"Why don't you just kill yourself already?"
"Just leave the school."
"Do us all a favor and kill yourself."
"Go cut you anorexic freak!"
"Your such a bitch, stop trying to get attention."
But that's it, i don't want attention. I want everyone to leave me alone. I continue walking down the halls more remarks.
"Look at the anorexic bitch."
"Why doesn't she just hang herself?"
"I honestly don't know. I mean no one likes her."
I bit the inside of my lip as i just grab my head phones and put them in my ears. I started to play "Diana." I was on the verge of tears.... One Direction has helped me in so many ways it's not even funny. But the problem is, my problems aren't just at school, it's all over FaceBook and Twitter. So every morning i get up and my Twitter notifications are full of hate remarks.
I sigh as i walk down to the cafeteria and sat at my usual table. I felt my eyes getting more watery. But it's stupid how people full on bully someone, they don't know how strong their words are and how much it hurts. I have scars to prove it.
I looked up and saw my old friends... Christy, Garriyn, Hannah, Justin, Bailey, and Stone. We were all friends at one point. "Yeah surprisingly i did have friends at one point. But what's sick is that they are the ones who bully me the most.
I closed my eyes and took in an uneasy deep breath, and let it out. I re opened my eyes and saw them sitting at my old table. I looked down at my phone and hanged the song to "Strong." Which is kind of ironic cause im not strong at all...
"Hey slut stop looking over here!" Garriyn shouted, making everyone in the cafeteria laugh. I just rolled my eyes and looked back at the black screen. "Bitch, don't ignore her." Justin half shouted. I took my had phones off and looked at them. "What?" "Why don't you just kill yourself!" Stone laughed, making his whole group laugh. "You seriously don't think i've tried? Because i have." His smile started to disappear some.
Yeah, we used to date... during that time is when the insults and rumors started so i cut myself during the relation ship... which is half the reason why he dumped me. I closed my eyes, hating myself for thinking about those times.... the good times...
"Next time you attempt to, please succeed." Bailey spat. "Good one Bailey." Christy giggled at his remark. "I'll try. I promise." I said grabbing my stuff and putting them in my bag. I just left and walked through the front doors running towards the park. I don't know why these rumors started. I honestly don't.
I ran to the shelter house and sat on the edge and cried into my hands. If i were home right now i would be cutting myself, but im trying to stop and prove to the haters that im stronger and that i wont let them win. Next song was "Don't forget where you belong." I slowly started to calm down, One Direction is what saved my life on many, many occasions. I got on Twitter and Niall was on, i tweeted him saying hi... i got hate right away.
I looked up at the dull, grey sky and cried some more. Why me? I looked back down to my phone screen....
"Leave her alone. She's probably a better fan then most of you." I was shocked, Niall Horan defended me... No no no no.... I'm only going to get bullied more!! I cried harder, my throat was hurting and my stomach. I cry almost everyday, and i am just done with everyone...
I wish my sister was here. Yeah i had an older sister who used to help me... but she got into a car wreck and died. I miss her.. I let more tears fall, as i heard i got a follower. I have 41 followers, but they insult me... Niall...
He DM'd me saying
"Love are you okay?"
"I'm fine. Is that what you want me to say?" I looked at my wrists, a bloody mess. Scars here and there. "No.. Come on you can talk to me. I see how they treat you everyday."
"Horan, you'll forget me within a day."
"No. please i can help."
"You can't. I get bullied constantly, i almost killed myself because of it many times. What keeps me from doing that is you guys. Bye Niall."
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, slowly drifting off to sleep. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well this is my new movella and i hope you like it.
I'll still work on Stay Alive for sure but i had this story idea..
All those friends i listed, are my actual friends :p i just couldn't think of any other names really. So... please enjoy and i hope you like it.