I stood inches away from the edge. Looking down at the water crashing against the rocks, I wondered if this was my only option. I felt nobody could help me out of this mess so I took a step closer. Then I let out a deep breath and thought about ending everything right here, right now. I pulled my arms to the sides like a bird. Leaning forward I was ready for the fall until I heard 'His' voice... "Please don't do it" he cried, I thought about it for a moment, taking fast breaths. I could hear him still behind me. If he came here just to stop me then maybe he really did care, maybe I was always just seeing and hearing what I wanted to. A small smile appeared on my face as I turned to look at him. When he noticed I wasn't going to jump his face brightened with a grin. The both of us were ready to embrace when I tripped on my own feet and stumbled backwards.
***24 hours earlier***
"Mom I can't do this anymore!" I yelled from the stair case as she tried to force me to school.
"Honey this would be the third day, your not missing any more school!" she yelled back, grabbing my arm and dragging me out the front door.
"You can't make me" I fought back, resisting her hold and freeing myself.
"Tori listen" she started, gently setting me beside her against the car. "I know things seem hard right now but it can only get better" I cut her off.
"Mom, you have no idea what I go through" she sighed and stared down at her feet.
"Pumpkin... you can't run away from your problems, you have to put a end to them, and not by taking pills"
She had a point. I have tried to kill myself by over dosing, and I tried to hang myself, both attempts failed as my mother walked in on me.
I used to be this nice, pretty, popular, smart, active girl who dreamed of big things, then something happened. I've always been a little self-conscious, but I had tons of friends to back me up. Then one day everyone started to turn on me, whispering behind my back, sending me texts to go kill myself, plain and simply just pushing me around. At first it wasn't that bad, not until I got kicked off the volleyball team. That's when everything went down hill. I started to fail all classes because I was distracted by the bullies, my boyfriend broke up with me I became very self-conscious without my friends and my dad started to abuse me. And Everyday things get worse. That's why I hate going to school, or being home.
"Fine mom" I spoke. I opened the door to the passenger seat and got in.
The drive there was awkwardly silent.
Once at school I headed straight for class, considering I was late. I arrived at math only to be greeted by a grumpy teacher and scowling students.
"Tori?" Pouquoi tu-sont retard?" Mr. Smith asked, yes I'm in French immersion.
( BTW that means, why are you late)
"Um, Parce que ma mere l'automoblie brisez et je marche ici" I lied.
"( Because my mom's car broke and I walked here")
"hmm Assyez vous" I nodded quickly and took my seat behind who appears to be a new kid.
"(hmm sit down")
At lunch I sat alone on the bench in a hallway. As I looked down at my feet I felt a presence beside me.
" Hi can I sit here?" A husky voice asked. I looked up to see a very cute boy standing above me. He was about 6.2, very muscular, with hazel brown eyes and chocolate curls layered on his head.
His shadow hovering over me I realized that I've been silent for a while now. I then nodded my head 'yes'. As much as this kid was hot, he was also a tough person who could kill me if they were to bully me also.
"Hi" he said slightly smiling. I opened my mouth to talk but nothing came out. I was so nervous that I grabbed my stuff and just walked away.
To my surprise, the boy followed me.
" hey, wait!" he yelled. I stopped in my footprints and turned to face him.
" I'm Sam" he added, holding his hand out for me to shake.
" Tori" I whispered. He nodded, like he knew why I was so quiet. I started to walked away when he grabbed my wrist.
" Let's talk" he smiled, leading me out of the school. We went to a park hidden behind the trees. I knew that if things were to get better, I would have to make them better, so I decided to trust him with everything.
I told him about the abuse from kids and parents, the bad grades, the texts, everything. It felt like this was the person I could tell anything to, he was someone who would actually be there for me. After I explained everything to him he did something I never thought a boy would do.
He kissed me.
For five straight minutes we made out on the park bench, his lips took away my worries. I know it was a little soon to get this close to somebody but in my case, I had nothing to lose.
After hours of talking and bonding, I had to leave.
When I got back home my mom was freaking out.
"The school called and said you missed last class" she said sternly.
"Yea, I left" I said back raising my voice.
"You had no business leaving, your trying to get better remember?" she yelled at me
" I am getting better mother, I met a boy, and he loves me, and I love him" I yelled back, threatening tears.
She stopped and looked at me, the room fell silent, then she slapped me. After catching on to how much my cheek stung I ran upstairs.
The first thing I did was run into the bathroom and grab a pile of prescription meds. I wanted to get high, I wanted to for get about everything.
By the time the bottle was gone, I was stoned. I couldn't think straight at all, the only thing I knew was all the people I hated in this world.
So I ran downstairs into my garage and took so gasoline. Everyone in my house was a sleep, my mom, dad, little brother, and baby sister . It was the perfect time. I ran around the house spilling the liquid everywhere, in every room and on the people in it, then leading to the grass outside my house. I pulled a lighter from my pocket and dropped it onto the gas. I went blank as the flames shot in the air. I didn't move, just stood completely still, like in a trance just listening to the families cries for help.
After I finally clued in I Yelled at the house.
"Hey mom! I'm ending it!"
Then I picked up the gas and the lighter and walked down the street. I stopped at the school. I sat on the pavement waiting for morning.
Once everyone arrived I walked into my class and through the gas at everyone. Then I through the lighter and whispered.
"Burn in hell bitches"
I walked out of the school as it blew up behind me.
I opened my eyes filled with tears, I realized that was all a dream. But I had a knot in my stomach that was telling me I could do this and I will if I can't stop myself.
I ran downstairs and high jacked my mother's car. After first writing goodbye in my own blood all down our hallway.
My first stop was the school. I ran in and immediately found who I was looking for.
" Sam!" I yelled. He was talking to the 'populars'. I walked up beside him but a girl pushed me away.
"Sorry princess, your yesturday's slut" he said making everyone laugh. I let a tear fall before turning and running to the car.
There was only one place I wanted to go.
I drove to 'Dead Man's Mountian'.
I got out of the car and walked towards the cliff.
I stood inches away from the edge. Looking down at the water crashing against the rocks, I wondered if this was my only option. I felt nobody could help me out of this mess so I took a step closer. Then I let out a deep breath and thought about ending everything right here, right now. I pulled my arms to the sides like a bird. Leaning forward I was ready for the fall until I heard 'His' voice...
"Please don't do it" he cried.
I thought about it for a moment, taking fast breaths. I could hear him still behind me. If he came here just to stop me then maybe he really did care, maybe I was always just seeing and hearing what I wanted to. A small smile appeared on my face as I turned to look at him. When he noticed I wasn't going to jump his face brightened with a grin. The both of us were ready to embrace when I tripped on my own feet and stumbled backwards.
The last thing I saw before I hit the water was the only person who ever really loved me standing over the edge.
The last thing I felt was a soft breeze on my back.
The last thing I heard was my own scream as I accidentally committed suicide.
The last thing I touched was the gentle air filtering me.
The last thing I smelled was the dirt from under my feet and slipped over the edge.
The first day of highschool - September 6th 2013 people started playing games with my life.
Last Month of Freshmen year - June 2nd 1014 I ended my life, therefore ending the game.