Hiii, sorry for not updating a lot :/ xx <3 Love Y'all <3 I'm just doing some days away, 'cuz sadly, my book has to end someday so yeah.. Will do a few chappies & probably need to end it than :(
It's been a month now that Niall and i broke up. I still think about him everyday. Sadly, the boys had to go back to England so i'm all alone. Teddy is still here, so she and my parents can help me. I've been keeping strong and saying that i had to get through this, so i did and it's going better and better everyday. Fans have been supporting me a lot too, and i decided to go out with Jace a few times on a day so fans can see him too. I feel so bad when they're just standing in front of my house when i don't even say hi.
They've been giving Jace a lot of compliments and he always giggles, even when he doesn't understand that good what they say. I'm trying to be a good mother and i think it works. I'm spending my whole days with Jace and i do everything for or with him. He's making me smile and keeps me strong also.
Harry and the others have been texting me like every hour, just to know how it is with me and Jace.
Only Niall is quiet.
I'm trying to get him out of my head. But it's to hard. It's my fault that we broke up but i'm still thinking about him. I still do love him and i'll never stop.
My phone interrupted me from my thoughts. I stood up from the couch with Jace in my arms and went to the kitchen table. It was Bob, my manager.
'Hi, Bob. Some news?'
"I've great news, Hillary!"
'C'mon, tell me!'
"You'll have to make a new song. It's all for you."
'Oh, okay. I already made some when i was a bit down...'
"Great! Well if you can come over today, than we can talk about it and you can show the song."
'Okay, i'll try to make it.'
"See you later, Hillary."
I smiled proudly and hang up the phone. I gave a kiss on Jace's cheek and went upstairs, still having him in my arms. I sat him on the bed and opened my closet. Jace was growing up so fast! And he had so much the same like Harry!... Beautiful green eyes where you can stare in for ages!
I took my sweatpants and white tank top, putting it on and taking my All Stars. It's just talking about the song, i don't need to wear something special. I skipped the make-up so just brushed my teeth and went downstairs again. I took the papers where my few songs stood on and went to the hallway.
'You ready, little man?', i smiled and put Jace's little jacket on, than mine.
I made my way to Bob's house. He has been living here too, since i had to move.
It's only like 15 minutes to walk so i smiled to my fans and put Jace in his baby car (lol idk how i need to say it else...)
We went to Bob's building and met some fans on our way too.
'Hellow, Hillary. You know where to go.', the girl after her office said in the lobby. I smiled and nodded.
I went with the elevator upstairs and knocked on his door.
'Come in!', i opened the door and saw him sitting at his office, looking on some papers. He looked up and smiled, standing up. We shook hands, and sat down on the chairs, setting Jace on my lap. Bob smiled and said hi to Jace.
'So, show me what you got.'
'Uuhm.. Okay.', i handed him the papers and waited when he was done looking at it. It's awkward but i'll sing for him later.
'It looks good, now i just need to know how it sounds.', he smiled and stood up.
'Let's go to the studio and we'll see.'
I nodded and asked him if i could just do Jace with someone else. I was lucky that i knew someone that could care for Jace today until i'm done in this building. Old friend and she never really works hard. She likes Jace too so no problem.
'Come back when you're ready.', i nodded and made my way to the elevator, giving Jace a peck on his cheek and walking out when we were at the good floor.
I knocked on Jade's office door and waited for a response.
I smiled and opened her door. She directly stood up and screamed my name and gave us a hug.
'Oh my god! Cutie!', she smiled when she hugged me and Jace and took him over.
'Can you care for him?.. Bob wants to hear my new song.'
'Thank you so much!'
'No problem! Now go.', she gave me a hug again and smiled. I nodded and gave Jace a kiss on his cheek.
I ran to the same floor as Bob was, not going to the elevator because of many people.
'Hillary! You're here. Good, if you're ready, you can start.'
I nodded and went into the recording studio. I put the headphone on and began to sing.
(Just imagine it's only in a studio)
'It's amazing! I love the song.', Bob smiled when i was done. I smiled proudly and thanked him.
'The fans will love it!!', we went out of the studio and said goodbye after we talked for a while about the song.
'I'll call you when i'm ready to make other plans.', i nodded and went to Jade, picking Jace up, and went to home again.
I out his and my jacket on, plopping on the couch and played with him.
'Love you, little cutie.', i gave him a little hug and took my phone out, taking a picture.
'Model.', i laughed and went on Twitter. Decided to tweet something since it's a long time ago.
Hillary Star @Hilla_Star
Went 2 the studio today ! Can't wait to show y'all the new song ! :) xx Love you lots xx
I tweeted it, and laid my phone next to me when i looked how late it was.
Didn't know i had been in the studio for that long.
'Time to sleep, Jacey!!', i took him in my arms again and went upstairs. It's already 8pm.
Not that late, but Jace needs to sleep.
'Hey, sweety. How was singing today?'
My mom came into my room when i laid Jace in his crib.
'Amazing! Bob liked my song.'
She smiled and gave me a hug.
'I love you, mom.'
'Love you too, hun.'
I smiled and pulled away after a while.
'I'm tired.... Gonna sleep too.', mom nodded and left me in my room. I ran downstairs, grabbed my phone and went upstairs again.
Changing my clothes to my pajamas and went under the blanket.
I just got a message so i took my phone from under my pillow and saw that Harry texted. I unlocked my phone and read it.
From; Hazza x
"Goodnight babe xx"
I smiled and replied than laid my phone under my pillow again.
To: Hazza x
"Goodnight, Hazza :) xxx"
I just wish i could say it to someone i loved more than everything.... But we're sadly, slowly drifting away from each other....
Before i could control it, a tear streamed down my cheek...