36. Momma up there?
I watched the ambulance car drive away. I looked up at the sky. "Are you there yet?" I put my hand on my heart and started to cry. "Forever." I whispered. Luis walked over to me crying. I hugged him. "I'm sorry." I cried. "What about Liliana and Lisa?" He cried, putting his hands on his face. "Arianna, what do I tell the kids? What will I do without you? I can't live like this." He whispered. "I'll pick up the kids." I said and walked to the car.
I got in the car and started to bawl. I couldn't stop. I looked at my pictures on my phone where we took selfies and videos. I played one of videos. "Babe come here." Arianna laughed. I laid down next to her and kissed her on the cheek. "Are you on my phone?" I giggled. "It's going to be our video diary." She laughed and kissed me. I started to tickle her. She started to laugh. "I love you." She said while kissing me. "Byeeeeeee." She said to the camera. The video ended. I slammed my head against the wheel. "WHY? WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ARIANNA?" I yelled. I can still hear her laugh. I looked over at the passenger seat hoping she would be there. But it was empty.
I drove to Arianna's mom house and knocked on the door. Her mom opened the door and hugged me. And she started to cry. "Sweetie, don't cry." She said rubbing my back while hugging me. "She doesn't like when people cry." Liliana and Lisa came running. "Mowwa." Lisa ran to the door. I went on my knees and hugged her. I wiped my face. "Where's mommy?" Liliana said. "She's with the angels baby." I cried. "When will she be back from the angels house?" She said showing me a bracelet she made. I looked at it. It was #1 Mommy. I looked at their grandmother and shook my head and hugged Liliana. "Mommy loves you okay?" I cried. "I love Momma too a lot." She smiled. I grabbed Lisa and Liliana's hand and pointed to the sky. "Say hi to mommy." I smiled and cried. "Mommy up there?" Liliana pointed. "Yes sweetie." I pushed her hair back. "When will I see momma?" She looked up. "You still have a long time ahead of you Lil." I put them in the car and drove off. I looked at the sky and smiled. "Don't worry. I'll take care of them." I blew a kiss to the sky.