I felt so broken.... Hillary can go around with people with who and where she want. But it hurts to see her laughing, talking, hugging,... with my best friends. They know i'm heart broken, and they still do so.... Ignoring to me..
'Niall, everything alright, mate?'
I heard a knock on the door. I sighed and shook my head, knowing that he couldn't see it.
The door slowly went open, and a worried Louis came into the 'bedroom'. I sighed, and looked to my hands, shrugging my shoulders.
'They do...... So..... Close...'
'They're just friends.'
'Louis... Don't believe your own words.' I got out of me. He sighed, and patted on my back. 'I do believe my own words, Niall. You better do too..... And if you don't believe them, just ask her or Justin.'
'Why should i do? Than she knows i'm pissed, and that i'm jealous.'
'Niall, she already knows that! And she is that too!'
'You told her?'
'No, well, a little bit... But she already knew that! She misses you too, and she wants you back. She's really pissed off that she broke up with you. But she wanted to take a pause.. Nothing is going on between her and Justin. Or her and Harry. Trust me!'
I sighed, and shrugged my shoulders.
'I ruined everything. She needs a pause between her relationship. But when she wants a boyfriend again, she'll take Harry, or Justin. They just ignore my heart. They ignore my sadness. If she would ask them, or they ask her, she or they would just ignore my pain, and say yes.'
Louis sighed, and i saw in the corner of my eye that he shook his head.
'Do i need to let you alone?'
I slowly nodded, and gave Louis a hug, when he opened his arms. I smiled weakly, and got rubbed on my back by Louis.
'Don't close yourself in. Come take a fresh air sometimes.'
He said, and went out of the room. I rubbed my eyes, and let myself fall on the bed. Slowly falling asleep.
'So how was it with Justin?'
Harry asked when we sat alone on the couch.
'Good. It was weird... But good.'
'One, because we didn't see each other so much. And two...... I told him about...'
I began, and went with my gaze to my tummy. Harry did an "ow.." sound, and sat straighten. I let a little sigh out my mouth, and rubbed around my tummy. It was already a little bit big. But not like a normal pregnancy big. Or how you call that. I was like.... Normally almost 1 month pregnant and i still didn't see something. Maybe i had it wrong, maybe it was longer than a month... I need to go to the doctor sometime... I even didn't get pain in the month(s). Which was weird.... It was a silence now, and i decided to take my phone out. Going on Twitter.
Many mentions of me came, and i opened some
Did Justin forget about Selena?!?!?!.. Or They (here) just friends?... @justinbieber & @Hilla_Star
Reply; @OMGMYBIEB; @JBMYLOVE @justinbieber @Hilla_Star I DON'T **** KNOW !!!!!! Hillary probably forgot about Niall too !! :( Justin has Sel. and Hillary has Ni !!! Not them together !!
I sighed, and looked further.
Hillary and Justin are together.... I think.... They got spotted together, AND i know which texts they always send!!! 10 RT's, 10 Favs, and i'll send a pic to this tweet for the texts! I know that, because it's in the books!
How the hell does she or the books/magazines now that?!...
She directly got many RT's and Favs. Everyone believes her or the magazines than...
Reply; @MyBiebs: Omg! Already many RT's and favs!! :D Haha, okay, so here it is!! PS; The texts are from yesterday or so
What the hell ?!... I've never texted with Justin like this before! All lies! Lies!-Lies!-Lies!!
Harry saw my shocked and angry face, and i directly handed my phone to him.
'Lies. Just lies!'
'Just ignore them, Hillary. They're just rebels. How the hell should they come on that picture or your phone. You showed it to no- You didn't show it to someone right?'
'Ofcourse not! And if i should, they're just like i miss him, he misses me too, we should meet each other again, and bla-bla. Nothing special!'
Harry nodded, and shrugged his shoulders. I went back to Twitter, and read further. I know i better shouldn't, but i'm just so curious!
WTF!!! @JBMYLOVE , @OMGMYBIEB and @MyBiebs They are not dating !! Hillary is still in love with Niall. She's not a player. She's still in love with him. And if they are, so what ?... I totally ship them. PS; She can still be with Harry too... They always are together too, so... But friends can still be too. Hillary has many boys as friends
That girl knew it! She was the perfect way that people have to believe! I RTed it, and followed her. I RTed it, but she still can't know what thing is right, right?
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Yesterday was just an amazing day. I watched Hillary on the telly for her concert, and she was amazing again. My love for her gets bigger and bigger everyday, and do you know what i was up to after looking to her on the telly?...
I wrote a song for her...
I know it's maybe childish, but i did. I had so much inspiration!
I even called my manager for the song, and he wanted to hear it. So i'm getting ready to let him hear it. I went to my car, and drove to the huge building.
My manager said, and gave me a pat on my shoulder.
'I'm happy you have another song. I know the fans will already love it. Come.'
He said, and i followed him, to the studio.
He said when i stood behind the microphone.
I began to sing, and directly thought about Hillary.