'Goodbye, guys!! See you all soon!', i waved at the fans, standing at the airport. It made me smile when they were waving back and saying goodbye. I took some pictures with fans and shared some autographs before i went into the plane. It was a private plane just for the crew and me though.
I had Jace in my arms when other people were putting our suitcases away.
Everyone took their seat and i placed Jace next to me in his child seat. I was scared to see or have his reaction. I hated it to take him on the plane for so long but i had to... I'm not gonna let my child in America while i know my parents aren't home that much anymore. Teddy left also and she's in London too. I can't wait to see her again just as other people i wanted to meet.
After a while, we were flying to London. I'm so excited! Jace fell asleep which made me happy.
'What will you do when you're back?', Allison came in the seat in front of me. I sighed and shrugged my shoulders.
'Go to Bob.', i lightly laughed. She rolled her eyes and looked outside the window while talking.
'I mean with the boys. Harry... Niall... Well especially Niall.', she looked to me again and slowly asked it.
'I don't know... I think it will be better if Harry sees his son. And about Niall.... I've no idea..'
'Maybe you both need to talk this out, Hillary. I'm sorry to say but i know it breaks you not having him with you again. I see it, and i know he still loves you and wants you back.'
'That isn't true! I know he's already getting me out of his mind and he moves on. I better do that too, Allison. I need to move on. The problem is, i just can't.'
She sighed and took me in a hug. I was getting stronger, outside. But on the inside, i was breaking down. My mind was ruined. Everything is flying through my mind and i get headaches from it!
I'm tired of trying to hide my break-downs. But i need to.
How would it be for people that look up to me, to see me breaking down on the street or just somewhere else. Every pap always finds me, no matter how hard i try to hide myself. I have to be strong. I need to be strong. Or else, everything will be more ruined.
We pulled away smiling a bit. I'm happy to have Allison. She's maybe my hairstylist but one of my best friends also.
'Everything will be alright. Think on Justin's song.', she laughed standing up and going away.
His name keeps flying through my head... I didn't hear him in like ages... I think everyone is forgetting about me.. And it's all my fault.
I took my phone out and took a picture of my view. It was actually beautiful... I went on Twitter and uploaded the picture.
Hillary Star @Hilla_Star
The view is beautiful !! :) Londaaaan here we come !! <3
I tweeted it and looked through my timeline.
PLEASE NIALL @NiallCrazyMofo
Niall forgetting about Hillary makes me sad :( they were so cute !
THANK YOU HILLARY @HillarysStar
Niall and Hillary were so cute! Can't believe that they're growing apart >:(
PLEASE LOUIS @HarrysCupcake
Hillary and Niall deserve better... They were perfect for each other, but see how they end up.. Totally forgetting & ignoring each other :(
I sighed and put my phone away. I need time to sleep. I'm so tired and i didn't sleep of excitement yesterday.
I slowly woke up, rubbing into my eyes. Still not in London....
'Hello, sleepy head.'
'Hey, how long did i sleep?'
'Two hours or so.', i groaned and looked over to Jace. Wauw, think he needed to sleep also.
I took my phone again to see how late it was. 3pm. I went on Twitter and saw i got a mention from Allison. I smiled and opened the tweet.
Allison :) @Alli_brie
Such a sleepy head! ;) xx She's cute, no?
I laughed and faved it. I looked through the comments. Some people put hate again and some were lovely comments.
Allison smirked when i looked up to her.
'You'll not believe who replied on that and deleted it.'
'What?..', my eyes widened a bit of shocking.
'Look, i took a screenshot. But first watch your timeline it's full of it..'
I did what Allison said and she was right...
OH MY NIALLER @NiallHoranLover1
OH GOD LOOK LOOK LOOK NIALL SAID HILLARY WAS CUTE THEY STILL EXCIST
NIALL DELETED THE TWEET WHY DID HE DO THAT EVERYONE STILL SAW IT OMFG :o
4 Yearssss @DirectionStar
Nooo, Niall didn't need to delete that tweet x_x it was so cute! Niall still loves Hillary! They need to get back together! Xx @NiallOfficial @Hilla_Star
Allison showed me her phone. So Niall didn't move on?..
Niall still loved me?...
He had already a lot of RT's and Fav's so deleting wasn't an option.
Niall Horan @NiallOfficial
@Alli_brie She is cute ;) I miss her :(
I actually can't believe he tweeted that. I mean, it's cute and i miss him too. But he knows people will see it. Especially when one person sees it, everyone does.
I wish i could hold him for one time... Or longer but i just want him again... In my arms.
I wanna feel his soft lips on mine again, and our fingers intertwined again.
I miss and love him so much.
But seeing him will break me.