20. chapter 18
This was it. I’m going to tell Calum that I’m not coming with him.
Calum? i ask him.
Yeah babe? he said back while packing his suitcase. This was it, i have to say it now!
I-I-I-I’m not coming with you, i said with burning tears in my eyes.
Wh-what? he said looking sad.
I’m not coming back on tour with you, i said letting my burning tears fall down on my cheeks.
B-b-but why not? he ask with a shaky voice.
Be-because my parents well actualy my mom said that if i would leave again, i-i-i didn’t have to come back, i said crying my eyes out on this point.
Babe, its okay, Calum said while walking over to me to hug me.
You can come visit, right? I looked at him and shook my head no.
No Calum, i-i-i can’t come visit because i am going back to school, i said looking down at my feet. I looked at him and saw him looking shocked.
You can take online classes and come with me! he said.
I want to,trust me, b-b-but you know how much my family means to me, i said looking at him with (again) tears in my eyes.
So your family means more to you than i do?! he ask/screamed to me. Ca-Calum, you know that i didn’t meant tha… save it, he said interrupting me. Calum don't go! i said crying. Why? why would i stay if you don't want to go with me? i can't live without you! he said freaking out. I have to do whats best for me and him even though i don't want to do it.
Calum... i think we should break up, i said in one breath. He looked at me heartbroken.
Well than, i don't think i have to say another word to you, he said trying to keep strong. He walked to his suitcase and picked it up and walked out. I stood there shocked at what just happend and when i heard the maindoor closed i started to fall down. What have i done?!