The morning sun coming up over the horizon wakes me early the next morning. I quietly get up being careful not to disturb anyone and decide to go for a walk to stretch my legs. As I make my way down the beach dragging my bare feet through the water, I glance up and notice Harry making his way over to me. "Good morning love," he says.
I put on my most authentic british accent, "Ello love". He looks a little scared for a second.
"Mind if I walk with you?" he continues.
I smile and say "Bloody hell mate, not at all!"
"You sound like a bad 'Mary Poppins' impersonator?!", he says. I giggle.
"Sorry, what are you doing up so early?" I ask, in my normal voice.
"I didn't sleep that well. You feeling better? I was a little worried about you for a second there," he asks.
"Yup, much better this morning. I think it was the beer..." I say.
"So, I didn't get a chance to thank you yesterday," he continues.
"For what?" I ask.
"For believing me when I said I had nothing to do with Lauie being upset. I don't think anyone else did," he says.
"Your welcome. Don't let Mia rattle you. As you probably already know, she's all mouth. Besides, I could tell you were telling me the truth," I say.
He laughs, "How's that?" he asks.
"I don't know, I just could," I say, shrugging my shoulders.
"Did you know that I have an older sister, back home I mean? Her name is Gemma,"
"Yeah, I think I read that somewhere, back in the day, when I didn't really know you,"
"I miss talking to her, sometimes,"
"You can talk to me whenever you want Harry,"
"I might take you up on that sometime. Should we head back?" he asks.
"Yup sure. The Dr. is coming this morning to remove these stitches and then I'm hitting the pool!", I say smiling, as I turn to head back. I feel a little light headed as my knees buckle, Harry's at my side in an instant with his hand under my elbow.
"Whoops! I got you. Niall would be angry with me if I let something happen to you", he chuckles. I get my feet back underneath me and walk back. By the time we reach the others, they are mostly all awake except for Zayn and Niall. I lay down next to Niall and kiss his lips until he wakes.
Sporting my very best 'Mary Poppins' voice I say "Good Morning Love!". He chuckles, as he rolls over on top of me and kisses me. "Let's get back. I can't wait to get these stitches out", I say as we all pack up and head back to the house.
I run to grab the door when I hear the bell. "Hi there, I'm Dr. Hodges.", he says.
"Hi come in. Thanks for coming all this way" I say, leading him into the kitchen.
"Well Mr. Cowell is one of my more important patients," he says.
"Ok, have a seat, Miss?", he asks.
"Miss Mia?" he says, smiling.
"No, just 'Mia'," I say, laughing, as Zayn, Niall & Liv walk in.
"Quite a gash you had here. Healed up nicely though. May I ask what happened?"
"You may ask, but I may not answer," I say, glancing at Zayn. He rolls his eyes.
"Ok, well you're all done. Here's a tube of Mederma ointment. Apply three times a day to help minimize the scar...", he says.
"Thanks," I say, as I hop down off the stool.
"Who's next?" he asks, and I watch Liv take her place on the stool. He unwraps the bandage on her arm. He examines if carefully. "Ready?" Liv shakes her head and looks away. "Are you going to be as cryptic as Mia over there, Miss?" he says, smiling.
"Liv. Someone stabbed me..." she says, and I can hear her voice break under the words, blinking back tears. I go stand next to her, grab her hand and give it a squeeze.
"He's locked up now, back in Canada," I finish for her.
"I'm sorry to hear that. There you go Liv, all done. Your arm looks good, here's a tube of ointment for you as well. Three times a day to help with the scar," he explains again.
"Can we swim and shower now?" I ask.
"Yup, you can do whatever you feel comfortable doing..."
"Um, I have a question doc...", Niall says.
"Shoot," he says.
"Liv had 'Strep' about a week ago and was put on an antibiotic. She's feeling better, but last night she passed out after a mouthful of beer. Then she was sick. Is that normal?" Niall asks.
"Probably. You're not supposed to drink if you're on an antibiotic," Dr. Hodges admonishes, looking at Liv. Her face flushes. "The doctor who gave you the prescription should have given you a paper with all the do's and don'ts, along with a list of possible side effects." I see confusion on Liv's face as she shakes her head.
"Oh, Yeah! He gave it to me cause' you were so out of it, Liv. I put it in your bag...", I say.
"Ok, well, I'm done here." he says as we walk him to the door. "I'd go over that sheet. There's an important section about birth control on there. Good bye," he says, leaving.
"Good bye", I say, closing the door behind him. I turn back to Liv, all the colour has drained from her face.
"Mia, where's that sheet?" she whispers.
"Right here," I say as I fish it out of her bag.
"Liv, what's wrong?", Niall asks. We watch as she unfolds the paper slowly, shakily, and starts to read.
"Oh my god..." she whispers, tears flooding her face. She drops the sheet and runs upstairs. Niall, Zayn and I all look at each other.
I pick up the paper and start to read, "Can alter the effectivness of birth control...Use alternate contraception. Oh shit..." I read, as I look at Niall and Zayn.
I run up the stairs after Liv and find her in the bedroom crying, pacing back and forth. "I'm s-so s-sorry", she says, looking at me. I walk over and put my arms around her waist and pull her close.
"Love we don't know anything for sure yet. Let's not jump to conclusions" I say. I can feel her entire body shaking. Mia and Zayn walk in and close the door.
"Get out!", Liv shouts at Mia.
"Liv, I'm sorry. I didn't realize how important it was. You were in no shape for me to give it to you that night and then I just forgot about it", Mia explains. I can see she's very upset.
"You FORGOT about it?! Do you have ANY idea what you've done?! You are the most irresponsible person...Get out!" Liv shouts again.
"Liv, please. I-I'm sorry..." Mia whispers.
"I wish you weren't my sister. Get out!" Liv shouts.
Zayn put his arms around her, "Mia, let's just go. She just needs some time love," he says, as he leads her out the door.
"Liv, that was a little harsh wasn't it?" I say, after they're gone. She just shakes her head and cries. "Liv, it's really not that bad. We were talking about starting a family someday. So what, if it happens a little sooner rather than later. It doesn't change how I feel about you, how we feel about each other. If anything, it makes me love you more", I say, trying to comfort her.
"What am I going to do?", she says, talking more to herself than to me. I hold her face between my hands and look deep into her beautiful eyes.
"YOU are not going to do anything. You're not in this alone. WE will work it out, together", I say, trying to emphasize certain words. "Let's just take a deep breath. We don't know anything for sure. We'll wait until after my family leaves, then you and I will go to the doctor, together. Okay?"
"Okay," she whispers.
As we lay down on the bed I pull her into my chest and wrap my arms tightly around her. "I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared, but the thought of a little blond haired, blue eyed mini Niall or mini Liv, kind of excites me too," I whisper.
"You're crazy. There are so many things I wanted to do before having kids of my own. Finish my teaching degree..." she whispers through her tears.
"You could finish it here. I don't want you going back to Nova Scotia anyway. Liv?"
"Yeah?", she whispers, sniffing.
"I know you're upset love, but the thing you said to Mia about wishing she wasn't your sister...That was brutal. She made a mistake but she's not the one to blame in all this. We are. You and I. I could have used a condom and I didn't. Yes, she should of showed us the sheet, but this is on us, not her. She's the only sister you have and she loves you more than life itself,"
"I know...I-I just can't..." she says, as she starts sobbing again. I hold her, for a long time, until the tears stop and there's nothing left. She's finally fallen asleep. I make my way down to the kitchen. I feel emotionally drained and physically exhausted. Zayn and Mia are in the kitchen, drinking tea. I can tell by the look on Mia's face, she's been crying too.
As I guide Mia out of Liv's room, she's absolutely heartbroken. "Mia love, you have to calm down,"
"She hates me Zayn!"
"Mia, this is a bit of a shock. Just give her some time. She doesn't hate you, she's just scared. Put yourself in her shoes," I say. I lead her to the bedroom where we both lie down on the bed. She cries and all I can do is pull her close. I have no words to offer her that will make it all better, so I lay there, holding her, until she eventually cries herself to sleep.
A couple of hours later, I feel her stir in my arms. "You awake?"
"Yes" she whispers.
"Tea?", I offer. She sniffs and shakes her head yes.
I lead her out to the kitchen, we can hear the others outside playing in the pool. I watch her as she shakily sits in a kitchen chair. I turn on the kettle and drop some tea bags in a couple of mugs. We wait in silence for the water to boil. I put the mug down in front of her and sit in the seat next to her. I run my hand up and down her back. She lays her head on my shoulder. "Zayn, what if she never forgives me?" she whispers.
"Mia, she loves you. You're her sister. Of course she'll forgive you. Just give her some time." I say. Niall comes in and sits down. I get up and make him a tea, he looks drained.
"How is she?" Mia asks, her voice shaky.
"She's sleeping right now. Mia, she didn't mean any of those things she said, she's just upset," Niall says reassuringly.
"No, she's right. I'm irresponsible and a horrible sister. This is all my fault. I'm so sorry Niall," she sobs.
"It was an accident Mia and it wasn't your fault. If we want to point the finger of blame, it's ours. We could have used a condom, but we decided because we were both virgins, we didn't need to...", Niall says. I put my hand over hers and give it a squeeze.
"Mia, please stop crying. Everything will be alright love,"
"He's right Mia. I'm not upset. A little scared, but nothing's even been confirmed yet. If it turns out that we are going to have a baby, then we'll get through it. Together. I love her and I can't think of anyone else I'd rather have carrying my child,"
Just then Louis, Liam, El and Harry walk into the kitchen still dripping from the pool. I glance at Niall and Mia. This could have easily happened to Mia and I, it's not like I had been diligent in using condoms either. Oddly enough, the thought of that doesn't scare me as much as I thought it would. I understand where Niall is coming from. I love Mia and the thought of her carrying my child excites me. I give my head a shake to pull myself out of my thoughts. Mia's crying again. I get up, sit behind her in her chair and pull her close.
I walk into the kitchen with Louis, El and Liam after a refreshing afternoon in the pool. Mia, Zayn & Niall are sitting at the kitchen table. We can tell something's wrong right away. "Where's Liv?", I ask.
"Upstairs," Zayn answers.
"Didn't she get her stitches out? I thought she wanted to go swimming afterwards."
"Uh, something came up", Zayn answers, again.
"Did everything go ok with her arm?" El asks, sitting down on Louis's lap as we all look to Mia for an answer. She shakes her head but no words come out. We all watch as she buries her face in her hands and breaks down. Zayn gets up, swings his leg over the back of her chair settling behind her, and pulls her close.
"Mia..." he whispers holding her in his arms.
"Okay, you guys are scaring the shit out of us. What the hell's going on?" Liam snaps impatiently. We listen in shock as Niall explains the whole story.
"Look you guys, I love her no matter what. I want to be with her...always, whether we have a baby now or not... I was actually thinking about asking her to marry me, I just wanted mum to meet her first. Now, she's going to think that I'm just asking her because of this...", he says, running his hands through his hair. Zayn and Mia exchange a quick glance. El puts her hand on Niall's. "It's killing me that she thinks she's alone in all this. I want to love her forever, and the baby, if there is one...", he says, fighting back tears.
"This is some pretty heavy shit", I say.
"So, nothing's been confirmed yet, right?" El asks.
"No," Zayn says.
"So, she may not even be pregnant, right?" El asks again.
"Right," Niall says.
"She's really scared, and she blames me," Mia whispers, through her tears.
"My mum is coming tomorrow. She's expecting to meet her. Liv needs to be able to get through the visit..." Niall says.
"Ok, right. So, how can we show her she's not alone in all of this, that she's with family and that we'll all help and support the both you, however, we can." Louis asks.
"I honestly, have no idea" Niall says.
"I do..." I say.