Hello lovely readers!
Im sorry I wasnt able to update for a long time, but Im gonna make it up to you and update twice today! I was on a vacation on the other side of the country without wi-fi so... Yea.
Thank you, and I hope you'll like this two chapters.
I was sitting on my bed, eating ice cream and reading the script. Its 5 p.m. and this is what I've been doing the whole day. And I actually dont care. Its Sunday and I can do whatever the hell I want. Friday was absolutely horrible. Will was comforting me, but I just needed some time alone. The boys also called me, and they were really sweet and helpful. But, like I said, I just needed to be alone. I didnt even cry today, but thats only because I think I have no tears left. Its like I've become numb, like I dont have any emotions or feelings towards anything anymore.
I layed down on my soft, warm bed and turned my head on the right to look through the window. A whole crowd is in front of my house gates. Even more than yesterday. They are waiting for me like sharks who will rip me in pieces if I step a foot outside. Its fucking annoying and this is the last thing I need right now. I looked to the ceiling and just stared at the plain white wall. After a few minutes, I stood up and took the ice cream. I walked through the house in my pj until I came to the kitchen. I returned the ice cream in the freezer and took the chocolate froom the fridge instead. I havent ate anything healthy today. I barely ate at all. I finished the chocolate in no time and sat on my couch. I turned on the tv and layed down. I was just staring, not really realizing what is happening in the movie. I let out a sigh and just closed my eyes. I cant sleep right now, but its worth a try.
I quickly sat up when I realized someone entered the house. Is it him? Did he came to apologize? Oh my God, I look like a truck ran over me! I tried to comb my hair by running my fingers through it, and I tried to fix my pj.
I was clearly disappointed when I saw Will entering the living room. I relaxed and layed on the couch again.
„Lottie…“, he whispered and came over to me.
„Hi.“, I said with no emotion.
„You gotta get up.“, he said with a pleading voice.
„But, I just got up… I came from my room…“, I looked down.
„Oh, come on! You are really gonna stay here and cry the whole time?!“ he yelled.
„I didnt cry today!“ I yelled back.
„So, what the hell are you doing here?! Go out, on a fresh air, enjoy! Fuck that bastard! Who needs him?!“ he sat beside me.
„I need him Will! Okay?!“ I yelled once again.
He sighed. His jaw was clenched and he was probably wondering what would be the best thing to say next without pissing me off.
„You need to show him that you dont care…“, he continued in much quieter tone, „there are plenty of other guys out there…“
„Oh, cut with the crap.“, I interrupted him.
„I meant to say that, there are a lot of other guys who are thrustworthy, caring, honest, sweet…“, he was trying to make me feel better, which obviously didnt work.
„Are they hot too?“ I asked, with a hint of smile.
I was joking, of course. I wanted to show him that Im not feeling that bad as he thinks. I wanted to show him that Im okay... Altough I werent okay at all.
„Yes. They are.“, he said with a chuckle.
„I guess I could go out then…“, I said unsure, and chuckled. Then I sighed.
„Yes! Come on!“ he stood up and clapped his hands.
I sat up and looked at him. Now its time to be honest and just tell him what I think. I sighed again and looked to the floor. „Look Will, I dont wanna go out now. I just need a few days to…“
„What? To lay on the bed and get fat with chocolates and ice cream?“ he folded his arms and furrowed his eyebrows.
Its funny how much he knows me.
„Whats wrong with…“, I started and then interrupted myself, „Are you trying to say that Im fat?!“
He chuckled again and shook his head.
„Come on… We will go to your favorite club…“, he said with a huge smile.
„Can we go tomorrow?“ I asked with a puppy dog face.
„No! Today, Lottie.“
„Fine, but you will leave me alone tomorrow!“ I said, serious.
„Deal.“, he smiled.
We shook hands and then I smiled back at him.
„But…“, he started, „we must go on a dinner first.“
„Fine with me.“, I stood up. Maybe he is right. I need some fresh air.
„Go and get ready then!“ he yelled at me with a smile.
Right when I was about to leave the living room, Will called my name.
„Yea?“ I turned around to face him.
„And please, shower. You smell.“, he made a „you are disgusting“ face.
„Oh, shut up.“, I said and then went to my room.
He was right tough, I do smell a little. I showered and then went to my closet. I put on my black, lace dress, red heels and my favorite red clutch. I put my eyeliner and mascara, and just a little bit of my shiny lip gloss. My hair was straight and I was too lazy to do anything with it, so I just left it that way. I grabbed my leather jacket and exited my room.
When I went downstairs, I realized Will changed his clothes too, and he even did his hair. The quiff was messy and sexy, like always.
„Damn!“ he said and then whistled.
I laughed at him. „You really know how to cheer me up.“
After a long 10 minutes of getting in the car and moving away from all the paps, we finally drove off. We came in our usual restaurant. We even have our usual table there, so you could say that we often come by on a dinner. Its not some romantic, luxurious restaurant, and thats why I like it. The atmosphere is very casual. And whats an even bigger plus, they have italian food. After the dinner, I could barely move, but I somehow got in the car again. I ate so much, and my apetite really surprised me! Nonetheless, I think that slice of chocolate cake on the end was a mistake. I dont know if I will be able to dance now.
„In which club are we going?“ I asked, holding my tummy.
„Your favorite. I already told you.“, he responded with a smile.
I smiled knowing exactly on which one is he thinking.
„Thank you for this, Will.“, I said, looking at him.
„I'd do anything to cheer you up love. I hate seeing you sad.“
I looked through the window and started thinking about Olly again. I miss him so damn much… My smile faded right away. I wonder what is he doing right now. Is he with that slut? I felt jealousy in the pit of my stomach. Or maybe that was just pasta from dinner.
When we came, I was out of the car in a second. I took a big breath. The smell wasnt very nice, but the club looked amazing. A big crowd was in front of the club. Many paps, screaming girls and people who were waiting to go in the club. I was confused, because nobody knew I will be here tonight, so I guessed some other famous people were in there. Thats not surprising tough. This is one of the best clubs in London. The line was huge, but fortunately, I dont have to wait. I walked over to the big, bald bouncer and put a smile on my face. Will was right behind me. Cameras flashed around us, like they always do.
„Good evening, miss.“, the bouncer smiled a bit.
„Hello James.“, I smiled back.
„Have fun.“, he nodded and let me in.
„Thank you.“, I said.
We came in and immediately put my hands in the air when I heard a great song blasting through the speakers. I danced my way to the bar and sat on a stool. Im planning to have great time tonight and forget about Olly.
If he can have fun, so can I.
„First round is on me, what do you want?“ Will asked while trying to sit on a stool next to me.
„Jack Daniels. Clear.“, I shouted to the bartender so he could hear me.
„Wow. You wanna start with that?!“ Will chuckled and then ordered the same.
„Look who's talking!“ I smirked.
I drank my shot right away, and then ordered another one.
„No, really. You maybe wanna slow down. We just came.“, Will said to me.
„Im getting drunk tonight!“ I shouted, chuckling.
„This was a really bad idea!“ he said while laughing.
I drank this shot even faster and then looked at Will, still with his first one.
„Come on sissy!“ I laughed at him.
He didnt heard me, he was looking at someone on the dance floor. I looked in the same way he was, and noticed a brunette with a very short dress, dancing with her arms in the air, enjoying the music.
„Go and get her!“ I said while nudging him. I laughed when I saw he is still staring.
„You wouldnt mind?!“ he asked me, seriousness written all over his face.
„Not at all!“ I shouted back with a smile.
„No! Tonight its all about you! Im not gonna leave you alone.“, he turned his attention to me and smiled. He drank his shot and then kept looking at me.
„Come on! I know you wanna catch that girl! I dont want you to sit here with me all night!“, I was still smiling, and I really meant what I said.
He looked at the brunette and then at me. I pushed him off his stool and he almost fell. I heard him laugh and then he turned over to me.
„I'll be back after this song!“ he promised and went over to the brunette. I chuckled and then looked at the bartender. I ordered one Woo Woo and just sat there, feeling a bit lonely.
When another song began to play, Will quickly came over to me. We talked for a bit, but he was constantly glancing towards the dance floor. I had to push him off his stool again and convince him that I'll be fine alone, so he could go over to the mysterious brunette. He felt bad about ditching me, but I really was fine. It was nice to see at least someone is having a great time. After another Woo Woo and maybe 3 songs later, someone tapped me on the shoulder. I quickly turned around. My jaw slightly dropped, but a smile appeared on my face right away.
„Louis!“ I shouted with a smile.
„Hi! How are you?“ he shouted back with his usual huge smile. He obviously was asking me that because of Olly.
„Good! You?“ I asked back.
„Brilliant! Im here with my girlfriend!“ he said and then I noticed he is holding hands with a beautiful brunette. „Char, this is Eleanor. Eleanor, this is Char.“
Eleanor smiled and we shook hands.
„Nice to meet you!“ I said.
„Nice to meet you too! Im a big fan!“ she said.
„Really?“ I laughed.
„Yea, I love your movies!“ she said with the same smile.
„She's a keeper!“ I shouted to Louis and we all laughed.
We talked for awhile, and then Harry and Niall came from the dance floor. They were shocked to see me, but at the same time happy. Eveybody were, of course, asking me how am I holding and am I okay, which annoyed me a little. It just reminded me more of what had happend.
Anyway, we all sat at the booth. We talked, we laughed and like always, we had a great time. Im glad that I met Louis' girlfriend. She is absolutely stunning! And, she really is a female version of Louis. They are adorable together and you can see that they are really in love. I just wish I could find something like that… Will came again to see if Im okay, but he was quick to leave on the dance floor again.
I dont know how much alcohol and cocktails did I drank, but I was really dizzy. I think that, after those Woo Woo's, I switched on Vodka. Everything was spinning, but I was having a blast. One of my favorite songs from Calvin Harris just started and I was already on my feet, ready to dance.
„Oh my God! I love this song! Who wants to dance with me?!“ I shouted and looked at everyone. They all chuckled.
„Fine! I'll dance alone!“ I shouted again and started to walk to the dance floor.
„I'll go with you!“ I heard a shout behind me and turned around to see Niall.
„Good! Lets go!“ I turned around again and lost my balance. Luckily, Niall was behind me so he catched me and helped me walk.
„Thank you, kind man!“ I said to him and he chuckled.
He was clearly drunk, but so was I, so I couldnt care less. We were dancing in the middle of a big crowd. Everyone were enjoying and I was laughing like mad. My hands were in the air and I just followed the beat. I think that, in one point, I even started singing. Luckily for me, nobody could hear that.
I was dancing, jumping, falling and who knows what else. As you can guess, Im pretty sure I looked horrible too. Last time I checked how much time is it, it was 2 in the morning and I was completely exhausted. The last thing I remember was me chatting with Niall and Harry, but I dont remember what were we talking about.
After that, everything is a blur.