Chapter 4 (Prayer And A Nightmare)
I walked into my room and grabbed a tissue to clear my eyes from those tears that I haad been holding back downstairs. Why do I feel such a mess around Harry?. Ugh I slipped on my pink tank top that says beyond on the front and wore my baby blue fuzzy pants that I got for Christmas last year, can't believe it stills fit me. I took my hair tie and tied my hair into a pony tail as usual, I turned off the light and turned on my lamp. I jumped to bed and took out my phone, I visited twitter and wanted to post the pic of me and Harry that we just took a while ago. Hmm what should the caption be. I say.
"I just saved someones life, and caused someones life." @HarryStyles
I exit out of Twitter and set my alarm to 6:00 am since tomorrow is my first day of school. I placed my phone on my bed side table, I breathe deeply through my nose and letting the air escape through my mouth. The next thing I knew, I was asleep.
"HARRY!" I yelled as Harry let go off his grip from the ladder, he fell 2 ft into a bush of thorns. I ran down the stairs out the door with tears in my eyes. I found Harry all covered in blood, his blood. I ran to Harry crying knowing that Harry was going to leave me.
"HARRY PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME PLEASE I LOVE YOU! YOUR EVERYTHING TO ME HARRY PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME I'M BEGGING YOU!!!" I yelled hoping Harry wouldn't let go himself.
"Selena I-I'll never leave you, I love you. Remember this even though you don't see me, I'm always there to comfort you. Stay strong Selly." He whispered gently to me then his eyes started to droop down.
"No No Harry don't do this, Don't leave me Please Harry stay with me! Remember what you said, were in this together!" I yelled holding his hands tightly.
"I'm sorry" My eyes were shut closed hearing the last words he said. Harry was gone. My best friend and the love of my life was gone.
"NOOOOOO!!" I yelled again holding all I had left of him in my hands were his blood and his body. This was all my fault, I shouldn't have locked him out of the house. I'm the worst friend he ever had!!!
"NOOOOOOO!!" I yelled to myself, that I lost my bestfriend and the love of my life. He was gone.
"Selly! Sel! Selena!!" I heard Harry's voice so near me. His voice made me cry that he was gone, I'll never forgive myself if his gone. I rather die then him, I'm a mess.
"Selena! Selena!!" As I heard his Voice again, I began to cry harder.
"SELENA GOMEZ WAKE UP!!!" ok clearly Harry' saying for me to wake up. I opened my eyes to see Harry looking at me with a worried look on his face, and him wearing only his boxers.
"HARRY!" I shouted as I got out of bed and hugged him really tight. I couldn't let him see me crying, it was all a nightmare. Harry left me cause of me, I just couldn't bare to see him gone out of my life forever.
"Selena what happened is there something wrong?!?" Harry asked me as he rubbed his hands up and down my back to make me feel relax. I pulled back from the hug facing Harry.
"Harry I couldn't bare to see you gone out of my life forever cause of me. I almost killed you from the fall you took, I can't lose you both of you. You and your mom your all that I have since my mom and dad left me." I said as the tears that were forming in my eyes left running down my cheeks. I looked at the clock, it was 10:34 pm.
"Selena remember this even though you don't see me, I'm always there to comfort you." Those words, those were the same words Harry said to me before he died well in my dream.
"Those words........ Those were the words you said before you left me, before you were gone in my dream." I said as my tears continued to fall.
"Selly, don't be scared its just a nightmare. Here I'll go get some water from the kitchen." he said as he walked out the door leaving me in my room.
"H-harry?" I asked hoping that he heard it.
"Yes." his head popping at my door worried.
"S-stay with m-me please?" I asked stuttering. I knew if I fell asleep without him by my side, I would end up having another nightmare about him.
"Sure" he said as he closed my door and made his way to my bed.
I snuggled in my bed with Harry and told him to face the other direction, he smirked at me and did what I told him. I fell asleep with Harry by my side and my nightmares thrown in th trash.
In the name of the father, and of the son, and of the Holy Spirit amen. Father thank you for giving the greatest gift of all, is to be with my best friend and to be part of her life. She's everything to me. Even though we fight or cherish a embarrasses moment, I will always love her and never let her go. Lord, Let Selena know that she is a bright star that shines my path on earth, let alone even though she blames herself from everything let nothing harm her. Without her smile, her touch, her smell beyond my presences. I'm done on Earth. Amen
After I prayed to God not to let Selena harm herself, I heard a nasty horrible scream in Selena's room. I jumped out of my bed and ran to Selena's room. Thank God her door is open, I let myself inside finding her crying and screaming the word No.
"Selly! Sel! Selena!!" I yelled out to her, but no use she can't hear me. She's still lost in her nightmare that was killing her slowly.
"Selena! Selena!!" I yelled again putting my hands on her shoulder and moving her up and down slowly. She began crying harder.
"SELENA GOMEZ WAKE UP!!!" I shouted so she could hear me. She opened her eyes, her eyes filled with fear and horror.
"HARRY!!" she yelled out as she jumped out of bed and gave me a tight hug. I could tell she was frighten for her body was shaking in fear.
"Selena what happened is there something wrong?!?" I asked while rubbing my hands on her back in a up and down motion. She calmed down a bit slightly.
"Harry I couldn't bare to see you gone out of my life forever cause of me. I almost killed you from the fall you took, I can't lose you both of you. You and your mom your all that I have since my mom and dad left me." She said has the tears forming in her eyes fell, I knew what she was dreaming about in face it was about me. She dreamed about me not surviving the fall.
"Selena remember this even though you don't see me, I'm always there to comfort you." I said trying to comfort her with my touch again. Her lips were parted slightly
"Those words........ Those were the words you said before you left me, before you were gone in my dream." I can't believe the words I just said were the words I said in her dream, can I really be that weird and mysterious.
"Selly, don't be scared its just a nightmare. Here I'll go get some water from the kitchen." I told her as a let her go from my embrace and walked out the door.
"H-harry?" I heard her asked, I walked back to her room only popping my head out her door.
"Yes." I asked , she looked scared by the looks that she was shivering. I was worried about her.
"S-stay with m-me please?" She said.
"Sure" I made my way back to her room. I closed her door forgetting all about the water and bounced to her bed. She snuggled at the other side of the bed.
"Harry do me a favor and face the other way please." I smirked at her comment and did what she said.
Selena was about to fall apart because of me. So many things happened to Selena today and I'm starting to get worried about her since tomorrow is the first day of school.
God never leave Selena. Let her know that I'll always be there by her side to throw away the horrible nightmares lined up to frighten her.