'Hillary! You can't lock yourself in there! Come out of the bathroom!', i almost yelled trying to get her out of the room. It was annoying me that she felt bad.
'Hillary, please. If you don't wanna talk, than just let me in.', i said with a lower voice, trying to get me in the bathroom. I heard a little sob and saw the door opening.
'Come here..', i took her in a tight hug when i came to her and closed the door directly.
'Do you wanna talk?...', she shook her head and pulled away a bit. I nodded and sat at the edge of the bathtub. I took her hand and pulled her to me, letting her sit on my lap.
'Hillary, you know, if you wanna talk, you always can. I'm here for you.'
She looked up and smiled weakly. She forced herself to do it, but seeing her smile was just a good feeling. Yes, i've still feelings for her. After all these years, i still have. Especially when we have a child now. It connects us and i don't wanna break it. If our connection breaks, Jace will be too.
'I just don't want troubles anymore...', she whispered in my chest. I looked confused but than understood what she meant.
'I understand you, Hill... I know it's hard.'
'But i still love him, Harry! I just don't want to live like this.', she sighed.
'I know, Hillary. Just hold on... You know Niall loves you too.'
She looked up at me again and i saw hurted eyes. I felt a pain through my body. A lot of pain. I didn't know it it was because she still loves Niall -which i understood- or if it's because she's hurted..
She slowly came closer with his head. My eyes widened and didn't know what to do.
'Uuhm.. Hillary.', she opened her eyes in shock and got red. She stood up and held her head in her hands.
'I'm so sorry, Harry !! I-', i cut her off and took her in my arms.
'It's okay, Hillary.'
I wanted to feel her lips so bad. But it was wrong. If she just broke up with Niall, than she doesn't need to kiss me.
'I know it's bad. I'm sorry, Harry... I just-I don't know what's wrong. I just miss you..'
I weakly smiled and held her tighter. What i'm gonna do will kill me, & i'm really gonna hate myself for this but maybe, it will be nothing! Just forget it and that's it.
I pulled away and kissed her on the lips. She first didn't kiss back but i felt her relax.
After a few minutes we pulled away and stared in each others eyes.
'I miss you too, Hillary... A lot more than you think...
I miss you in my arms, next to me. Just when i feel bad and don't show it, but i know you always know when i feel bad. The only reasons i feel bad the last few days is because i can't have you in my arms when i need it.'
She hugged me tightly again and whispered something i barely heard.
'I love you, Harry.', i smiled and lifted her chin up.
'I love you too, Hillary. More than you'll ever know.'
'I can't believe you just did that!', i heard Liam say when i came of the stairs. I looked confused and went into the living room, seeing Liam and Zayn on the couch.
'Harry, don't act like you don't know.'
'You just kissed Hillary! Just after she broke up with Niall! I never thought you would be like that!', Liam yelled and shook his head.
'Wow, wait! You don't-'
'Shut up, Harry! We don't need to hear your lies. You just made Niall feel more desperate!'
'He saw us?'
'No, but he still loves Hillary and you just try to take her away from him?! Are you happy now. They broke up!'
'Okay first of all! I don't want to take her away from Niall! I wanted to hear what was wrong and i didn't want that she locked herself! Second, how do you guys even saw that?!
I'm not even happy they broke up. They were perfect together!'
'It's not hard to see you both kissing when you're close to the window! You're lucky that no one else saw you both!'
'Liam, i swear! She's just hurted and feels bad! I kissed her because she said she missed me.'
'Harry, we all know that Hillary will never kiss someone after a break up. Especially not when Niall is in this story.', Zayn calmly said. I sighed loudly and rolled my eyes.
'Niall is my best mate! One of my best mates! I feel bad that we kissed but i wanna see her happy. I do everything to make her happy! I'd never try to take her away from him or let them break up. And i would seriously not do anything bad to Niall!', i screamed and stormed out of the house. When they don't believe me, i can't be there anymore. I didn't even know where Niall and Louis were.
I sighed and stood up, looking into the mirror. I cleaned my face and didn't even had the feeling to put make up on, so i just went downstairs and saw Liam and Zayn sitting on the couch. They looked mad and didn't even look to me.
'What's wrong, boys?'
'You kissed Harry. Are you really that fast over Niall?!'
My eyes widened of the words Liam said.
'Well if he'll found out, you know he'll be more broken than he already is. If that's actually possible.'
'I know... I still love Niall! I just- i don't know what's wrong with me..', i wanted to cry again. I'm really sensitive.... But i kept strong and sat at the other couch next to Liam and Zayn.
'Look... We got mad at Harry, but he explained us... We're gonna try to talk to him again and say sorry.. We don't need to be mad at both of you. It's just not fair for Niall..'
My heart broke more and more when i heard his name and when i realized what i did to him..
I nodded and looked to my hands.
'He's walking around town with Louis. Harry stormed out of the house..'
I slowly nodded again and looked up.
'I feel so bad..', i sighed and felt 4 arms around me. Liam sat at my right side and Zayn the left one. They hugged me tightly and a smile went on my face. I'm glad i still have support from them. Even when i and their bandmate broke up...
It hurts... A lot.... And i regret the sentence i said... I better never said it... I didn't wanna end Niall and me! It just got out of my mouth... I f*cked everything up and i just wanna hold him again. I wanna feel his hugs, hear his angelic voice and feel his kisses...
Not Harry's ones....