One month later...
I knew something was happening when all I could see was white all around me. Nothing or no one to talk to or do anything with. I was in this by myself. Every time I tried to call out someone's name nothing happened. Just echoes.
I kept walking towards this white flashing light thinking it would be my way out. When I reached the white tunnel I stared blankly at it debating on whether to go through or what would happen to me if I did.
I was sitting in my usual spot in Liam's room. Next to him in a chair.
I grasped his hand and said to him "Liam its all up to you whether you want to win this fight or not...even if you can here me all I want you to know is that if you do think about leaving just keep in mind what we will all be going through if you leave us. You control what happens."
I let go of his hand just then his heart monitor started to beep like crazy then just a song lone of beeping.
His nurse Cassie rushed in with his doctor and told me I needed to leave.
I cried to them "What is going on? Will he be okay? Is he alright?"
They didn't answer any of my questions. Cassie took me to the door and said "Sorry" before she closed the door on me.
I rushed over to Chrystal. Before I even reached her she rushed up to me and embraced me in a hug. I sobbed violently in her arms.
Once I gained enough strength to stop crying I did. Then I looked over at his door and through the little window I saw the nurses and doctors hovered around him. I faintly heard the doctor say "QUCIK WHERE LOSING HIM."
At that I thought it would all be over. I couldn't take this anymore I started to think it was what I told him. That he chose to not live anymore. If he did I wont be able to continue with my life.
The nurse brought out the AED machine (in case no one knows what that is its the machine you use when you say clear) she attached all the pieces she needed to and then handed the doctor the compressors. He said "clear" and Liam's lifeless body jolted.
I looked away I couldn't stand to see him like this. I say down in the chair next to Niall. Across me was Harry. Let's just say we aren't on speaking terms or even looking at each other terms. The big thing is it's very awkward between us because only me him and Chrystal know. Yet he doesn't even know I told her. I think he figured out something when row days ago she could barely hold it back to try and punch him in the face.
I walked over to the open seat next to Zayn and he grabbed my hand in a friendly yet reassuring way.
Just across from me was Harry. It was awkward because me him and Chrystal only know what happened.
I couldn't even look at his face without getting upset at what he did.
I closed my eyes and tilted my head back up against the wall.
Just as Castiella had drifted to a light sleep the doctor walked out of his room with a disapproving look.
I walked over to him and asked "How is he?"
He took a minute to come up with his words "Well he is critically stable and he is still on the life support."
Just as he finished his sentence Castiella jumped up and walked over to us. She said to him "Is he okay?"
The he said "Like I said to uhm.."
"Zayn" I said
"Uh Zayn he's in critical condition and is still on life support. Now if he isn showing signs of getting better we have to pull the plug at the end of the week."
She nodded to him.
After he walked away she lunged into my arms and started violently sobbing.
This is really taking a toll on her. We all hate to see her like this. She just isn't the same. It's the worst on her because she is probably the closest to him. From what she tells us she really does love him. We just hope he doesn't go down hill again.
Zayn walked back over to the waiting area with Castiella trudging behind him.
They both sat down next to me. I turned to Zayn and whispered "What did the doctor say?"
He shook his head and sighed then said "Well he is still on the life support and he's in critical condition."
I shook my head and looked over at Castiella. Her head in her knees and I see her body jolt slightly every couple of minutes from hiccuping after crying for so long.
I don't know want to see her like this anymore.