It's already 10.30PM and i'm feeling tired, sick, emotional & all feelings together... I want this stupi- lovely kid out of me!.. I did a test today and it's clearly a boy. Which made me smile because Niall will be so happy!... He said i needed to call when everything went good and when i knew everything but i wanted to let it a suprise. I cried like an hour because i was so happy that everything was alright. Niall and the boys will be really happy, & Louis already told me on the phone that Harry secretly wanted a boy too.
I was watching Girl Code, don't ask me why... Their was nothing else on the tv and i really hate that. But my eyes were already closing because i was to tired. I still layed in the hospital.
If i wanted it, i already could've go out of it but if the baby comes this week, is it better if i just stay here right.
Niall would normally be here already but i don't know where he is. Soon enough, i went to dreamland.
Hillary didn't call me the whole day and i was pretty worried.
What if it didn't go alright and she's crying the whole time? Maybe she didn't dare to call me because she would cry and think i'd do something? While i really shouldn't but she can still call me right?
'But i'm gonna go now, mom. Miss you and talk to you later.'
"Bye, Sweety. Call me as soon you know something. Everything will be fine. Don't worry."
I smiled weakly and hang up the phone. I'm so happy with a mom as mine.
I put my phone in my jacket and got me a way to the hospital. I knew a friend that lived here and i just wanted to be out of the hospital for a few hours, which actually led to a whole day...
I finally arrived at the hospital and went to the woman that sat behind the desk.
'Hellow, mr. Horan. You're here for Mrs. Star?'
I nodded and smiled weakly, hoping she would still let me in because it's pretty late.
'Uuhm... We normally can't let you visite her anymore, but it's good for one time.'
She said and gave me a sweet smile.
'Thank you!', i said, directly running to Hillary's room. She'll probably be asleep but i hope in a good sleep and not a bad sleep because of today maybe.
I opened her door and saw her 'sweetly' sleeping. I smiled and saw the TV playing. I put him off and sat next to her on a chair when i closed the door. I slowly took her hand in mine and intertwined our fingers, trying to not wake her up. My eyes got heavier when i comfortably sat on the chair, slowly drifting asleep too.
I woke up, slowly sitting straight and seeing Niall already awake, watching me with a big smile.
'How did it went yesterday? You didn't call or text?'
'Yeah... I wanted to see your face when you'll know it.'
'... Owkay... Well, i'm here and you can see me.. How was it?'
'You're a lucky one...', i began and saw Niall's head shot up and his eyes were like shining stars.
'It's a boy.'
'What the-! Hillary! That's awesome, babe!', Niall said and directly took me in his arms. I giggled and pulled away after a while.
'I knew you would be happy. And need to be honest, i'm still super happy to have a little boy.'
'I'm so so so happy! Words can't explain!'
I smiled brightly and gave him a kiss on his soft lips. Now need to tell Harry actually... I think i'm sometimes to in and say that it's Niall's kid while it's not...
'What will be his name?..'
'Oh... Yeah... I was to happy to not think about a name.'
I chuckled and nodded.
'Me too.... But we can't always call him 'He' or 'The baby.' he really needs a name.'
'I know, princess.. Well..... I...'
I watched Niall and saw he didn't dare to say something. What was so bad to say or ask?
'Babe... I know... It maybe looks... Like.. I am the father... But-'
'I know Niall.. I'm sorry but it just feels that you are a daddy now. Harry didn't even call to ask how it went and it makes me more feel sick than i already am. If he's really worried, he already could've called and he knew i did tests yesterday. Did i hear something from him? No. So you are my boyfriend and that's why it feels that i've a baby with you!'
I sighed and closed my eyes a bit. My mood turned everytime and especially when something is really 'pissing' me off.
'Uuhm... He always calls me to ask. He's scared, if he calls you that he'll get... This.
He thinks you're sleeping so he don't want to wake you up. But he really cares, Hillary. He cares a lot. I think even more than i do because HE is the father and i don't need to decide how the baby calls.'
Niall said. I think he was a bit mad because i snapped like that to him. Well he needs to understand that-that is one of the things he'll get when i'm pregnant.
'I-I'm sorry Niall...'
'It's okay, Hillary. I know where you're going through. This is a part of being pregnant so i need to live with it. But call Harry... Now..'
He said, handing his phone to me. I nodded and gave him a kiss on his lips. Niall sat at his chair again and took his phone, probably going on Twitter. Which i better need to do again because people will be confused and Maybe worried. I searched Harry in Niall's phone and called him, waiting to take up the phone.
"Hey, mate. What's up?"
"Hillary? Hey. Everything okay?"
"Yeah. Everything is great. More than that actually. I wanted to tell you somethin'."
"Sure. What is it?"
"I know the results from yesterday.", i said smiling.
"Really?! And?!", he said, i heard he was getting excited to know it.
"It's a boy."
"I'm so glad! I'll try to come as soon as possible, Hillary."
'It's okay, Hazz. It'll take a few days until it's time so yeah.. But that was the first reason i called. Now the second.. We still need a name.'
"Ow, uuhm.. Can't we do that when i'm with you? I mean, that's better and all that, but i need to go now."
'Oh.. Sure.. Yeah, will see you later.'
"Bye, babe.", i swallowed and said bye back. It's still weird when he calls me babe. Even when he does that a lot to others too.
'And?', 'He's happy and will come as soon as possible to talk about the name.', i said handing Niall's phone back to him.
'That's great.', he said and smiled. I nodded and laid back in bed. I was happy that everything was alright. Only 2 people that i didn't hear and that made me a bit upset..
I didn't hear Teddy for a long time.
And i still didn't hear Justin since that.. Night..