Laliegh, it's getting late. Maybe we should go back to our hotel room." Nash tells me. I agree and he grabs my hand. We tell the other boys goodnight and head across the hall. We open the door to see Taylor talking to Hayes and Cameron. Taylor looks really stressed, while the others look like they are trying to calm him down.
I stay back because they didn't hear us come in. "I don't know what over came me. One minute the girls is kissing me, the next I'm telling her I love her. I don't know what's wrong with me! I love Laliegh!" That's when Nash makes his presence known.
"If you really loved MY GIRLFRIEND you wouldn't have hurt her. But thanks because now she's mine. And not yours so go find that other slut!" He shouts in Taylor's face. The next thing I know Taylor tackles Nash on the ground and punches him in the face.
"Taylor stop!" Cameron shouts. He doesn't listen and hits him again. But then Nash flips them over and punches Taylor in the gut.
"Nash, Taylor! Stop!" I shout through my tears. That's when they both look at me. Taylor throws Nash off of him and comes running up to me.
"Laliegh I'm sorry that happened! It was never meant to." He says searching my face for any emotion. I only have one. Sad.
"You're only sorry you got caught." I say not looking at him. "I'm really tired. Let's go to bed. We have a flight to Shreveport tomorrow." I say. "And Taylor you're sleeping with Cameron tonight." He looks hurt, but says nothing and nods. I grab some spandex, a sports bra, and one of Nash's shirts. I walk in the bathroom and change my clothes. I quickly walk over to the bed and wrap the covers around me and fall into a dreamless sleep.
"Laliegh! Hurry up! Were going to miss our flight!" Cameron yells through the bathroom door. I quickly finish my makeup and open the bathroom door. Cameron is leaning against the bathroom door. "Finally." He says walking in the bathroom and closing the door. I see Taylor sitting on the bed, talking to his phone. Probably doing a vine. He stops and looks up.
"You look beautiful." He says. I act like I didn't hear him. "Are you seriously not talking to me?" He asks. "Look Laliegh I'm sorry."
"You know what? Let's just forget about it! Be best friends like we were on the plane." I say even though it hurts.
"I don't want to be just friends! Why can't you see that?" He was raising his voice now.
"Maybe because last night I saw you shove your tongue down another girls throat and telling her you love her! Is that what you do? Tell girls you love them to get in their pants?" I guess I was raising mine now too."
"Woah guys. What's going on here?" Cameron says coming out of the bathroom.
"Nothing, I'm going to go find Nash." I say. Before either of them can answer I walk out and slam the door. Hard. I walk to the other boys room. Nash was sitting on the bed talking to Shawn. He had a huge smile in his face which was adorable. I walk over and sit on his lap surprising him. He let's out an oomph.
"Are you calling me fat?" I ask faking sad.
"No just took me by surprise, that's all. Hey what's wrong?"
"Nothing?" I say but it comes out more as a question.
He gives me this 'I know you're lying face'. "Fine me and Taylor had a disagreement."
"Oh." Is all he says. I give him a quick kiss to let him know it's ok.
"Umm guys, you know we have to leave in five minutes?" Shawn breaks us away from our kiss. Oh well. He grabs my hand and we walk back to our hotel room so we could get our bags. We walk in and Taylor looks like he's been crying. My heart breaks at the sight. But I act like it didn't bother me.
We just got off our plane in the Shreveport airport. We see Aaron waiting for us to get off. He couldn't go to the first Magcon due to family issues.
"Aaron!" Cameron screams and tackles him in a hug. Aaron laughs and hugs him back. He hugs all the other boys and then stops at me.
"You must be Laliegh! I've heard a bunch about you from this bunch!" He smiles. I stick out my hand so he can shake it. "I don't do handshakes," he says and pulls me in for a hug. I hug him back. We pull away and he says "Let's go to Dave and Buster's!" All the boys chorus different answers, all yeses. We went to the limo and drove to Dave and Buster's. I've never actually been here. But on vine I've seen all the guys come here a lot. We decided to eat first. I just got a burger and fries.
Emotionally I didn't feel good. I went back to my shy, reserved, old self and basically shut everyone out. They seemed to notice and tried to include me in every conversation. I finally came to the conclusion I needed to be alone. I told them I was going to head back to the hotel. Nash got worried but I told him I needed to be alone. He was hesitant at first but decided it might be for the best. I rode in the limo by myself. I went to the front desk and got my hotel room key. I rode the elevator to the room. I go and lay on my bed. I start to cry. I'm getting bad again. This scares me. I don't want to be bad again.
I go on twitter to see if that will help, but it does the exact opposite. There has always been hate, but when I'm already upset it hurts ten times worse.
I start to think back to last year.
"Laliegh, you should just do us all a favor and kill yourself." Savannah, the most popular girl tells me. She pushes me down and slaps me. A group gathers around us, cheering her on. I cry. She keeps hitting me. She finally stops and spits on me. It takes me a couple of minutes before I can get up and walk away. I walk to my house and run to my bathroom. I quickly lock the door. Not that my mom would care anyways. I find my razor and quickly break it so I can get the blades. I make cuts on my wrists while crying. My tears mix with my blood. The scars were so close to healing also. I start to feel light headed and pass out on the bathroom floor.
I woke up the next day in a hospital. I promised myself I would never cut again. But I'm not so sure now.
To cheer me up, I decided to do a singing video. I grab my guitar and set up my camera. I press play and start to play the first chords to Pretend Its Ok by Little Mix. Towards the end of the video I'm in tears. This song means so much to me. When I finish I wipe my tears and press stop. I quickly edit it and upload it to YouTube. I run to the bathroom to find my razor.
Nash and I had made up by now and were playing skeeball. My phone dinged and I saw that Laliegh uploaded a video to YouTube. I watched and saw she was crying. I quickly run out the doors leaving Nash completely confused. I start running because taking the limo would take longer. I run into the hotel and ask the lady what rooms we were staying in. She gave me a key and I quickly ran yo the stairs. I got to our door and quickly unlocked it. I don't see Laliegh there but I hear soft sobs. I kick open the bathroom door and she here trying to break a razor.