Chapter 36 (My Scarred Heart)
A/N this is not the real chapter. If you would like the read the passage down below about Selena not knowing anything at all, keep reading. If you want the real chapter, scroll down or flip the pages until you see a line and a note from me again. Enjoy!
I woke up from the sound of my alarm clock beeping non-stop. I groaned, as the light beamed to my eyes. The lights were on.
"Demi, can you turn the lights off? Someone is trying to sleep." I moaned. I got no response back. I covered my eyes trying to shelter it as I opened my eyes slowly. I moved my free hand to hit my alarm clock off but I felt something else, a wire or tube or something. Finally, my eyes were open freely. I appear to be in a white room. Ok what is that beeping sound, its giving me a headache. I turned my head finding a moniter that had my life on the line, what? I'm in the hospital. What happened? I can't remember anything at all.
My head is hurting and my arm is sore, i couldn't understand anything about my head hurting but my arm being sore is because there is this tube in my arm inserting this weird liquid into my arm. Before I could explore this whole room, I heard muffling from the door. I closed my eyes pretending to be asleep as the person opened the door and then closed it. I felt someone sat on the chair close to my bed, I could smell the minty scent they had carried. Do i know that scent? I then heard that person mumble something?
"Selena, I'm so sorry this happened to you. I didn't mean to cheat on you. Please come back to me, your my best friend in the whole wide world. You mean everything to me." I heard the person whisper to me. The voice sounded so familiar, but I couldn't put my finger on it. I slowly fluttered my eyes open reaveling a person with brown curly locks, he was crying. I moved my hand on to his hand slowly, he moved his hand up gently. I could see his face, it looked rather very familiar but I don't know him. Who is he and what does he mean by cheating on me?
"Selena?" he whispered. How does he know my name? I didn't know what was going on but I all i knew was I had to play along. I nodded my head slowly, smiling at him.
"Oh thank god." He whispered as he stood up and gave me a hug. I awkwardly patted his back but felt welcomed to a new world.
"Do you remember anything that happened Selly?" he asked. Ok why is he calling me Selly? this is so confusing. Remember Selena just play along.
"Um I don't know." I said gently still getting use to talking. it felt like its been a long time since I talked. I frowned a bit but not much, I didn't want him to notice.
"Is there anything wrong Sel?" he asked worried. I guess he noticed. Ok i had enough, I need to know the truth now. I stared into his emerald eyes, they were beautiful. Possibly the best views I have ever seen.
"May i ask?" I asked him. He nodded holding my hand. I quickly removed my hand away from his grip, I felt uncomfortable holding a stranger's hand. He frowned but nodded his head. I took a deep breath, I knew he was going to get upset if I ask him.
"Who are you?" I whispered gently giving him a concerned look. He gave me a shocked look until I watched his eyes grow watery. He stood up and grabbed the clipboard that was attached to my bed. he looked at it as multiples of tears fell from his eyes.
"No please no." he mumbled as he went back to his sit rapidly. He held my hand tightly and shook it, giving me a frightening feeling.
"Please Selena, you have to remember. I'm your boyfriend Harry Styles. You are my best friend in the world." He said scared. I looked at him with no expression, I could feel myself grow more weary.
"I'm sorry no." I said as his breathing grew into a faster pace. He then looked at my wrist and grabbed a charm bracelet attached onto my wrist, I looked at it confused. I never had a charm bracelet like this.
"This. Do you who gave this to you." he pointed out. I was frightened, beyond scared I didn't know what this harry guy wanted. He looked at me scared and worried as he was waiting for my response.
"I don't remember having a charm bracelet." I responded. I hate watching him cry, I feel so heart broken but I don't know why. He then let go of the charm bracelet and got out of his seat and kicked his chair. I let out a shriek until I felt a slight pain on my stomach, I winced in pain trying to hide it.
"Selena are you all right?" Harry shouted. I didn't respond to that. I placed my hand onto my stomach until I felt the most painful thing in my stomach. I screamed in pain. I kept on screaming until Harry got out of the room and then a bunch of nurses came in. I watched one of the nurses take out a large needle and insert it into me, then I blacked out. The last thing I heard was the beep from the moniter fade and then it went dead. I was gone.
Sorry that was not the real chapter but that was just an idea i just did and i didn't want it to go to waste so Sorry for it, it was fun while it lasted. I was just playing around. Still Enjoy the true chapter :)
I woke up from the sound of my alarm clock beeping non-stop. I groaned, as the light beamed to my eyes. The lights were on.
"Demi, can you turn the lights off? Someone is trying to sleep." I moaned. I got no response back. I covered my eyes trying to shelter it as I opened my eyes slowly. I moved my free hand to hit my alarm clock off but I felt something else, a wire or tube or something. Finally, my eyes were open freely. I appear to be in a white room. Ok what is that beeping sound, its giving me a headache. I turned my head finding a moniter that had my life on the line, what? I'm in the hospital. What happened? Oh yeah, Harry cheated on me. I forgot.
Before I could explore this whole room, I heard muffling from the door. I closed my eyes pretending to be asleep as the person opened the door and then closed it. I felt someone sat on the chair close to my bed, I could smell the minty scent they had carried. Do i know that scent? I then heard that person mumble something?
"Selena, I'm so sorry this happened to you. I didn't mean to cheat on you. Please come back to me, your my best friend in the whole wide world. You mean everything to me." I heard the person whisper to me. The voice sounded so familiar, but I couldn't put my finger on it. I slowly fluttered my eyes open reaveling a person with brown curly locks, he was crying. I moved my hand on to his hand slowly, he moved his hand up gently. I could see his face, It was Harry.
"Selena?" he whispered. How does he know my name?
"Oh thank god." He whispered as he stood up and gave me a hug. I didn't really wanted the hug but I did feel welcomed.
"Selena I'm so sorry, I didn't know what came into me. Please forgive me please." he begged, he looked really scared and sincere. I can tell he was telling the truth. I gave him a faded smile.
"Why did you do it?" I questioned He became silent and then he spoke softly. He had this indescribable expression on his face that I had never seen in my life.
"She looks and acts like you. She reminded me so much of you. When I was dropping her off, I had a vision about dropping you to the airport you know. When we had our last kiss. I had the urge to feel the moment again and then sooner or later, I found myself kissing her. Please Selena, you got to forgive me." He said softly, his expression was so overwhelming and mysterious. I think this is his honest expression, I can feel the guilt in his eyes. I placed my small palm on his hand, I parted my mouth to say something until the door burst open revealing the doctor.
"Oh your awake now." He said smiling, he closed the door and went over to me and Harry. I remove my hand off his quickly letting Harry pout but I didn't fall for it.
"Yeah she just awoken 15 minutes ago." Harry had mentioned. I nodded my head until I slight pain went through me, I winced as I tried to hide the pain from showing.
"Careful there, you had a mighty hit on the head so you want to take it slow. It's not that serious but it is best to keep your head still as possible. We had wrapped a bandage on your head ok." The doctor explain. I smiled at him along with Harry.
"May I talk to Harry Styles please, follow me." he said as he left the room followed by Harry. I was left in the room alone. I closed my eyes and remembered what just happened. I got hit by a car but how, the person who must be driving the car must think its funny to hit innocent little people. I closed my eyes to as I relaxed, before I knew it I had fell asleep.
As I followed the doctor out of the room, he gave me a form that had Selena's symptoms.
"Here are the symptoms that Selena have. She must drink a lot of fluids and eat fruits for her to heal faster. Make sure she doesn't move that much since she is not allowed to move her head that much ok. I'll let her go by Tomorrow, she needs some rest." He said as I looked threw the window of Selena's room. I watched her fall asleep peacefully. Mom had told me she just came to visit us, but she also told me that she wanted to see me. But I ruined it for her.
"Thank you doctor." I said. With that he left. I had to go home right now because it was getting late but I don't want to leave Selena. She hasn't even forgive me yet, well she was about to but the doctor came. I walked to the main office and asked for a piece of paper along with a pen. I decided to write a message to Selena.
'Selena, My still so very sorry for messing up. Please forgive me. I left you in your room to rest, the doctor said that I am going to pick you up today at 9:00 Am. Remember, I always wanted a future for you and I and I'll....... Don't let me go. I Love you. -Haz.' I wrote down on the paper. I didn't want to tell her about her mother telling me to have a future with her, I'll just sound creepy and unnatural. I walked back to Selen's room opening the door slowly. As I made it to her bed, I slid down the piece of paper beside the flower vase.
Hope that she won't let me go........Please.
I heard a little bird tweet out of my window, I smiled as I opened my eyes. Its morning. I sat up on my bed and stretched my arms followed by a yawn. I realize I was still in the hospital. I felt really weak, I felt like as if I didn't have any blood flowing in me. Did I lose alot of blood? Please tell me I didn't, because I have a photo shoot on Friday. I don't want to look pale and not alive. It's Monday and here I am dying. I looked over to the little flower vase that was the only thing decorative, I smiled at it. At least I could smile. I sighed to myself until I found a white piece of paper beside the vase. I grabbed it letting curiosity to over flow me. I flipped the paper and read it.
''Selena, My still so very sorry for messing up. Please forgive me. I left you in your room to rest, the doctor said that I am going to pick you up today at 9:00 Am. Remember, I always wanted a future for you and I and I'll....... Don't let me go. I Love you. -Haz.'
I stared at the note Harry had made for me. I couldn't deny that I wanted a future for us too, mom wanted it also. Harry didn't mess up, he messed up my heart. Now I don't know what is anymore, I just can't remember. Seeing Harry kiss my best friend from grade 2 just tears me apart, Harry wasted the kiss, our kiss. I don't even know who to trust now, I want to trust Harry but I can't. Another part is telling to forgive him but the other is telling me not to.
I peered at the clock, its 8:52 Am. Harry is coming in any minute. I scratched my head feeling the urge to iche, as I scratched my head I didn't feel any pain. Am I cured? Please tell I am. I found the door open slowly revealing a Harry with flowers in his hands. Roses were my favourite of all.
"Hey your awake. I see you read my message." he said as he closed the door. I smirked at him and playfully waved the piece of paper into the air. I watched him sit on the chair beside me as he shy fully handed me the bouquet. I breathed out surprised and happily. I looked at the flowers and smelled it letting the fresh fragrance rise through and out my nose. He grinned at me softly.
"Thank you Haz." I praised as I held the bouquet beside me.
"Your welcome Sel, anything for you. May i ask, are you feeling better." He asked patiently. I nodded while smiling, why am I always smiling?
"Actually my head doesn't hurt anymore. Yesterday was a pain." I applied. It was true, it felt like I was shot by a bullet but harder. I never felt like it before.
"Really? Let me see." he said as he stood up from his chair peering at the back of my head as I bented my neck a bit. he laid his hands carefully on my shoulders giving him support. Once he gave it a look, surprisingly he bent down and kissed my head. When he pulled away, I was shocked.
"Look Selena please understand that I-" Before he could finish his sentence. A nurse came in.
"Oh Selena, your done. Your free to go now." she said as she wrote something on her clipboard. With that she also went over to the monitors to turn them off and remove the tube that was stuck inside my arm to insert some strange healing fluid. Harry stood up and helped me off the bed. After that, I was stuck with my hospital gown. Believe me, its that ugly and horrible especially with Harry around. Good thing it wasn't one of those exposed gowns where they show your full moon when you stand up, oh it would have been horrible if I had one of those. I watched Harry grab the bouquet and my other stuff, I just had noticed that he had a bag with him.
"Um Harry?" I called out gently as the nurse left the room.
"Yeah." He said putting all of attention to me as he finds his balance since he is holding alot of stuff.
"Did you bring me any extra clothes, I don't want to look like this." I asked. He gladly passed me the mysterious bag. I gave him a curious look before I could take it.
"Thank you Haz." I praised. He smiled at my act which was classic. Once I hd unzipped the bag, I came across a plastic bag. I opened it and found some fresh new clothes. Please don't tell me that Harry picked it out. I pulled the plastic bag out and hoped that Harry didn't do it. He looked at the bag and then at me with a smirk.
"Hey I didn't do it, mom did. If I did it, I knew you were going to kill me if I looked threw your stuff especially your secret undergarments drawer. Plus I know were it is now." He said moving his eyebrows up and down. I scoffed while slaping him arm, what surprised me was that he didn't wince in pain, he laughed. When I was about to zip the bag back up, I found another plastic bag at the bottom.
I opened it up revealing my clothes from yesterday. My pink flower patterned dress stained with blood and dirt, my white leggings covered in blood, and my white flats turned into a red brownish color making it look like it was dipped in mud. I closed the plastic and zipped the bag back up, and that was my favourite dress. And I just bought those white flats last week.
"Those are your clothes yesterday." he spoke. I just got caught looking too deep into the bag. I gave him a small smile before I could head out down the hall with my plastic bag. As I made it down the hall. I walked into the ladies restroom and ran to a empty stall. I removed my hospital gown and slipped into my fresh clean clothes that Aunt Anne had picked out. After I was down, I walked out of my stall and glanced at the mirror that was being shown in front of. To tell you the truth, Aunt Anne really knows how to pick out a great outfit. I smiled at myself as I left the restroom and walked back to my room, dropping my dirty hospital gown into the hamper. As I walked into my room, I realized it was empty.
"Selena!" I heard someone call out. I turned around finding Harry Standing near the entrance waiting for me. He gestured to come over her at me. I didn't give him any expression while I was walking towards him. I walked past him as I waited for the doors to slide open. He then placed his hand behind my back but I removed his hand off me. He is acting as if everything is alright when it isn't. I turn around to face Harry making him stop his track and star at me.
"Don't act as if everything is alright because it isn't." I whispered as I looked at the ground. His eyes were full of hurt but lust. I couldn't deny my own eyes, I saw him kissing Quezyly when he promised that I am the only girl that he is going kiss. I turned quickly to his car and hopped over to the back seat. I didn't want to seat at the passenger seat right now. As I waited for Harry to come in the car, he sighed at himself and turned the ignition on. I watched Harry drive out of the parking lot silently. As he was driving, he looked at me by using the rear mirror.
"Selena please talk to me" he begged. I looked out the window in silents. I didn't want t talk to him until we got home were Aunt Anne is.
"Selena......" He whined. I took a deep breath as I folded my arms.
"What do you want Harry?" I snapped. He looked terrified which I wish i would regret. I never liked being mad at Harry and never will.
"I'm sorry." I mumbled softly. I could feel the tears in my eyes trying to find there way out but I tried to could them in. I could feel Harry beam at me but I kept my head down starring at my shoes.
"I just wanted to talk to you." He whispered softly with guilt. I could hear the raspyness in his voice that made me feel convicted.
"Harry you told me to go to Los Angeles because you had faith in me that my life would be better there. Then later on when I'm gone, I try to call you but sometimes you never answer. I came back home for a week to see if you all were ok but find you cheating on me. How can I live a better life when my boyfriend is all the way here in Canada while I'm almost half way over the other side of the world." I explained. I watched Harry park the car at the side and turn the engine off. We sat there in the car in silence hoping one of us would speak up.
"I didn't mean to cheat on you Selly." He whispered softly. He turned around to look at me as our eyes met. I couldn't move or anything until I had to force myself out of his trance. I turned my head and got out of the car. I took my stuff out and walked back into my old home. As I opened the door, I noticed that Aunt Anne wasn't home. Oh right, its Tuesday. Of course she wouldn't be home, shes at work working her butt off. I took my shoes off and ran up the stairs. I could hear Harry's hot tracks behind me, as I got into my old room I quickly closed it and locked it securely. I slide down my door and ended up hugging my knees.
"Selena! Selena please open the door. I can explain everything." I heard Harry bang on the door. I began to cry letting my tears fall. The tears that were made for Harry. Half of me want to forgive Harry but the other half of me wants to slap him and leave.
"Selena! Please, I'm begging you." he whined. I stood up from the ground and glanced around my room. My room wasn't the same as Ieft it. My bed looked like it was used and my window had sticky notes on it. I walked towards my window and took a sticky note off the wall.
'Join XFactor.' it said. I noticed the writing was from Harry. I placed the sticky ote back on the wall and noticed the sticky notes spelled my name.
'win the contest.'
'record a song.'
'make my way to the chart.'
'make new friends.'
'live in a new house.'
'send money back to mom.'
'review the memories I had back home.'
'come up with ideas for my new song.'
I was baffled why I wasn't mentioned in Harry's 'To Do List'.' I can't believe he would mention Aunt Anne but never mention about me. As soon as I read the last sicky note, I had regretted my pervious thoughts.
'Move to Los Angeles and surprise Selena.'
Thats when I realized. I was that somebody that Harry wanted to see in the future. The text I had read this morning was about me. That explains all, Harry wanted to join XFactor so he could see me.
"Selena. I am not giving up until you open this door." I heard Harry beseech. I couldn't let this go onto hand. I told Demi that I would come back until everything was fixed back home and I am going to keep that statement. I walked up to my door and placed my hand on the knob. I could hear Harry breathing through the door. I can tell what he was doing behind my old pleasent door. I took a deep breath and turned my door knob making the way clear for Harry to fall. I rolled my eyes as I watched Harry fall on the ground.
"I knew you were leaning on the door." I said as I sat on the edge of my bed. Harry stood up rapidly trying to find out an excuse.
"Uh......No I wasn't I-." He huffed. While removing the dust off his trousers.
"Let go of it. That's not what I wanted to know. Please explain why I have sticky notes on my window that spell my name please..."