I'm sooooooooo sad :( My exams are gonna start monday & i really don't want it !! >:| Ugh.. But i'm gonna try to update so i've y'all (if you want to post a comment than ;))
Here's another chappie. I think i better do some days away 'cuz my story is long already. Don't worry, i'm not gonna end it soon. But i've really-really-reaaaally much ideas for other story's too so i hope you'll read that too !! :D xxxxxx
'Niall, just be honest!', i almost screamed through the phone. I was now home again and Niall and the others were in the studios here. Paul and all the others from their crew made dates for concerts in America here so the boys could rehears while they're here and not England.
"I still love you!"
'Than say it's not!.. If it's true, than you need to stop playing this cames with me!... If it's not, than you just say it and stop these conversations cuz i hate it!'
"Hillary, i just don't-"
'Niall, just-just stop!... I swear. Now i know it's true about you and Selena so stop it. I don't need to hear more of your lies anymore. If you love her, end US. If you still want me and love me, end you both.. If you break up with me later and still flirt with her, than it's better that you just end it NOW.'
"Hillary, listen. I love you, okay? I really-really love you. Why don't you trust me?"
'Because you don't show it anymore. How can i trust you when you don't even tell me it isn't true. You're always saying you still love me, but you don't say that you don't love Selena.', water went into my eyes and i felt i was going to burst out in tears. My mom was busy with Jace because i was having this stupid conversation with Niall..
"Can't we talk this out when i see you?"
'Not really because you'll probably be closer and closer to-'
"Don't say it.."
'Selena.', i whispered and closed my eyes.
"... I'm back in like one hour.", Niall sighed. There was a long silence until i broke it again.
'I need to go.. I've to take care of Jace.'
"Okay... Give him a big hug. I love you.."
I hang up the phone and sighed loudly. I laid it next to me on the bed and turned my head around to look outside. I still love Niall... A lot. But i don't know what to do. I know i don't need to trust the magazines and all that, but i called Niall to know the truth. And he didn't say it was true or not..
End us, or go on with a feeling that he's still so close and flirt with her...
I know Niall would never cheat on me, but what if it's true that he flirts?
He's only 20, he needs to be free. He's stuck with me like almost 4 years. He always needed to care for me and he never really went out with girls. Now it's probably time that he gets hold on me and be free with others..
'Hillary?..', i heard a knock on the door. A tear left my eye again and i looked to my hands. I slowly nodded and heard someone coming to me.
I saw it was Teddy, sitting next to me.
'Everything alright?..', i directly shook my head and burst out in tears.
'Owh, come here!', she said wrapping her arms around me and hugging me tightly. I was so happy she was here. I'm already almost a week home and she never left me. My parents, Teddy and sometimes the boys helped me with Jace 'cuz it was so hard!..
Taking care of a baby alone, wouldn't be good for me so i'm glad they are here. Well Teddy and my parents..
I don't know if i can still see Niall now..
'Everything will be alright..', she whispered, rubbing my back. I shook my head, shrugging my shoulders.
'Jace needs you.', i sighed and nodded. I stood up and wiped my tears away.
'When are they coming back?'
'In like an hour..'
'I'll talk.', she weakly smiled and went downstairs with me.
'Thank you, Teddy. I love you.', 'I love you too, Hillary. Never forget.'
I went over to Jace, where my mom sat on the couch with him in her arms.
'Hey, baby boy.', i took him over from her and gave him a kiss on his little forehead.
'I already "cleaned" him.', my mom said and stood up. I thanked her and stood up.
'I'm going upstairs with Jace. Gonna rest a bit.'
Teddy and my mom nodded, letting me go upstairs. Dad was probably working in his restaurant.
Yes, in a long time, my parents and my uncle held contact again and it's so great! I can go to my uncle's restaurant now whenever i want and no one stops me. It's not that far away too.
I laid down on my bed and slowly laid Jace next to me. He was so cute! And i'm so happy that he sometimes tries to open his eyes but he's still really sleepy. Which is normal. When he opens his eyes, i still see some green shines like Harry's eyes in his which makes me smile everytime more and more.
I don't care if he looks more like Harry or me. It would be both fun. Harry always texts me to know how it is, and i already know that he's happy with it. I've never been out of the house actually. I didn't want people running to us and ask how it went or play with Jace because it's not good for all the stress for the baby OR even me.
I woke up with a baby crying. I groaned and looked beside me. Jace was crying and i felt so bad. I directly stood up, taking him in my arms and going downstairs.
'I'll feed him.', i said when my mom came running in-in the living room. She sighed out of relief and nodded, going back to the kitchen.
I sat down on the couch and looked around. Teddy was helping my mom with food and all stuff. I weakly smiled and began to feed Jace. He calmed down a bit and took my one finger in his little-little hands. It was so cute. I've been taking pictures of him a lot and i've like more than 200 on my phone now. Every day, i took like 20 pics and i filmed too. Every part what he did was just to cute, even when he couldn't walk or talk.
I got a text when i was done feeding him and i decided to first lay him in his little baby crib.
I went downstairs again, seeing Teddy on the couch.
'Your mom left to the mall. She needed some other things.', i nodded and sat next to her.
'Is it a bit better?'
'Myeah... A little...', i said shrugging my shoulders. I took my phone out of my pocket and saw Harry's name on my screen. I weakly smiled and unlocked my phone.
From; Hazza x
"How is it?! We're on our way <3"
To; Hazza x
"It's a bit better :/ Idk but okay. My mom is to the malls, buying some food so when y'all are back, food will probably be ready ;) xx <3"
From; Hazza x
"YES! We've so much hungry!! <3"
I laid my phone on the little table when i chuckled. I put the TV on and watched "Miley Cyrus The Movement" that was on MTV.
After a few minutes, mom got back and started with the food again. I didn't had much hungry because i still felt sick and bad.
'You need to eat.', Teddy said when i told her i didn't want. I sighed and rolled my eyes.
'WE'RE BACK!', we heard familar voice "scream". I smiled and saw them coming in.
'Heeeey, is food already done?!', Louis cheered running into the kitchen. I chuckled and stood up. Everyone gave me a hug, except for Niall. He tried to kiss me but i just walked to the kitchen, trying to ignore him. Even when i wanted to hug him and kiss him back!..
'Hey, babe.', Harry smiled and gave me a tightly hug.
'Hey.', i said and sat at the table in the kitchen. Mom placed the food on the table and sat down too.
'How's Jace?', Liam asked smiling while taking his food.
'He's good. He cried one time today and is now sleeping.'
'I think he's gonna be a great kid and not be so hyper.'
'Like me..', Harry smirked and winked. We all laughed which made him go angry. Well, he tried but he still had to laugh too.
'I'm going to Jace. I wanna see him!', Harry stood up and grabbed my hand too, not saying something. I rolled my eyes but still followed him upstairs. Jace was still sleeping so cute. I smiled and took Harry's hand. He smiled to Jace and than to me.
'He's so cute.'
'I know right. Just like you.', Harry whispered smirking. I chuckled and went closer to Jace.
'It's better if we just leave him sleeping. He's still to little and needs to rest.', Harry nodded and went downstairs with me again. We still held hands, which made Niall look white.
If he tought i already replaced him, he's wrong!! Why should i?
By the way, 1. He's "busy" with Selena! And 2. I was just holding Harry's hand. He knows we're still very close...
He doesn't need to be jealous or something. I walked with Harry to the couch and sat down next to Zayn. He smiled and watched further TV while everyone did too.
It was so silence now... Like nobody knew what to do. Teddy sat down next to me too and smiled weakly.
We watched movies and after a while, like everyone almost fell asleep.