Chapter 42 (Torn)
I began to star at my phone cautiously. When is she ever going to call? Its been days since she left and I'm desperate as a monkey without a banana. I could feel as if my body is drained, no blood. My hands getting sweaty from the heat that my phone has been producing. I know that she left her phone here, I just placed it neatly on the shelf just in case if she comes back or if she is looking for it. That nasty text from Justin about the party just makes me want to fly all the way to Los Angeles and beat the crap out of him but I can't.
"Come on Harry. We got to rehearse." Louis said as he slapped my head playfully. I sighed as I stuffed my phone back into my pocket and got off the couch. I began to ruffle my hair as I followed Louis into the big room where we were assigned to rehearse.
"Ok will start with Liam with the intro and then we will switch to Harry and then will carry off to the end." Our instructor said. Simon was our mentor and we were actually practicing for our performance at his house. The music began to play as Liam waiting for his cue.
"I thought I saw a girl brought to life. She was warm, she came around and she was dignified. She showed me what was to cry. You couldn't be that girl I adored. You don't seem to know or seem to care what you heart is for. But I don't know her anymore." Liam sang. As I got ready for my part, I held the piece of paper that had the lyrics in my hand as it started to crumple a bit.
"There's nothing left. She used to cry. My conversation has run dry." I sang softly. I began to form tears in my eyes.
"That's whats going on. Nothing's fine I'm Torn." I let some of my tears fall as I sang the word torn. My instructor gave me a weird look as he stopped the music. I quickly wiped my eyes dried and sniffled.
"Harry is there something wrong?" He asked. The other boys began to watch my every move as I held the paper tighter.
"It's nothing. Its just that I'm-" Before I could finish my sentence, I was interrupted.
"Torn?" Niall finished. I smiled at him as I looked back at the instructor.
"Well I'm just feeling kinda emotional right now." I admit as I leaned my head forward a bit. He smiled a bit and laid his finger back on the play button on the CD player.
"You think you can still sing?" He asked. I nodded as the others placed their hands on my back. I took a deep breath and exhale as the instructor played the button.
"There's nothing left, she used to cry. My conversation has run dry. That's whats going on. Nothing's fine, I'm torn. I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel. Cold and I'am shamed lying naked on the floor. Illusions never change, into something real. I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn." I sang, swaying my body back and forth. I sniffled my nose and wiped the tears that were accidentally fallen. The music was paused and the instructor clapped his hands.
"Well done Harry. Now that's the kind of thing I was looking for the whole time. Feeling. We should all feel emotional towards to this song, any song. If you keep this up then you are guaranteed to win this stage." He praised us. We began to cheer, all of us. I gave Louis a high-five and received a hug from Niall. I smiled.
"Ok everyone. Take 20." He yelled as he left the room. I sighed as I placed the paper that I held onto the table. I lazily walked back to the couch until I felt something vibrating on my back pocket. It was my phone. I began to smile as I prayed that it was Selena. As soon as I took my phone out, came out the name Quezyly Ricardo, beaming out to me. I let my smile go and tapped ignore on my screen before I could push my phone back behind my pocket. I began to walk back to the couch again until somebody wrapped there arm around me.
"Ok What's wrong Harry?" I heard somebody sigh out. I turned around finding Liam. He removed his arm around me and took a seat beside me. I waved me hands a bit as I placed my elbows on my thigh.
"It's nothing. It's just something that I need to put in the past." I mentioned. I really want to put all this depression out of the way, but I can't. Doing it sounds like I want to forget about Selena but I can't.
"Then tell me it. Is it a girl problem?" He asked. I looked up to him as he swept his hair to the side, his long emo hair to be specific.
"I think its best to call it a problem but yeah, it is." I said. He nodded.
"Was that her?" He asked. I gave him a confused look.
"What?" I replied. Before he could answer, in came Zayn and Louis with a can of soda in their hands.
"The one that was calling you a minute ago." He made it clear. I quickly shook my head no. It wasn't Selena, well I hoped it was but it was Quezyly. I feel like it is best to ignore her and I really do feel that it is wrong but I can't stand looking at her face again. Just looking at her, her affect would suffocate me and that would hurt Selena even more and I don't want that happening. Again.....
"No it wasn't." I said. Zayn and Louis took a seat beside me also but Zayn was out at the far end of the couch.
"Then who called you." Louis asked. I peered over to him who was taking a sip from his soda. I bobbed my head a bit as I glanced back to the ground.
"It was um..... my mother." I lied. I don't want them to know about Quezyly. Things would become worse if that happened and I don't want that happening. Straight forward at least.
"Your mother?" Zayn said. He shot me a confused glare. I slowly stared back at the ground.
"She must be mad or something if you didn't want to talk to her. I saw you put the call on ignore." Liam said. I nodded at him. My hands began to get sweaty by the touch. I didn't like where this conversation was going and I also didn't like lying to them. They are my best friends, my band mate.
"Wait. About this you know um problem? That girl that you were with back at boot camp. Quezyly I think that's her name? Is this about her." Louis questioned. I clenched my hands tight but it wasn't that noticeable. Damn Louis. Why did I have to introduce Quezyly to him. Stupid Stupid.
"No this wasn't about her. It's someone else. Somebody more special to me then her. My best friend in the whole wide world." I confessed. I began to feel my eyes go wet just by thinking about her. I would never be able to feel the same way as I did to her to anybody else. I love Selena and she loves me.
"Then who is she?" Liam asked. I stared at the ground again as I sniffled. I wiped the tears from my eyes and intertwine my fingers together.
"Her name is Selena. Selena Gomez." I answered back. There eyes went wide as if something had happened. Niall walked into the room and looked confused by the look from his face. The other stared at Niall which made this conversation rarely awkward right now.
"What?' Niall said. Silence pleaded in the room until Zayn ended it.
"Harry knows Selena Gomez." He said as if nothing was wrong. I gave Niall a small smile as he walked up to the empty chair quickly. He had a big smile on his face which made me chuckle.
"You know Selena Gomez?!" He shouted. Well almost yelled. What? is he a fan of Selena. Can he big really fangirling in front of me.
"Yeah we are best friends since we were little, you know little babies." I mentioned. He laughed madly.
"Are you really doing this Niall." Liam reminded him. Niall shot Liam a shut up glance that made me laugh too.
"What are you a fan of Selena?" I asked him. He shook his head no which made me feel confused.
"No what why would you think that?" He asked. I frowned. So he doesn't like Selena Gomez. I sighed. I wish he did. Well he is Irish. Irish people don't really know new born stars yet until they got really popular.
"Because your going crazy, what else?" Louis laughed as he took his last sip of his soda and threw it in the garbage in just one shot which made us cheer and victory.
"I'm just going crazy because Harry knows a celebrity. Wouldn't it be awesome to talk to one of the famous celebrities out in Los Angeles." He reminded us.
"Um..... Yeah sure." Zayn said still not sure what he was agreeing on.
"Wait isn't Selena Gomez already have a best friend. It's all over the news." Louis mentioned.
"Oh yeah um her name was uh......" Liam started off but couldn't find his words. There all talking about Demi aren't they.
"Demi Lovato." Niall said proudly. We all glanced at him weirdly.
"How did you know?" I asked. He became silent on my question. Somethings going on with his attitude. It keeps on turning on and off for some reason, unless its just how the topic is changing.
"Well to let you guys know. Demi is my school classmate. Selena, Demi and I are like the three musketeers back then until they had to move to Los Angeles because of there offer from Avex International." I mentioned. There eyes went wide as if this top information is rarely unspoken. I laughed at Liam whose face was completely hilarious. You shouldn't have seen it. Before anybody could respond to my statement, out instructor came back with a blueberry muffin in his hand and a bag of fries from McDonald's. Lucky guy.
"Come on guys. Break time is over." He announced as he went back into the big room that we left off. I groaned as I stood up from the couch and walked back to the room.
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