help my feelings. Just please whatever you do don't blame it on Castiella she didn't do anything... Well I can't keep it from you forever. So about a little over a week ago I was in my room with Castiella watching tv and she was cold so I wrapped my arm around her and then before I could even process what I was doing I kissed her. I'm so sorry Liam."
The last part I said chocked out. Oh what did I do. I always fuck everything up.
I walked back out to the waiting room and walked over to Castiella. She looked up with disgust and said "What do you want from me?"
I shook my head and said "Can we talk?" "what for." She said
"To try and clear everything up." I stated
She nodded and I followed her to the elevator to go outside. When we go outside she walked over to a little bench and sat on it. I sat next to her and we looked at each other for a minute.
Then I finally spoke "Look... I know what I did was wrong. I know that your with Liam and that you love him. I get it. I guess I just feel like I'm alone I mean everyone else has girlfriends and I don't. I'm lonely and no one will ever like me."
She took a minute to reply. I looked down at my feet. She placed her hand on my shoulder.
"Look Harry what you did was wrong yes. I'm not saying I'm forging you but I can't ruin something between you and the boys because I know how much you mean to each other. But you will have to earn your trust back. And don't ever say that about yourself ever again! You will find the perfect girl it just may take some time. You can't rush love."
I finished my statement and he nodded at me. I embraced him in a hug then he hugged back. "Thank you." He said
I nodded and we got up walking back inside. Once we got inside we went up the elevator. We reached Liam's floor and the guys were piled in front of us. I was so confused so I said "Oh my god is he okay?"
They nodded and then Niall responded "Cas... He's awake."
I froze in place trying to make sure what Niall just said was true. I blinked a couple times to reassure myself. Then said "Are you lying?" He shake his head and I bent down to my knees and to cry happy tears.